questioning if i should have these thoughts again?

so about two years ago, i got into a super BAD ocd episode. it made me scared of letters, numbers, texting, etc. like something bad was happening. and we were watching a soccer game, and seeing letters would freak me out. i remember my mind telling me “words and numbers are scary, the way you see them, now you’re going to hyper focus on them and it’s going to scare you” i’ve been much better, but now my mind is going back to that. “you need to hyper focus and be scared again” has this ever happened? like you think of something that scared you and wonder if you should be frightened again? cute weenie dog gif because look at them 🥹

CalicoTiramisu

Date posted: 29w

I'm not sure if it's helpful, but i know you can get ocd about getting ocd. Might be contributing to the problem

୨ৎ

Date posted: 28w

@CalicoTiramisu this is helpful believe it or not!! i truly didn’t even think about that

AnonymityK

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29w

Yes, this happens to me! It’s just OCD trying to grab your attention so you can get stuck in the cycle again, it’s best to approach it by acknowledging the thought but not doing any compulsion. Sitting with them. I hope this helps!

୨ৎ

Date posted: 28w

@AnonymityK it’s so upsetting!! happy someone else knows that same struggle!! i want a good future, and all i think about is how it will affect my relationships, family, romantic, career, etc. keep going in a spiral 🥹🥹

AnonymityK

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 28w

@ ୨ৎ - I totally get that! I had the same fears about OCD messing with everything, relationships, career, all of it. Now, I try to focus on what I can control, like telling OCD to F off. At first, using tools like ERP and non-engagement felt super awkward, like trying to teach a fish to ride a bike. But now, it’s just second nature, I don’t even notice I’m doing it.

AnonymityK

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 28w

୨ৎ

Date posted: 28w

@AnonymityK that’s awesome!! i’m so happy you’ve gotten to the point where you tell ocd to leave you alone. that’s so exciting ☺️ i’m wanting to try ERP, but not really sure where to start! 🥺

AnonymityK

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 28w

@ ୨ৎ You should try giving NOCD a call, they have a free fifteen minute call, they’ll be able to help guide you and also they can confirm if they take your insurance, you can maybe start there ?

୨ৎ

Date posted: 28w

@AnonymityK i did have a therapist on here, but it just didn’t work out for us unfortunately! maybe could try again ☺️

AnonymityK

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 28w

@ ୨ৎ Maybe, you can always switch therapist if it’s not a good fit!

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