- Username
- Laura3
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Absolutely!!! Fuck me OCD sucks!! For some reason my brain reminds me of every single ritual and compulsive action I’ve ever had and then as I develop more they just get added to the archives!!
Yesss? I have bad contamination ocd as well, and it just keeps getting more restrictive, adding things to the list of what's contaminated? Trying to break the circle and wash doorknobs less and all that, but it's easier said than done. So I get it :)
that’s awful you’re going through that, but I feel better knowing there’s someone out there that knows how I feel Rn :(
@Laura3 Same.. I can't do anything without worrying. Always feeling like there is a contamination risk, washing my hands countless (literally) times a day and annoying people around me with reassurance questions. I need to make some improvement goals for 2020. Hope you do to! It can get alot better than this. Stay positive and take small steps in the right direction :)
@washie I completely get you. We can get through this! ?
I also used to go to the gym and go about my day in my place but now it’s a 30 min wiping showering laundry ritual right after. I go to school and work a lot and just don’t have time to deal with that. I spend an hour a day and another hour each week just on de contaminating. It’s so hard and I’ve been away this past few days I didn’t have to deal with any of that and I miss my old life so much
I know, I can barely remember my life without ocd. I hope I can get a little bit of it back at least. Even visiting friends is stressful to me. If I happen to see something on their couch that I feel is contaminated, I can't stop thinking about it. And it's kind of hard engaging in a conversation the whole evening while trying to sort out ocd stuff at the same time. It's all just exhausting. And don't even get me started on public toilets.. ? I wish treatment was easier too??
Public toilets are kinda gross. I understand that
Yep! My routines just multiply bit by bit. I’m so sick of wasting so much fine!! ?
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Washie. Same with me. I created rituals that I can no longer undo. I over wipe and over wash things. I think seeing something gross means it contaminated me and it makes me think everything I wore and came across with that day is now contaminated. I can’t even go to the grocery store after work because I think I’m fully contaminated and cannot touch items. I over wipe and over wash and I spray things many many times with cleaner
I’ve been trying to reduce it but it’s just gotten worse and more out of control the more I try to add rituals
Lark: Our ocd is very similiar, the constant washing and feeling like contamination moves from item to item, and then suddenly "everything" is dirty. I just used 3 wipes cleaning doorknobs. I know I shouldn't, but as you know, that intense feeling of stress and disgust is really hard to sit with? I also feel like the floor has outside contamination from shoes and have to wash anything I drop. It's such a struggle in my life. I try to focus on finding ways to get better. Exercise, trying out different diets and so on.. You're not alone. Stay positive. It's possible to get a lot better! :) ☀️
Literally same! Weirdly my OCD is mainly at night time and revolves around a routine before I go to bed so I have a chain of contamination rituals. I have 3 showers, at best, if everything works out okay, but that’s never the case ? I disinfect EVERYTHING. By the time I go to sleep it’s like 4am, I’m just so tired from doing rituals all I want to do is sleep but ? I literally see everywhere as contaminated. it’s a constant battle that becomes war at night time ? I miss the days when my biggest OCD worry was washing my hair everynight.... lol
Thanks washie. I found things were slightly better when I minimized carbs and sugar but now I’m back in full swing and eat a lot of both. I also cannot exercise because the gym and gym germs also freak me out. Do you find it helps you?
Oh I can't go to the gym either *chills* lol. I have an elliptical trainer at home that I use. I don't know how much it does for the ocd, but it definitely makes me feel better about things in general. I tried 10 days without dairy as well (read everywhere that it could help), but that didn't do anything for me.?♀️
I had that too but im learning to let the thought happen and let it go.
The healthy part of the brain knows that it's a complete waste of time and energy. I never had any excessive cleaning rituals before I got ocd, and I was completely okay then too. I remind myself of that from time to time. =)
Do you guys ever look back on old obsessions and think “oh gosh that was nothing compared to the one I’m going through now?” I do this all the time. Things that use to freak me out really bad are way less intense then they are now. Idk if that’s just how OCD is or if it’s just because mine has gotten worse. Hoping I push through this?
Existential/philosophical obsessions? Anyone dealt with this before? I literally feel like I’m getting better with it and boom I get triggered by something I read unintentionally on the internet or talks with others, movies or tv and I feel like I’m back to square one with a new existential obsession that I feel like I need to solve. I just am so frustrated I’m trying to go about this in the right way I’m trying but I just don’t know how to go about it right. My ocd has taken many forms and everytime it’s one I wish for the other it’s so wierd. Like right now I rather be dealing with my health obsessions then this. But if it’s not one it’s the others it’s like I’m addicted to ocd and juggle obsessions. I just want peace but idk what to do. Does anyone else feel like they conquer one obsession and a new one pops up? I feel like I constantly am in a loop I look at old notebooks and realize I’ve been jumping around the same obsessions for over 3 years. Insanity. I would love to hear what has helped you guys and what I you think I should do?
I need an answer to this please: does your ocd change? I have obsessive thoughts over something for months (sometimes years) then it changes to something else & the other thing doesn’t bother me anymore. For example, I used to have relationship OCD for years and years (probably 5 years) I’m still with the person but now I have a different ocd completely, I’m scared that I have no real close friends which I kind of don’t but everything reminds me of it and I have triggers and everything :( I hate myself, I’m also pregnant atm and it’s made me so much worse
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