my parents don’t want me to get help because apparently these thoughts are normal ha ha ha as if getting thoughts about planning to suffocate, stab, poison, or dismember my brother, shooting up a school, or murdering family members in general is normal hahahahaha

so sorry to hear this... please try to reach out to someone else you trust to support you and seek a mental health professional and physician ❤️

same. My dad doesn’t believe in mental illness.

My folks did that to me 40 years ago and it cost me alot. I didn’t get diagnosed until last year. Not knowing why I felt the way I did destroyed my self esteem and left me feeling rudderless throughout a big chunk of my life. I lied to myself and became an imposter, forcing myself to be someone I am not. Since my diagnosis, I see my life through a different lense. I would encourage you to try and convince them to at least find out. You definitely need help if you are thinking of harming anyone. Believe that things can get better because they can.

The thoughts ‘are’ normal - but the torment from them is not. Your parents should allow you to seek help if you need it. Read IMP Of The Mind, if nothing else. It explains the difference between how the thoughts are processed by those with and without OCD.

I’m so sorry! OCD is a difficult disease to understand if you don’t have it. It is CRUCIAL to find someone who takes your OCD seriously and has the training to help you. I think the hardest part of OCD for me so far has been realizing that no matter how many people love me and try their best to help me, when I face my OCD, I (like everyone else) am alone in my own head, and no one can help me but myself. I can seek as much help as I want, but in the end, I am the only one who has to face my own OCD. It’s an awful thing to realize. Just know that there are people (like me) who are sending you good vibes as you face your own personal demon. Good luck. You are stronger than you know. Find someone who can help guide you as you start this ridiculously difficult journey.