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@Anonimus ME🫥 It’s very upsetting 😞

@Anonimus ME🫥 Agree with this! Your OCD is trying to manipulate your mind

@Idontknow I know believe me I know...❤️‍🩹...we are here for you

@Anony1314 always and in everything! damn it😮‍💨

@Anonimus ME🫥 I understand! It does the same to me too!

@Anonimus ME🫥 I appreciate you!!!

@Anony1314 Thank you!! 🙏🏻

@Idontknow Of course!! Idk if you've seen my posts but I'm struggling too

@Anony1314 Not recently, I’ve been of the app for a while sometimes I post

@Idontknow Could I get some support from you?

@Anony1314 Yes

@Idontknow Am I the P I was always scared to be? Or am I still the amazing mom I once was? I need support. I just need someone to be up front with me. Tell me the truth. I want to get past it all. My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest BIGGEST fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so wanted in the moment and SO real. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support?

@Anony1314 To me it sounds like OCD!! You care a lot and I think you’re a good mom I understand you 100% like you’re scared of losing control everything will be ok!!!

@Idontknow Thanks friend. Even though it happened as I wrote it, it 100% sounds like OCD to you? I want you to be honest friend

@Anony1314 It sounds like OCD to me! From doing all my research yes I’m 100% sure!