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Sit with the anxiety
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Been sitting. It’s so bad. I ended up overly washing and then I stepped where I stepped before washing I wiped my foot and now I have major doubts. Trying to sit with the anxiety more
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It'll be difficult but no matter what stay with it, you've got this!
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Id find a distraction? Play a game or listen to music, hope it helps.
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I'm so sorry. This is so hard. You're doing an AWESOME job by trying to fight back against this compulsion! Even in the times when you give in, you still get a trophy because you're TRYING YOUR EARNEST BEST, and alternately you could not try, and everything could just be awful and impossible forever. But you're not going down that easy. YOU ARE DOING THE THING. YOU ARE FIGHTING BACK! YOU ARE DOING IT! YOU ARE AWESOME! You ARE going to get there some day if you keep up this hard work. You ARE going to get to the point where these behaviors do not control you anymore; you WILL successfully take control with enough time and determined practice. Every single person who has ever downloaded this app believes in you and is rooting for you and is celebrating every small success, every five seconds you made it without rushing into the bathroom and indulging in the compulsion. Every five seconds is a victory. They're gonna keep adding up. You're gonna conquer this.
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Thank you both soo much. It wasn’t easy. Today was a new day. I did t have a trigger and I don’t care about the events of yestrday anymore. That said. It still took me many hand washes today. It’s far from perfect but I am so afraid and cannot live my life this way that I’m considering g taking the medication I was prescribed. I was really afraid about it for some time.
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Stay strong! ✌❤
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Thank you!!
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It’s so hard. Still ruminating and still anxious and now other forms of ocd have surfaced with intrusive thoughts so I’m just all around anxious and struggling and unable to sleep
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Hi everyone. It’s been a few days. I’ve sat with the anxiety and while it goes away the shoe I wore the day I saw the blood is still there untouched. That alone is still making me so upset. I feel like I need to wipe it or throw it away (it’s an old worn out shoe) and I know I shouldn’t but it’s over bearing. If I keep wearing it I will feel like blood will get to my foot even though I just saw it and did not step on it. This happened last year and I still have yet to deal with the shoe I wore. It’s hard.
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Sorry. What I meant to say is the same thing happened last year and I haven’t gotten over that with that shoe. This incident happened last Wednesday and I’ve been dealing with the anxiety and been very afraid.
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I can’t touch the shoe and I can’t go back to that bathroom. I’ve been so dehydrated when I’m at wiek
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Dose anyone else experience that your OCD calms down and goes to the back of your mind during- feels almost safe and unaware of it but as soon as it's over and youve calmed down all the intrusive thoughts come rushing back 10x worse? I've had really awful panic attacks because of it the past two nights and it's exhausting I haven't been with another person in over a year because of how bad it was after and not being able to explain it properly to partners "no I'm not crying because of you" "no you didn't do anything wrong" I feel insane- like I'll never be able to have a normal functioning sexual time alone or with others do to it the compulsions that come with it are exhausting it's like the need to cleanse myself of filth like I'm disgusting and horrible until there's no traces I did anything in the first place I'm just so tired dose anyone have any tips of how to work through this- or at least be able to enjoy myself without crying afterwords? I have no idea what subtype this would even entail? I'm going to go with contamination I guess ?
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Hello! I am really looking for some advice. I have been struggling with OCD for a few years now and it drastically affects my daily life. I am going to give a quick run through of my OCD, and then the current situation I am in now. So for almost 2 years now my most prominent themes of OCD have been getting sick with the stomach bug (emetaphobia) and watching someone die/ having to see large amount of blood or do CPR on someone (I just graduated nursing school). Last year I stopped eating out, wouldn’t touch any of my food with my hands, would wash my hands until they bleed every day, bleached everything I touched when I was in public etc… I would have these major panic attacks all the time and the thought of getting sick hasn’t left my head 24/7 for 2 years. I was unable to complete my nursing school clinicals due to panic attacks each time I was at the hospital afraid someone would die and get these terrible images in my head. I didn’t sleep ever, barely graduated. I did ERP after school and was able to make up the clinical days I missed. Got to a point where I was eating again, felt like I was able to get my hands clean just by washing them. I have been doing exposures every day, and have accepted that getting sick will probably happen at one point and I am okay with it as long as I am at home when it happens. So locking myself in my apartment for 48hr every time after I could have been exposed to the stomach bug is major progress for me and I have been overall doing much better. Fast forward to now: It’s time for me to start my new job on a med/surg floor in a hospital. This week I have made it through a few days of orientation with panic attacks day and night but I am doing it even though I am petrified. I don’t feel ready for this big of a step, being exposed to both of my biggest fears constantly. Today at orientation the girl sitting next to me told me she had been vomiting all day, and continued to run out of the room a vomit the rest of the day. I now am 90% sure I am going to get sick and feel as if I would rather die than continue this amount of stress and anxiety I have felt from just a few days of being on the job. This is my BIGGEST fear and it’s coming true and I don’t know if it’s worth putting myself through this every day at work to just be having constant panic attacks and be miserable. I know with OCD you have to face your fears but I have been pushing myself and trying so hard and I don’t feel like it’s worth it to work this job. I would also feel incredibly guilty for quitting on the first week, but there are a million other nursing jobs that are not in a hospital. I think this is too big of a step for me right now but I wanted to see what others think. Any advice at all is so appreciated!
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I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
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