shabby123
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- 5y
minfoyminfoy
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- 5y
( THIS COMMENT MAY BE TRIGGERING) Hey! I’m a lesbian, and sometimes I get really bad intrusive thoughts that I’m straight. I’ve known since I was 8 years old that I was gay, so it’s part of me, it fits and it sits and I identify that way, so with any other theme it will hit a part of you, you don’t identify with. Sometimes I have thought my whole life is a lie and that I’m actually straight, it’s awful because it’s not who you are. This is from a different perspective, it’s not about whether it’s gay, straight or anything, it’s not about being scared you’re gay it’s about having something foreign in you that you aren’t. Hope this helps.
WetandgushyWetandgushy
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- 5y
Because its not a part of you. If You don't identify as that label It can be very scary; you might think your identity or partner is wrong as a result of it. Hopefully that clears it up a bit :)
Mod22Mod22
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- 5y
It is kind of insensitive, firstly because we were straight our whole lives and then We had Ocd and now we are really going through a lot because that’s not what we want for ourselves it doesn’t align with our sense of self if being gay aligned with it we wouldn’t be worrying about this.
shabby123shabby123
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- 5y
It's not insensitive to wonder why. I just don't understand why it would scare someone so much
Mod22Mod22
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- 5y
@shabby123 Yeah Well I took it too deep I’m sorry but that’s my reasoning and I feel like all of us mostly feel that way
Mod22Mod22
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- 5y
@Mod22 And I feel like it’s the same with most ocd themes as well like POCD and harm ocd
hateocd123hateocd123
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- 5y
@shabby123 It's not so much being gay itself that bothers us, it's our whole identity being ripped from our hands.
shabby123shabby123
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- 5y
@Mod22 Sorry if I caused any offense that really wasn't my intention x
Ty94Ty94
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- 5y
@hateocd123 Loss of control
shabby123shabby123
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- 5y
Thanks so much everyone I understand it a lot better. Not actually being gay that bothers you, it's about not feeling yourself and I can see why that is scary. Im on here because I have health ocd. Every ache and pain I Google my symptoms and get myself scared. I've had suicidal ocd where I thought I was out of control of my own body and was going to kill myself against my will. I really do know what it's like to have intrusive thoughts and I am here for every single one of you x
Mod22Mod22
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- 5y
I hope you heal too I have on and off health Ocd I understand what you going through Hocd is killing me I don’t even love living I don’t even want to live anymore not saying I wanna commit suicide but I don’t want to live
hateocd123hateocd123
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- 5y
@Mod22 I feel exactly the same. I hate being alive, but I don't want to kill myself because I don't want my loved ones to be in pain. I also have no idea what's on the other side so that's enough to scare me away from it in itself.
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Questions… I don’t want reassurance just advice
I’ve tried accepting the uncertainty, I’ve accepted I may be gay, bi or still straight. I’ve tried doing ERP myself to the best I can. When I accept that I’m gay or bi why doesn’t my head agree and move on? Why does it still question it? I know I don’t want to be at all. I love my family. But I just want this to move on. I want to enjoy life. Why can’t I find women attractive again? (Brief moments I do). I seriously don’t understand the false attraction? I’ve tried agreeing with it but it won’t let this drop. Why am I attracted to the same sex? Why am I attracted to people I would never thought of looking at? Why does it give me such grief about this? I know I shouldn’t look at adult content but why can I only feel good watching either lesbian or females? I tried to agree with the gay but it makes me sick and horrendous I even considered this? I just want my life back.
FlavoredTrades
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 16w
Is "homosexual OCD" usually homophobia
If you truly aren''t homophobic you wouldn't be afraid of being gay unless in very specific cases of bisexual cycling, what is the difference?
Ariana ♡
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- 14w
Question for queers w sexuality ocd
Is anyone here actually gay and has/had sexuality or religious ocd? I don't have it at all haha I'm a lesbian myself without socd or religious ocd but I'm just curious: what's it like and how did you deal with the whole "biggest fear coming true" thing?
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