OCD thought struggles

So at night I have these intrusive thoughts that I leave the door wide open. This causes me to fear that someone will walk in the house and harm my family. I also have this back massage device. I fear that if I leave it plugged in on accident a fire will happen. So I went down to make sure that it was not plugged in. The thing is that I never used the massager that day. When I went back up I felt like I opened the front door (an entrance to my house) even though I didn't. I had to get my wife to check the door other wise I would not have slept. When I checked it I became more insecure. This has been reoccurence with me.

autumnp18

Date posted: 7w ago

i can relate to you on both of these things! fires and door openings. maybe ask yourself the probability of those things happening. logically it’s not likely. just focus on that

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 7w ago

Hey there, thanks for sharing this. OCD can be so convincing and use the pervasive doubt to make us even doubt the checking compulsions we've completed. It can be hard but the way through this is to begin to decline giving OCD the compulsions it is seeking, that includes not asking others to do the compulsions for us. It's very hard, but worth it in the long run! Here's an article that might be helpful as you consider pushing back against OCD! https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/im-always-afraid-i-left-my-door-unlocked-is-it-ocd

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User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w ago

I get it. I really, really do. Have you tried ERP therapy? It's an OCD-centric treatment method that would really help with these intrusive thoughts and these worries. The idea is to sit with your fears without compulsing, and without engaging, until they pass through you. If you haven't already, I'd highly recommend checking it out either through NOCD or elsewhere!

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 7w ago

Hi JFL, this does sound like the OCD cycle. Unfortunately, reassuring ourselves and/or seeking reassurance from others/eliciting their help, even if well intentioned only feeds the OCD cycle. OCD wants you to seek reassurance because when you get a little bit of it you feel better but only for the very short term until the thought returns so then we seek reassurance again, the thought returns, etc. Seeking reassurance is feeding the OCD "monster." ERP therapy assists in "starving" the OCD monster so it's not as bothersome anymore.

JFL

Date posted: 7w ago

Thank you for the response. The hard part is always at night. How does one suppose to fall asleep with the discomfort and fear the thought brings. I am the most prone when trying to sleep at night and that's when I have been seeking the reassut

Mcd101057

Date posted: 16w ago

Intrusive thoughts after masturbation

Dose anyone else experience that your OCD calms down and goes to the back of your mind during- feels almost safe and unaware of it but as soon as it's over and youve calmed down all the intrusive thoughts come rushing back 10x worse? I've had really awful panic attacks because of it the past two nights and it's exhausting I haven't been with another person in over a year because of how bad it was after and not being able to explain it properly to partners "no I'm not crying because of you" "no you didn't do anything wrong" I feel insane- like I'll never be able to have a normal functioning sexual time alone or with others do to it the compulsions that come with it are exhausting it's like the need to cleanse myself of filth like I'm disgusting and horrible until there's no traces I did anything in the first place I'm just so tired dose anyone have any tips of how to work through this- or at least be able to enjoy myself without crying afterwords? I have no idea what subtype this would even entail? I'm going to go with contamination I guess ?

Contamination OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 8w ago

Afraid I’ll never be able to stop thinking

My OCD has been terrible the for the past two weeks. I have a fear that I will never be able to get out of the thought loop. I am hyper aware of my thoughts and it disturbs me. I haven’t been able to eat for 10 days. I force myself. I haven’t been able to sleep for more than a couple hours. Then I wake up and ruminate for a couple hours, until I’m exhausted. I’m also afraid I’ll never sleep well again. And I’m afraid I’ll never eat and enjoy my food again. I’m afraid I’ll never be able to stop thinking about this enough to enjoy my family ever again.

"Pure" OCD

OoOcCdD66

Date posted: 7w ago

R-OCD...cheating fears

Currently I have several different OCD fears that pop up throughout the week depending on the situation. I've noticed a commonality between all of them are the fears relating to memory/false memory. Today is the ROCD struggle I've been dealing with. I know OCD has been trying this on me lately because of how much I love my spouse. They are my absolute best friend and she's my world. I value our marriage and friendship more than anything. OCD has latched onto one specific female coworker. And I don't even know why because even if I were single I wouldn't be into her. Even still, OCD makes me think I've cheated on my wife every time I'm alone with this coworker at work. Always starts as a what if, followed by imagery, followed by feelings that I must've actually done something and can't remember it. Usually fearing I've kissed her. It hurts because I know I'd never do that to my wife and I love her so much...the idea of losing her kills me, especially if it were the result of something I did. Just wanted to vent. Feel free to share your experiences or vents as well

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