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- Ioannis
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- 5y ago
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- AnonanxietyAnonanxiety
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m not 100% sure because mine was more instructive thoughts, than compulsions and stuff but I think watching space documentaries and documentaries in general made me think about death for some reason. So that was my first ocd I counter, I was around 8 or 9
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- anonempathanonempath
- Date posted
- 5y ago
yeah same, i started constantly worrying about death when i was like 5-6.
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- AnonanxietyAnonanxiety
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I just remover being young :( for some reason when ever I try and think about it i remember year 5 in primary school and so I looked at the ages and it said 7 or 8 so that’s what I’m going with but pretty much from as long as I can remember.
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- starboiklemstarboiklem
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@ScarlettA After reading this i remembered my mom told me as a kid around 5-6 i was scared someone would break in my house and kill us,i never thought it was ocd sign because i never remember having ocd before 13 maybe i did but it was mild?
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- hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yeah I remember crying about death constantly when I was 5 and I became scared that someone was going to kill me and I never fell asleep. Then when I was 7 if i didnt step with the same foot that someone was stepping with infront of me while walking i thought i was going to die, it drove me crazy if i didnt. My anxiety has taken a lot of different forms over the years.. im struggling with hocd, rocd, and contamination ocd right now. im now 19 and just got diagnosed and im very very thankful for my diagnosis!
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- sarax1998sarax1998
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes... I know where it comes from dinge i am in theraphy... when it started i forgot but i assume 1-2 years ago
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- zaynabzaynab
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Mine apparently started 4 yrs ago when I got into a really bad car accident. I thought it started this year but my psychiatrist says it definitely started after that accident and once she explained why it makes sense. I just didn’t know it was OCD back then.
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- seekingveeseekingvee
- Date posted
- 5y ago
When I was really little. I always had health anxiety. If I had a loose tooth, I would sit in front of the mirror wiggling it until it came out because I couldn't go to sleep with a loose tooth. I thought I would choke and die. And I had other things. I would obsessively clean cuts, had intrusive thoughts about death. It subsided during most of my teen years, and then came back when I got pregnant at 18.
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- starboiklemstarboiklem
- Date posted
- 5y ago
First symptom:hocd. When i was 15 i was addicted to porn and when you are addicted to that after some point you need to see something new and different, long story short i was watching gay porn for some time but just oral,i wasn't attracted to men it was just different hell i even watched porn with animals lol,one day though i got curious does watching gay porn mean im gay? So i googled it expecting to see that it doesn't mean anything. Big mistake, answers on quora said that it means that i am a "closet homosexual" that was unexpected at that moment and hit like a train, that's how my hocd started i thought i was gay because that's what quorans said. 5 years later i developeped existamental ocd by making another stup mistake, i was trying to get enlightened to beat my hocd(lol) so i was meditating that's fine but i also started contemplating on reality and trying to convince myself that i create reality and that all consciousness is one,i underestimated the power of my mind and in one moment as i was contemplating solipsism entered my head,it was like i realized that i am the only thing that exists and everything is a fraction of my mind. Yeah Im a fucking idiot didn't realize how much that thing can fuck me up smh
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- IoannisIoannis
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Woah sounds hard for u
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- starboiklemstarboiklem
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@Ioannis Yeah hocd was bad but solipsism is 10 times worse, it makes me feel like everything is meaningless because if im the only consciousness there is no point in anything wow it sounds ridiculous to me now but offcource in 1--2-5? Minutes i will believe it again
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- cgislander
- Date posted
- 5y ago
How did you guys find out you probably had ocd, diagnosis or no diagnosis? I haven’t been diagnosed and my parents don’t know, I actually turned 14 today. I have had intrusive thoughts since I was 11 or 12, but throughout the 2nd half of 2018, the occasional intrusive thoughts slowly became more common, but didn’t bother me too bad, but I kept obsessing over: what is wrong with me? And “Am I schizophrenic?” I kept thinking I had schizophrenia but I would only occasionally think of it. Eventually in december, I bought me and my dad a pocket knife, basically as a gift for him. Over the next 3 days I kept having harm ocd about my knife but I refused to hide it. Then at school the thoughts went wild and I knew something was wrong. I looked up “scary thoughts” when I got home, and ever since then, the way I used to feel has been gone. I think about ocd everyday now. Idk what to do. My harm ocd has gone away mostly but now I have a lot of thoughts of me hurting myself and “what if I just die”. It scares me. Anyway, anyone have a story similar to this? Thanks.
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- cIumsy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
anyone else had ocd from a very young age? I’m talking like, I remember obsessions from when I was 6. and my family remembers my symptoms from even earlier. I didn’t get help until I was 15 because my family isn’t big on mental health. anyway, it frustrates me that I genuinely don’t know what it’s like to live without ocd. Sometimes I hear/see people talk about how they just wish things could back to how they were ‘before,’ or that imagining what their life was like before onset helps motivate them in recovery. But I don’t have anything like that. in fact, it’s almost scary to think about recovering completely because I don’t know anything else? it depresses me
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- Anonymous*
- Date posted
- 2y ago
For those with contaminations OCD, I have two questions for you: 1) Did it start in childhood for you or after a specific event linked to contamination/based on science and extrapolating it? 2) Can you give me one example of a thought/worry? I'm just curious to see what other people experience
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