Ioannis
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- 5y
AnonanxietyAnonanxiety
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- 5y
I’m not 100% sure because mine was more instructive thoughts, than compulsions and stuff but I think watching space documentaries and documentaries in general made me think about death for some reason. So that was my first ocd I counter, I was around 8 or 9
anonempathanonempath
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- 5y
yeah same, i started constantly worrying about death when i was like 5-6.
AnonanxietyAnonanxiety
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- 5y
I just remover being young :( for some reason when ever I try and think about it i remember year 5 in primary school and so I looked at the ages and it said 7 or 8 so that’s what I’m going with but pretty much from as long as I can remember.
starboiklemstarboiklem
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- 5y
@ScarlettA After reading this i remembered my mom told me as a kid around 5-6 i was scared someone would break in my house and kill us,i never thought it was ocd sign because i never remember having ocd before 13 maybe i did but it was mild?
hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
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- 5y
Yeah I remember crying about death constantly when I was 5 and I became scared that someone was going to kill me and I never fell asleep. Then when I was 7 if i didnt step with the same foot that someone was stepping with infront of me while walking i thought i was going to die, it drove me crazy if i didnt. My anxiety has taken a lot of different forms over the years.. im struggling with hocd, rocd, and contamination ocd right now. im now 19 and just got diagnosed and im very very thankful for my diagnosis!
sarax1998sarax1998
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- 5y
Yes... I know where it comes from dinge i am in theraphy... when it started i forgot but i assume 1-2 years ago
zaynabzaynab
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- 5y
Mine apparently started 4 yrs ago when I got into a really bad car accident. I thought it started this year but my psychiatrist says it definitely started after that accident and once she explained why it makes sense. I just didn’t know it was OCD back then.
seekingveeseekingvee
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- 5y
When I was really little. I always had health anxiety. If I had a loose tooth, I would sit in front of the mirror wiggling it until it came out because I couldn't go to sleep with a loose tooth. I thought I would choke and die. And I had other things. I would obsessively clean cuts, had intrusive thoughts about death. It subsided during most of my teen years, and then came back when I got pregnant at 18.
starboiklemstarboiklem
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- 5y
First symptom:hocd. When i was 15 i was addicted to porn and when you are addicted to that after some point you need to see something new and different, long story short i was watching gay porn for some time but just oral,i wasn't attracted to men it was just different hell i even watched porn with animals lol,one day though i got curious does watching gay porn mean im gay? So i googled it expecting to see that it doesn't mean anything. Big mistake, answers on quora said that it means that i am a "closet homosexual" that was unexpected at that moment and hit like a train, that's how my hocd started i thought i was gay because that's what quorans said. 5 years later i developeped existamental ocd by making another stup mistake, i was trying to get enlightened to beat my hocd(lol) so i was meditating that's fine but i also started contemplating on reality and trying to convince myself that i create reality and that all consciousness is one,i underestimated the power of my mind and in one moment as i was contemplating solipsism entered my head,it was like i realized that i am the only thing that exists and everything is a fraction of my mind. Yeah Im a fucking idiot didn't realize how much that thing can fuck me up smh
IoannisIoannis
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- 5y
Woah sounds hard for u
starboiklemstarboiklem
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- 5y
@Ioannis Yeah hocd was bad but solipsism is 10 times worse, it makes me feel like everything is meaningless because if im the only consciousness there is no point in anything wow it sounds ridiculous to me now but offcource in 1--2-5? Minutes i will believe it again
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