carrotroot12

Date posted: 24d

All I know is now

I had a small epiphany this morning while brushing my teeth. I’m now choosing to focus on what’s happening now. All I know is that I have OCD. All I know is that after years of numbness, my old crush on someone grew, and now he’s my boyfriend. All I know is that I like to be around him and I was/am excited to be his girlfriend. The weird childhood exploration, uncomfortable memories, other things that happened in the past may or may not have meaning. I don’t know and right now at this moment, I really don’t care. I’m done debating with this. When SOOCD was only just a tiny mosquito bugging me from time to time, I felt the real me again after YEARS of feeling like a rock. I don’t know if the things OCD tells me will happen, and that’s ok even if I think it’s scary and horrible. I don’t know if OCD is right about me. All I know right now is I got a date coming up soon and I want to enjoy it. I hope anyone who reads this has a good/easier day. We can get through this!!!

StergiosB

Date posted: 24d

“F*ck it, we ball” is the attitude I’m trying to take with my OCD. Hopefully ill go on a date this Wednesday and we’ll see where it goes.

Newerthannewb82

Date posted: 23d

Reading this has made my day better. ❤️

4ever4given

Date posted: 24d

Yes! Don't let OCD rob you of the present

Jae18

Date posted: 23d

Seeing this low-key helps me cuz I’ve been struggling badly the last few days and today another “memory/ mistake ” came up and you know when you get the urge to confess ? I’ve done everything my ocd told me to do the last 2 days and I’m honestly too tired and I don’t wanna be miserable .. seeing that someone has similar experiences and chose to ignore it and go on abiut their day tells me I can too and nothing is gonna go wrong

PoleekPelican

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 23d

Man, the vibes in here are awesome. Congrats on your epiphany and thank you for sharing it with us. Pretty sure you've inspired a few or at least set up a couple of future epiphanies in the process.

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 23d

Congratutations! You're usine one of the basic tools of ERP therapy: stay in the present.

glitterstitch

Date posted: 24d

Enjoy your date! Thank you for this share. It was so helpful :)

LDnB99

Date posted: 24d

I hope you enjoy your date and you’re so strong we got this

kiaia806

Date posted: 23d

You’re right, ocd becomes conquerable when you label it and disregard anything it says. I tell myself it is JUST ocd and I do not have to listen to a thing

Anonymous

Date posted: 22d

To me it’s just so hard to accept the uncertainty and the unknown, feeling sad and depressed while doing the thing I love just robs everything that gives me that clarity in the moment. I’m honestly tired to solve to feel happy because I know I’m doing treatment wrong. How do you just sit and keep going while having anxiety about it? it’s so hard

Anonymous

Date posted: 21d

Have faith in the exposures and keep doing them as they are proven to work.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24d

You are welcome back to

AnxietyGuy

Date posted: 24d

Thank you for sharing.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 23d

Hope you have a great date. OCD is a huge process to work through for sure.it takes a lot but you got this

petals

Date posted: 23d

Thank you 😊

Rantam4ever

Date posted: 23d

❤️

kat🪬liza

Date posted: 22d

Thank you for sharing. I’m just now realizing myself that I’m in control not the ocd and to take it one step at a time and hearing someone else say something along the same lines is a big motivator. hope you have a great time on your date. You got this 🫂

Anonymous

Date posted: 22d

Hell yeah

Flea131

Date posted: 22d

Thank you for sharing such a great perspective! Enjoy your date ❤️

NotAgain

Date posted: 22d

We can do this!

44years

Date posted: 21d

😊👍🐢

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