Not doing great

TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me

Username: JV24JV24

Date posted: 26d ago

Sorry to hear about the accident. Hope all is well. I’ve had flare ups through my life. I was good for about 8 years but now this time feels worse than the last. I feel like I always say that though during a flare up. What is the theme you are currently dealing with?

Username: violettag6violettag6

Date posted: 26d ago

I can understand that. Right now I’m going through the doubting my sexuality thing. I’ve identified as a lesbian for three years confidently and now I’m not so sure. It’s really stressing me out especially because I’m in a relationship. Along those lines, I also fear that I’ve cheated on my girlfriend and not remembering it or considering my thoughts as cheating or lying. It’s super exhausting because it’s one of those things where you can tell yourself over and over that it’s just ocd but the uncertainty is debilitating

Username: JV24JV24

Date posted: 26d ago

Hi! I’m just curious and comparing my own OCD to others. Are you in the middle of an OCD flare up? How long has this been going on? Before the OCD spiral do you remember how you were before the thoughts took over? Thanks in advance for a response. I don’t mean to pry but I try to dig in to understand more about this OCD doubting disease.

Username: violettag6violettag6

Date posted: 26d ago

@JV24 Not prying at all!! I’ve been in this flare up for probably more than a month now. I was in a pretty serious car accident in the beginning of december and I’m trying to figure out if that was the cause in some weird way. And yes I do remember how I felt before. I didn’t question myself and just let myself feel/think things without attributing meaning to it. Always had intrusive thoughts, but they’ve gotten worse especially with feeling guilt. I had flare ups before but not like this one, lasting only a week or two.

Username: Samantha SullivanSamantha Sul...

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 5d ago

Hi there ! I am a therapist here at NOCD. I see that you posted this 20 days ago but I just wanted to see if you are feeling any better ? OCD can be so hard to manage some times and utilizing your support system ( without reassurance seeking, of course) is so important. Are you in therapy? If not, ERP makes a HUGE difference on those who struggle with OCD. Life does not have to be this way forever !

Username: King silly

Date posted: 22w ago

I genuinely can’t do this anymore

I keep waking up, overwhelmed with anxiety and I feel like an awful person and I don’t know why…? But I feel like it’s because of POCD, I genuinely feel like a bad person because of all of my false attraction experiences, I feel like it’s my fault, I feel like an awful person and I’m spiraling, it’s so hard to look at myself in the mirror, i can’t bare it, I just feel so awful about myself and I don’t know what to do anymore. I genuinely can’t do this anymore.

POCD

Username: issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 15w ago

Do you ever just feel like a bad person?

Does anyone else experience this lingering fear and anxiety because they think they’re capable of hurting someone? It’s killing me. I feel like I’m such a danger. I feel like I’m a predator. I feel like this awful person and I can’t shake it. I want to carry on with my day but I can’t. I don’t feel like I deserve it. I feel like I’ve done awful things. I can’t stop crying.

Username: Jemma_Dan

Date posted: 9w ago

What should I do guys?

I’ve been feeling so disconnected lately, like I’m not even living my own life. It’s like I’m being controlled by someone else, and I have no say in what’s happening. It’s hard to put this feeling into words, but it’s like I’m here physically, but mentally, I’m just... not. Every day feels like a struggle. I wake up afraid of what’s coming next, almost like I’m bracing myself for the next bad thing to happen. Sometimes, I don’t even want to get out of bed because it feels pointless, like I’m stuck in this loop of fear and doubt. I keep questioning everything, life, my purpose, my choices, and it’s exhausting. I just want to feel like myself again, to feel like I have control, like I’m really here.

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