today has been harder than others. my psychiatrist put me on a new medication to help my insomnia and it's taking a bit to get used to. i feel tired, worn out and useless, atp. work is becoming more and more difficult
Hello imnotatrashcan, Starting new medication is always an adjustment period. Have you noticed any benefit to the medication? Are there any side effects that might explain some of the changes that are making things more challenging? Have you tried noting changes that you experience and providing that feedback to you psychiatrist, to see what they think? I find these questions to be helpful when addressing concerns regarding medications, and to provide the answers you come up with to your medication provider. I hope this finds you well and know that at NOCD, we are always here to help! Take care, Ian M. Reeder
@Ian Reeder hi, mr. Reeder! i've noticed lots of benefits form my new medication, especially since i've had more time to get used to it; it definitely makes me adequately tired to sleep well through the night, though i consistently struggle with getting myself out of bed in the morning, just to take my medication that will energize me and improve my mood. i haven't noticed any notable changes compared to my last medication, so i may need to inform my psychiatrist of this the next time i see them. thank you for your helpful insight and concern!! ☺️
Today I had my follow up appointment with my psychologist, I left feeling worse, I loved the psychologist I spoke to last time he was very informed and understanding, this time I got an appointment with someone who he supervises and I feel like she didn't allow me to speak, she didn't allow me to explain my thoughts or feelings, she told me I have to take my medication or she won't be able to continue helping me, which I understand but im terrified of medication I can't get over it, she said if i start the prozac and it doesn't work then I'll have to get on antipsychotics which seems a bit extreme to me considering i have no psychotic symptoms matter of fact she didn't even allow me to explain my symptoms and i feel like there's so many other antidepressants that could work before getting on antipsychotics🙁 this didn't help me at all considering the episode of ocd i just got through was about me becoming psychotic, I just feel let down and misunderstood, I almost felt as if she was mad at me for the buspar not working she said "you didn't really try it you just took it for a week so if you stopped it it's like you gave up on yourself" but it kept me up 2 nights in a row and i couldnt function from the anxiety 😞
I don’t know how to cope, everything feels like too much, my medication isn’t working and I’m so tired with looking for the right one as it takes months between each appointment, and therapy is there too it’s just that I need all of what I’m struggling with to go away NOW, you know? on top of responsibilities like my TAFE course and all this other stuff I’ve got to get a handle on, it feels like I’m not cut out for life, I’ve been taking a sedative everyday just to cope with existing and I don’t know how to even keep going.
I have no idea to what extent the new medication I am on is affecting me positively or negatively. The past two days and Monday have been awful. I feel close to walking around in a daze in the mornings. For whatever reason Tuesday was actually like a 3 on a 5 star scale whereas average had been below 2.5. I know the OCD is pissed off but it’s so bad and interfering with my life so much. It just hammers at me basically nonstop. I know I can watch YouTube and read books/comics and sometimes play with Legos but exercise, video games, consistency, feeling like I have a choice when I want to do these things is so difficult. I’m starting to lash out with anger at things and am going back down the path of self harm and suicidal thoughts. I just despise all of these thoughts like nothing I’ve ever experienced before.
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