MrsA
- Date posted
- 5y
tri2befreetri2befree
- Date posted
- 5y
Yep. I lost a friend in real life to suicide last year and became utterly convinced I murderered them. The details made absolutely no sense, and yet I came close to confessing many times since it felt so real. I finally realized your brain will never let you ha e certainty and will always come up with a creative reason it’s your fault. Accepting life’s general uncertainty and choosing radical self love over all else (even when ocd says it’s irresponsible, you don’t deserve it, or it’s not ocd this time) is the only way to recovery. You can do it!
pingu111pingu111
- Date posted
- 5y
Yes.. That is exactly what happens to me
tri2befreetri2befree
- Date posted
- 5y
Yep! I’ve had extreme details of murdering people (which I know deep down I would never do), but I’ve spent months trying to prove the ocd wrong. The more compulsions you do, the more your brain latches on. You almost create a detailed pile of junk mail in your brain each time you ruminate. But the level of detail or number of months you ruminate has no basis in reality. Living into the uncertainty and doing erp is the only way out. I know it’s tough! I’ve been there! False memory harm is my main theme.
MrsAMrsA
- Date posted
- 5y
Omg! I’ve been there! Worst feeling ever!! The thought you could do that to someone even though you know you never could! Yet you can see yourself doing exactly that!
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andrewt_
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 24w
Question about false memories, please help
Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD
scrambled
- Date posted
- 24w
false memory or repressed memory?
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anthonycaronna
- Date posted
- 20w
False memory
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