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Have you ever heard of Mark DeJesus? He's a former pastor, OCD survivor, and has a ton of good information on this very topic. I would recommend looking him up on YouTube. So step 1 would be to address the OCD part of this situation. Step 2, much of this can be addressed by biblical doctrine. What does the Bible say about the character of God, grace, the church age, our status as God's children, and most importantly, the doctrine of salvation. I had major religious OCD myself, so I understand what you're going through. I'd be glad to talk with you more as well. God bless!

I definitely understand this… and experience the same thing! Sorry I don’t have advice but you’re not alone in that loop of thinking. Dm me if you’d like! :)

Hi so I often feel the same way about my interests, because there's a lot of secular things I enjoy. My priest (who has OCD) told me that having OCD is a real disability, it's like not understanding why someone without legs can't bow. They can't, and we can't do things that we know will make OCD worse aka compulsions. Most things will not save you, but they won't damn you either, they're neutral. All things in balance. Do what you need to do (self care, working, praying), then do what you enjoy, and trust that God wants you to be happy. Even Jesus went to parties (wedding at Cana), and made more wine so people could enjoy themselves!