Idk why but while I was doing erp my brain told me to look at her chest and I tried covering that part but I still looked… why did I do that? Anyone else have this happen? This has happened multiple times… (edited)
This is happening because you are still mentally checking and seeing what reaction you would get out of it if you looked and no matter how much you try to avoid it, it actually makes the ocd worse because you are fearful of everything. If you didn’t have ocd you’d probably look at her chest and think nothing of it, but you do have ocd and you can’t help that so you check you feelings on everything you look at knowing you are going to have an intrusive thought or reaction to it. Label it as soon as you think of it and say “this is an intrusive thought” “it means nothing of my actual character because intrusive thoughts are scary and the opposite of my desires and character” you are not a bad person and everybody has thoughts we just react differently and that’s okay. Also try and not label it as a threat and not a thought where it will affect you intentions. At the end of the day THEY ARE JUST THOUGHTS. Show them who’s boss and let the thought be there without reacting to show strength and improvement! You’ve got this!
@Anonymous 168 The thing is idk why I’m doing that like my mind told me to do it or else idk why but like I had to my mind didn’t give me a choice ☹️
@Shaodidi That’s not YOU. It is your brain giving you something to do “or else” something bad will happen but that is OCD not your true self. The fact that you are disturbed and upset by this is no means your intention so you have to live with it and being upset by the fact you did that is not your true self and you have to learn co exist with your thoughts. My brain tells me to do that all the time and I know I don’t want to do it so I don’t pay any mind to it. We are humans and that’s what we do and we are curious but just more hyper-fixated than the rest of people. I call it kind of a superpower 😂 maybe not the intrusive thoughts cause omg are they mentally draining but I learn to co exist with it and if you truly want to change you have to calm down your nervous system, go to therapy, meditate, DO NOT LAY IN YOUR BED AND WALLOW. I’ve been through it and still am but I learn to co exist and move on cause we don’t want to be like this forever. Show strange and fierceness and tell that thought to shut up and shove it where the sun don’t shine!!
I had the same thing and I also don't know why I did it
@anonymousgirll Did urs also feel like you had to stare like there was no other option but to stare at the part ur not supposed to look at?
@Shaodidi - uhm, mine wasn't during erp. I was just scrolling on facebook, saw a (normal!!) picture of a child and I zoomed in a little and looked at her chest for like not even second. like "accidentally"??? without thinking about it. I feel disgusting and it's been like 8 months ago. I more often zoom in on pictures, and look at things but nog at a child wth head 😭😭😭 but Ithink for you it's just feels like "this js something you can't look at" so you want to look or automatically look at it without wanting to really
@anonymousgirll Yeah I stare at it for a few seconds like it’s disturbing idk why I do that it’s still haunting me :(
@Shaodidi - same I honestly don't know how to get over the guilt, it bothers me so much and Istg I don't know why I did that!! I feel like it ruined my life :(
My whole life I’ve kind of stared at people’s crotches whenever they’re wearing something revealing a bikini. I feel like I’ve always searched to see if I can see an outline or something or anything because it’s so revealing. It kind of feels like curiosity I don’t know how to describe it. I did this before my OCD got bad and I do this now. I feel scared that I’m doing something I shouldn’t be. I’m scared that I’m doing something perverted. What scares me the most is that about a year ago this happened with my boyfriend sister. She was 15 at the time. I didn’t think much about it. I stared, searched and moved on. But now I really question if I did something awful or if my intentions were perverted. I’m questioning whether it’s okay to even have curiosity about this. Maybe this is normal and people don’t analyze their behavior, I don’t know. I had a theory that this has been a compulsion all along but right now it feels fully out the window. I haven’t been able to stop crying. I really need someone’s input or perspective. Please.
I need help I have a strong urge to look at pornography I consider myself straight although I have jerked off to trans porn before it's just I feel a urge to do it I was in class randomly just had a urge to look at porn I had a response pre ejaculation leaked while I had my eyes on something else I feel so ashamed I need help idk why I had this urge I just did idk what to do someone help I have fucked up thoughts too while looking at it sometimes of minors younger idk what to do I always get the same thoughts of my younger cousin need help
I was with my sister today. When I look at her, sex images pop up and I have to imagine them because in a second I feel very clearly like I like it. I ignored it the whole time but it feels real and I'm not calm.
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