Im not asking this to be insensitive, I am just curious. Why do you have such a phobia of being gay?

( THIS COMMENT MAY BE TRIGGERING) Hey! I’m a lesbian, and sometimes I get really bad intrusive thoughts that I’m straight. I’ve known since I was 8 years old that I was gay, so it’s part of me, it fits and it sits and I identify that way, so with any other theme it will hit a part of you, you don’t identify with. Sometimes I have thought my whole life is a lie and that I’m actually straight, it’s awful because it’s not who you are. This is from a different perspective, it’s not about whether it’s gay, straight or anything, it’s not about being scared you’re gay it’s about having something foreign in you that you aren’t. Hope this helps.

Because its not a part of you. If You don't identify as that label It can be very scary; you might think your identity or partner is wrong as a result of it. Hopefully that clears it up a bit :)

It is kind of insensitive, firstly because we were straight our whole lives and then We had Ocd and now we are really going through a lot because that’s not what we want for ourselves it doesn’t align with our sense of self if being gay aligned with it we wouldn’t be worrying about this.

Thanks so much everyone I understand it a lot better. Not actually being gay that bothers you, it's about not feeling yourself and I can see why that is scary. Im on here because I have health ocd. Every ache and pain I Google my symptoms and get myself scared. I've had suicidal ocd where I thought I was out of control of my own body and was going to kill myself against my will. I really do know what it's like to have intrusive thoughts and I am here for every single one of you x