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Sit with the anxiety
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Been sitting. It’s so bad. I ended up overly washing and then I stepped where I stepped before washing I wiped my foot and now I have major doubts. Trying to sit with the anxiety more
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It'll be difficult but no matter what stay with it, you've got this!
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Id find a distraction? Play a game or listen to music, hope it helps.
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I'm so sorry. This is so hard. You're doing an AWESOME job by trying to fight back against this compulsion! Even in the times when you give in, you still get a trophy because you're TRYING YOUR EARNEST BEST, and alternately you could not try, and everything could just be awful and impossible forever. But you're not going down that easy. YOU ARE DOING THE THING. YOU ARE FIGHTING BACK! YOU ARE DOING IT! YOU ARE AWESOME! You ARE going to get there some day if you keep up this hard work. You ARE going to get to the point where these behaviors do not control you anymore; you WILL successfully take control with enough time and determined practice. Every single person who has ever downloaded this app believes in you and is rooting for you and is celebrating every small success, every five seconds you made it without rushing into the bathroom and indulging in the compulsion. Every five seconds is a victory. They're gonna keep adding up. You're gonna conquer this.
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Thank you both soo much. It wasn’t easy. Today was a new day. I did t have a trigger and I don’t care about the events of yestrday anymore. That said. It still took me many hand washes today. It’s far from perfect but I am so afraid and cannot live my life this way that I’m considering g taking the medication I was prescribed. I was really afraid about it for some time.
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Stay strong! ✌❤
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Thank you!!
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It’s so hard. Still ruminating and still anxious and now other forms of ocd have surfaced with intrusive thoughts so I’m just all around anxious and struggling and unable to sleep
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Hi everyone. It’s been a few days. I’ve sat with the anxiety and while it goes away the shoe I wore the day I saw the blood is still there untouched. That alone is still making me so upset. I feel like I need to wipe it or throw it away (it’s an old worn out shoe) and I know I shouldn’t but it’s over bearing. If I keep wearing it I will feel like blood will get to my foot even though I just saw it and did not step on it. This happened last year and I still have yet to deal with the shoe I wore. It’s hard.
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Sorry. What I meant to say is the same thing happened last year and I haven’t gotten over that with that shoe. This incident happened last Wednesday and I’ve been dealing with the anxiety and been very afraid.
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I can’t touch the shoe and I can’t go back to that bathroom. I’ve been so dehydrated when I’m at wiek
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I have contamination OCD that causes me to excessively wash my hands/clean items with disinfectant wipes. I know I just need to start with small exposures but how do I do that without spiraling? I tried a while back by just touching the outside of my dishwasher and not washing my hands after and it led to me being unable to even exist in my house. I basically lived on my couch for three weeks as it was the only 'safe' space that I had not touched with my dirty hands. I had to take a week off work to clean my house to make it somewhat liveable. I still haven't got round to cleaning everything though so things like my kitchen are still no-go zones that I don't enter. I just don't know how to start ERP without it making everything worse. Any advice would be appreciated. I am not seeing a therapist at the moment due to financial constraints.
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So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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