I was playing with my brother and I thought he was so cute because he’s little and at the same time it felt like I wanted to touch him inappropriately It’s weird because sometimes I get disgusted by the thought and then sometimes I feel like I would actually that
If you feel disgusted you’re not a bad person. I get intrusive sexual thoughts of my children and I know I’d never touch them. The reason I get them is because a girl at work told me years ago that if I can look a child and say I wanted to do something to them and not feel sick there’s something wrong. And now I think I I need to reinsure my self all the time then my ocd kicks in and then I’m just thinking and thinking. Makes me feel like a bad mom makes me sick. I’m going to start treatment soon.
@Mack96 I’m worried
@Idontknow What are you worried about?
@Mack96 Me actually not feeling the disgust because I feel numb when it happens Sometimes
@Idontknow It’s just a thought hun we all have thoughts but there’s a difference between a thought and doing it! It will be okay!
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@ocd is annoying Really? then it actually feels like I did something bad and ask for reassurance :(
@ocd is annoying I feel numb too and then when I sit somewhere the guilt comes out
@ocd is annoying I’m worried about losing control one day I hope it never happens I don’t want to be a child M especially give my brother trauma and then he says growing up that his sister m him that’s so embarrassing
@ocd is annoying It feels like my hand could have a mind of its own like alien hand syndrome
@ocd is annoying I hope I’m not a p
@ocd is annoying I wouldn’t like being labeled as a p 😞 either way
@ocd is annoying I feel alone because these are unwanted impulses?
@ocd is annoying Wait, you think I’m a p?
So I was fantasizing about my crush and when I was into my brother pops up or something and it makes me think I was turned on by him like I’m upset about that now
I feel like I did something bad now because I went to put the blanket on my brother and my hand was close to his back I had a thought before like “it’s time to touch him” and I stood up and he was on a call but he was sleeping so now I’m like why did I stood up? Was it to take the iPad or what exactly? I feel like a child molester I don’t remember touching his area or butt because I didn’t but I had my hand near his back I asked my brother if I did anything he said no I asked if I did anything when I put the blanket over him he said he was sleeping so that doesn’t reassure me So I almost acted on it?
Annoying!!! So I wake up aroused I get these dreams and now I feel like a r because it’s like what if my brother was doing something to me while I was sleeping and I didn’t care and just went back to sleep it’s so weird like why I keep getting aroused in my sleep
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