I think i have ocd. Two years ago i had a few panic attack and person related obsessions that i couldnt get over. Now since i’m free of college and work i have an intrusive thought about hitting myself. It is panicking and i don’t know what to do. I have already acted twice on the thoughts but now my mind says i have to hit harder… i know it sounds weird, but does anyone have any tips etc..? :)
It definitely sounds like OCD, considering the "have to hit harder" thoughts, but with very little to go off of, it's not definite. I'd say check with your doctor or therapist, or if you can't, try to match up some daily (or often) exercises that your brain does that people with OCD may do. Coming from a non-professional
@exzezzbella Thanks! I will go to a doctor in a few days
I just wanna say, I’m proud of you. Seriously. Even saying “I think I have OCD” and being real about these thoughts? It takes guts. I know how loud and terrifying your brain can get when it’s throwing stuff at you that you don’t even understand. What you’re feeling isn’t fake. It’s not you “being dramatic” or “weird” or anything like that. It’s real. It’s heavy. You’re not broken. You’re not some danger to yourself. You’re just someone whose brain is doing WAY too much trying to “protect” you from something that’s not even real danger. OCD is sneaky as hell. Especially when it shows up like this — making you feel like you have to do something, just to get the pressure off. Like hitting yourself, checking stuff, running memories in your head a million times. But here’s the trap: the second you do the thing to feel better, your brain is like “nah, not enough. do it again. harder this time.” It’s never satisfied. That’s how it gets you stuck. And I know it feels real. I know it’s scary. But just because you acted on the thought before doesn’t mean that’s who you are. It doesn’t mean anything’s wrong with you. You don’t want to hurt yourself — you just want the chaos to stop. You want peace. And I know that, because you’re reaching out. You care. If I were with you right now, I’d sit you down, hand you a snack, and say this: - Don’t follow the thought. Even when it feels like you HAVE to. Saying no is hard, but every time you do? You’re winning a little piece of your peace back. - Take a deep breath. I know it sounds basic, but do it anyway. Focus on your surroundings. Say out loud what you see, feel, smell, hear — anything to pull you out of the spiral. - If your brain says “do this,” try doing the opposite. Literally. OCD hates that. That’s how you weaken it over time. - And if it gets too heavy, please talk to someone. A real one. An OCD therapist if you can. You’re not alone in this. You’re not the only one. I know it feels like no one else could possibly get it — but trust me, people do. I do. I’ve been there too. You are not your thoughts. You are not the thing your brain is trying to scare you into believing. You’re a good person. A strong one. And you will get through this.
so this all started not too long ago, for literally no reason at all. but one day i got a random intrusive thought about harming others and it freaked me out bad. since then i’ve been non stop focusing on it and im genuinely scared that i am, or gonna end up like those sick people that have documentaries about them. i’ve never had these types of thoughts before and after me and my mom looked a lot of stuff up we think i have OCD cuz a lot of the stuff it was saying was accurate to me. to anyone in here, does this sound like OCD to you? i’ve always been a nice loving person and these thoughts freak me out so bad and make me feel like i’m a bad gross person. it got to the point i don’t even like looking at myself anymore. i just wanna go back to normal man. another thing to add, when i would explain this to my mom even though i was telling the full truth on how crappy this made me feel it felt like i was lying almost? but i know i wasn’t deep down. i’m just scared that what if i act on something or get in my head too much you know?
i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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