- Username
- Becky B.
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y ago
It is definitely one of my main obsessions too. OCD often tells me I’m a fraud and don’t deserve the job I have. Every time I have a triggering experience at work, OCD tells me I have done something terribly wrong; that I’m not qualified to supervise or mentor others; that I’m a hypocrite and have made unforgivable mistakes.
Yes. Omg yes. This is one of my biggest obsessions. Now I’m the person that does the firing and write ups ironically. Every once in a while, when I’m doing better, I get in this attitude where I don’t care (usually if I get mad at my job) and say I’ll walk out if I have to and shred any write ups they try to give me but that’s ONLY because I know they need me more than I need them. If the situation was any different, and I was in a lower level position, I’d struggle a lot more again with that obsession.
This is one of my main obsessions. I am successful in my field but my OCD makes me feel like a fraud. Remember: OCD attacks what is important to you.
Same. I go through horrible scenarios in my mind about losing my job and becoming unemployable, etc.
Yes. I used to rip my exposures into several pieces and throw them away in different garbage cans so no one could put them together. Honestly, planned exposure helps but resisting compulsions helps even more. It hurts a lot but you will get better if you don’t give OCD it’s fuel.
I don't have a job because I'm scared of getting fired for doing stuff wrong constantly...
Any ideas for exposures I can do around this obsession?
My therapist has me write out scripts about my fears coming true. I read one of them once a day for 20 minutes. Just as important: try not to do compulsions. For me, that means resisting urges to check and confess.
Yes! Confessing is a HUGE compulsion for me. Especially since I just took a new role a few months ago. My therapist has asked me to write down my exposure narratives and I tried it once but got paranoid someone would find them and freaked out and ripped them up. I should probably try again.
I am also now in a position where I am doing the firing and write-ups for my department, but I work for a large umbrella company so there are still people above me and still possibilities for me to get in trouble/fired. I thought that being promoted to this position would help to ease my anxiety around being fired or written up, but it has actually made it worse. OCD is telling me that now that I’ve gotten where I always wanted to be in my career, it could be ripped out from under me at any moment, if I am anything less than perfect.
Anyone else here’s OCD surround a family member? Like the obsessions are all about something happening to a member of the family/someone you care about?
This week has been tough for me. My supervisor at my job gave me some feedback that really triggered some intense OCD thoughts. They told me I was making careless mistakes on a task and that I am not being detail oriented enough. I’m sure that all of you are aware of how crazy this might sound to someone with OCD who double and triple checks everything they do. Anyway, because of this error they took away my other responsibilities because the mistake I was making was apparently bad enough that they felt they couldn’t trust me to do anything else. On top of it being terrible management and that it doesn’t teach me anything or show me what to do differently, it also seriously triggered my anxiety. Now anytime I do something at work I have been checking it 100x over because I’m afraid of another mistake. I wish people would be kinder when they criticize. Sending love to anyone who checks their work for perfection ❤️
Hey everyone! I’m new to this app, but not new when it comes to OCD treatments. A few years ago I had to leave school/ my job in order to work on my mental health which was hard but needed. Mentally things have more or less gotten better OCD wise but I still really struggle with protectionism. I started a new job within the past 6 months that is challenging, but I enjoy enough to hopefully stay at for a few years. As of the past two weeks I have been really struggling with ruminating over my performance at work. I have been trying really hard to learn all the moving parts of the job, but because of lack of mentoring and constant little hiccups I have been stressing. Currently I have been overwhelmed/ overthinking so much that I have been messing up my work and it seems like my coworkers are pretty annoyed by constantly having to correct me. It’s honestly my worst fear as a perfectionist to feel like a burden. My intrusive thoughts as of late is that they are going to think I don’t care or try hard enough, that they talk bad about me to each other, and that they are going to fire me. Has anyone else experienced this type of OCD perfectionism that affects there performance within school or work and if so is there anything that you did in order to help recenter yourself in the moment to stop your brain from running in circles?
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