- Username
- seijuul
- Date posted
- 5y ago
so sorry to hear this... please try to reach out to someone else you trust to support you and seek a mental health professional and physician ❤️
same. My dad doesn’t believe in mental illness.
I’m so sorry - that’s tough.
My folks did that to me 40 years ago and it cost me alot. I didn’t get diagnosed until last year. Not knowing why I felt the way I did destroyed my self esteem and left me feeling rudderless throughout a big chunk of my life. I lied to myself and became an imposter, forcing myself to be someone I am not. Since my diagnosis, I see my life through a different lense. I would encourage you to try and convince them to at least find out. You definitely need help if you are thinking of harming anyone. Believe that things can get better because they can.
The thoughts ‘are’ normal - but the torment from them is not. Your parents should allow you to seek help if you need it. Read IMP Of The Mind, if nothing else. It explains the difference between how the thoughts are processed by those with and without OCD.
I’m so sorry! OCD is a difficult disease to understand if you don’t have it. It is CRUCIAL to find someone who takes your OCD seriously and has the training to help you. I think the hardest part of OCD for me so far has been realizing that no matter how many people love me and try their best to help me, when I face my OCD, I (like everyone else) am alone in my own head, and no one can help me but myself. I can seek as much help as I want, but in the end, I am the only one who has to face my own OCD. It’s an awful thing to realize. Just know that there are people (like me) who are sending you good vibes as you face your own personal demon. Good luck. You are stronger than you know. Find someone who can help guide you as you start this ridiculously difficult journey.
Hello everyone. I have been having horrible thoughts ever since I turned 13, and now I’m almost 16, and still having them. When I turned 13, the thoughts were constant and nearly drove me to kill myself. I thought about killing my family and pets constantly, but, worst of all, especially my mother. Now, I sleep with my door closed to try to stop the thoughts and to keep from hearing or seeing my mom or dad. I love my parents and pets, especially my mother— she’s an amazing woman, and has done so much for me, but yet I’m still having these damn thoughts. I was at a bad school when I was 13, and then moved to another when I was 14. After a switched schools, the thoughts gradually began to lessen, but every few months, they get really bad again for a few weeks (I still have them daily out of those bad few weeks, but when they get bad, they get bad.) I’m currently going through one of those spurts. I have tried to talk to my dad about getting help, and even though he said that he’ll look for a therapist, it’s been nearly a year, and I still haven’t gotten help. I desperately want these thoughts to stop because I feel like a horrible person and I love my parents, family, and pets so much, but I’m terrified of opening up to my dad and telling him everything that I think about (I also have thoughts about sexually abusing children, but I don’t want to do it! I’m not attracted to children whatsoever, but I’m still thinking about it.) My self-esteem is absolutely horrible, and I feel like a monster for thinking about these things. I’m very much a daddy’s girl, and if he is disgusted or angry at me, then I honestly don’t know how I’d handle it. I really, really need help, but just don’t know how to go about doing it (I’ve thought about going to the school councilor, but they’ve made it known that, if they’re concerned about a student, that they’ll either contact their parents or the police.) My dad has said to just calm down and relax, but I literally can’t. We have mental illnesses on my mom’s side, and many of those people take pills, and when I’ve talked to my dad about my anxiety and depression, he’s said that pills aren’t the answer. Honestly, at this point I don’t care what treatment I get— all I care about is these thoughts stopping. I’m sorry if this is rambling and a little confusing, but my mind is all over the place right now. Any suggestions would be very much appreciated.
Help omg. I don’t want to do anything that my thoughts say but it feels like I’m not gonna be fine until I do them. It’s so horrible because it feels like they’re my intentions or like I’m going to do them every single time I’m with my family. I literally find myself incapable to do anything because my mind is constantly repeating me to harm my family which is terrible!! I have no idea what is going on, and if this is normal for OCD or not. It disturbs me so much to feel that I can’t escape this, I can’t stand it anymore and I’m afraid i might end up doing it. I feel so trapped. I don’t wanna live anymore but I don’t wanna die either. I just wanna disappear.
my mom is so upset with me because i don't want to share my intrusive thoughts. I had talked a little to her but she deduced that the thoughts were about wanting to kill someone or kill me. but it is far beyond that. and she is very sad that i don't want to share, HOW am i going to share if my intrusive thoughts involve rape? and she asked if it was about sexual orientation (she's homophobic) i laughed because it wasn't. in a few minutes this will get worse for me. I don't want to talk to her, I want to talk to some therapist.
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