feeling like i dont wanna be friends anymore..

Dealing with this currently. Also not diagnosed yet but working towards that. I haven't sent out the message of not wanting to be friends, but they knew I was spiraling and eventually things got to a point where I said I needed space, didn't have the energy, etc. They both said they wouldn't say anything and keep their distance so I have space, but we work together and now I feel the need to avoid them. I don't know how to confront them and I panic every day at work whether they're actually mad at me, talking sht about me, if maybe just sending a message to end the friendships completely would help.... I've also considered telling them I think it's ocd but what if it's not? Or what if they don't understand the absolute depth in me saying that? What if they think "okay but you can't even talk at all? Because of ocd?" and then I loop back around to maybe I just need to cut it off, what if this doesn't end well, what if they hate me already etc etc. But I feel bad because besides a couple things, we had a great thing going and all of a sudden I felt the need to push them out and isolate 😭

It definitely sounds like it could be relationship OCD! It can latch onto ALL types of relationships including family, friends, and more. If you are interested in getting a formal diagnosis and getting specialized treatment for OCD, you can start with a free intake call with NOCD. I do ERP here and it has helped a TON with dealing with the guilt and distress that OCD can bring on. You deserve to feel better!

It sounds like you’re really struggling with these thoughts and the strong emotions that come with them. It’s understandable to feel conflicted when you’re experiencing intense feelings like this, especially when there doesn’t seem to be a clear reason behind it. The guilt and confusion you’re feeling are common when OCD presents with relationship-related obsessions. In cases like this, OCD can make you doubt your feelings and create unnecessary distress about decisions that may not actually reflect your true desires. It can make it difficult to trust your own judgment and lead to second-guessing, which only adds to the pain. It’s important to remember that OCD can cause intrusive thoughts that feel incredibly real, even when they’re not aligned with your true feelings. These thoughts can make you question things you usually feel confident about. Feeling relieved at the thought of ending these relationships might be a temporary way to ease the anxiety these thoughts create, but it doesn’t necessarily reflect what you actually want long-term. How do you feel when you think about not acting on these thoughts? Does it bring any sense of clarity or calm?

Hello there! 😊 I know those pesky "what if" thoughts can be really challenging, and it's completely normal to feel the urge to do something to ease that discomfort. The good news is that working with a therapist can really help you develop new skills to manage these feelings and reduce your daily distress, improving quality of life. Getting a proper diagnosis is a great first step. Joining the NOCD platform to learn more is a start, consider reaching out to member services to schedule a diagnostic assessment. Take care. We are here to help🌟