No contact guilt :/

Im basically still a child, but have been an adult in the eyes of the government for 2 years. Then I made my grand escape away from home, broke but determined to be set free for the hell I was living. I’ve talked about it on another post but I’m a survivor of childhood s*xual assault. I’m too scared to cut my family off 100% because of like Stockholm syndrome I guess? But whenever I interact with them, good or bad, I find my ocd flare ups to be way more often. Like the intrusive thoughts that haunt me about sex and about my relationships consume me when I think of talk to my family. Is anyone here no contact with their family? How did you work through this. WAITTTTTT!!! Please take this capybara eating a watermelon on a stick for your travels.

Philipp2024

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 25w

Wow good job on escaping hell. I think breaking of 100% is the right thing to do, even if it hurts initially, because there are so many more years to come for you. Usually we say to not avoid OCD triggers, but in this case it is worth it to avoid. You don’t want these people destroying your life even more. I’m sorry that I can’t contribute with my own experience, just wanted to say that I applaud you for cutting ties and reaching for a better life that you deserve 💯

FWann~

Date posted: 25w

@Philipp2024 Thank you so much! I’ll take your advice into mind 🩷

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Date posted: 25w

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FWann~

Date posted: 25w

@useless. Like I feel like I’m forever tied to them emotionally. My friends are always like “ dude your parents are terrible fuck them” and I agree but like I still was with them my entire life. I’m not sure if it’s love, but love shouldn’t tear me apart like this.

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Date posted: 25w

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FWann~

Date posted: 25w

@useless. Thanks for replying, it’s always nice to hear reassurance from someone else looking in :*)

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