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worried about loving the gift over the Giver. this morning I woke up and had a thought of “do you really feel like getting up and spending time with Jesus? love is doing things for the other person even when you don’t feel like it” and then a thought of “valuing the gift (my boyfriend in my case) over the Giver…that is idolatry”. boom “idolatry”. i don’t wanna idolize, but i got so overwhelmed that i stayed in bed for another 3 hours bc i felt ashamed and guilty. feeling super guilty rn. then i feel guilty for seeking relief about our relationship… today just felt off. i’m telling myself it’s OCD & then i feel guilty for not reading my Bible bc what if i really do value my partner over God…

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 19w

Hello, This sounds like OCD is putting you in a tough situation by making it appear that you have to choose between loving your boyfriend or Jesus, or at least that you must prove that you love them in the correct order. OCD frequently tries to put people in these types of double binds to convince them to engage in compulsions. It might be helpful to seek out an ERP trained therapist to help work on this concern. At NOCD we have therapists that are specialized in OCD treatment through ERP. Also, here is a video that discusses how to handle distressing thoughts surrounding religion. https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/scrupulosity-ocd

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 19w

You are loved unconditionally. God is not there to make us feel guilty. God actually gives us others in our lives, especially those who become our spouses, to please us and glorify Him. I love your heart for the Lord, this world needs more like you. :-)

toni2137

Date posted: 19w

@Someone99 thank you! i feel a ton of OCD right now in a sermon & i feel really sad. “do you really want to be well” and it’s like “if you wanted to be cured from insecurity, you’d break up with your boyfriend”. we’re reading john 5:1-11 and it makes me sad. “does your heart really want to be well? do you really want healing?!?!” and then it makes me feel like “maybe i don’t really want healing because if i wanted to be well, id follow this feeling

RadiantlyRed...

Date posted: 19w

@toni2137 Hey girl, I’m also a Christian and newly a fiance and I understand these feelings you’re experiencing. I went back to John 5:1-11 and a few things stuck out to me. Firstly, your anxiety and obsessing over this shows that it’s something you’re uncomfortable with. I would LOVE to not have OCD anymore, but God doesn’t heal us in the way we sometimes think. Healing for me has come from finding a community, realizing friends struggle with similar things, knowing that I have a wonderful man to call my fiance BECAUSE of what God has given me. He’s healed a very broken part of me because of the blessings He has given me. Also, in the book of Esther it says “Perhaps this was the moment for which you were created.” Perhaps you have been given this trial to help empower others giving glory to God. Now back to John 5:1-11, I noticed that in these verses the man is told to “Get up, take your bed, and walk.” You can do the same though it may look different! For me it is a reminder of the empowerment we have in Jesus. We can be clothed in strength and dignity (Proverbs 31:25) and we are also clothed in the Armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-20). There are days we feel like we lose battles, but God already had the victory. The war is already won. You are no less of a Christian for struggling. To me, you are a valiant soldier for Christ that may have had a difficult battle but has already won the war 💛

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 19w

@RadiantlyRedeemed I agree with so much of this, especially your compliments to this wonderful young, Godly woman.

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 19w

@toni2137 Be very careful with what you "know" is the "voice of God" when OCD is involved. I experienced a very difficult situation because of that. I was so convinced I heard from God and since I heard from God, I was right in what I was doing, which basically was taking on others who I "knew" were in the wrong. Remember, God's voice will never be the loudest in your heart and mind, the loudest will most definitely be the bully we know as OCD.

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 19w

@toni2137 I also have learned to appreciate Romans 12:2 and others where "renewing your mind" is discussed. When we accept Jesus as our Lord and are born in to the Kingdom as God's child, our minds don't automatically renew themselves. It takes work on our part, with God's promise behind it saying "then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is..." OCD requires help from trained therapists to allow the renewing of our minds to occur. Then we can hear God's will through His word clearly. God bless you dear sister. You're radiant and contagious for Jesus!!! 🙏🏼

toni2137

Date posted: 24w

mornin

i woke up with my heart racing this morning. i feel like the Lord wouldn’t treat me that way. i feel guilty and i feel like i just keep messing up at every step in my walk w the Lord. i literally just woke up feeling bad. i hadn’t even done anything. i had just opened my eyes!! i’m glad i got called into work so i can do something to take my mind off of the thoughts.

cmax20

Date posted: 22w

Religious OCD and romantic relationships

I have grown up in a Christian community and kind of always been around people who believe Christianity or even catholic. In the past few years I’ve really dove deep into my faith and honestly felt good about myself sometimes but overall terrified and like I’m a horrible person if I do one thing wrong or make a wrong sin. I’m also not sure if I completely believe in all the traditional Christian practices anymore. But I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 5 months and everything is going great. We communicate and he’s so loving and respectful and I honestly don’t have any major issues In the relationship. I used to have a big fear of men starting when I was like 7 aboit my grandpa or my dad trying to rape me (even though they are good men and showed no real signs of it). But it ruined my relationship with them both for awhile til it eventually went away. I always told myself it was because the “spirit” of ocd was rebuked by Jesus but I honestly don’t know. Now I’m dealing with a more extosential or religious ocd where I’m terrified I’m a horrible person for being in a relationship and almost feel worse about myself if I get closer to God. I also feel like if I get too close to God then I have to choose between Him and my bf and I can’t have both. It’s driving me in San and I feel like if I tell anyone any of this they’ll tell me to just break up with my bf even though there isn’t anything wrong in our relationship. Idk what to do and it’s so draining

Ava3050

Date posted: 15w

Being a Christian pursuing God but OCD hijacking.

Anyone else struggling with reading their bible or having a certain feeling to feel like God loves them and if they don’t it ruins their whole time with God. Makes pursuing him really hard. Any tips ?

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