what should i do- rocd- help

I relate to this. My ocd started off of one thought which was “maybe we should break up” and now with most relationships it happens and still does with my bf I have now. It’s a scary feeling and worrying if it’s ur actual feelings. Most times I know mine isn’t but if u lost feelings it happens, u can’t beat urself up about it. I got very annoyed with my bf one week and it wouldn’t stop, he wasn’t ever really doing anything but it kept happening. It stopped and now we are great. Sometimes though relationships don’t work out no matter what the reason is. U have feelings and ur going through a lot so take it easy. The way I realize when I love someone truly is when my mom asks me if I see myself without them or I think about the thought of him breaking up with me if I would care, and I do care so that’s how I figure it out usually. We have had times where we almost broke up and I would panic because I know I love him. I’m sure u have lots of love in ur heart to love someone u may just not be ready or just lost feelings which happens like I said. Once again u can’t beat urself up about it because im sure he understands and u definitely still can love because if u couldn’t love, u wouldnt worry more than likely. I worry because i love. Everything’s gonna be ok even if u aren’t sure about the relationship. I have done a lot in relationships with my ocd. I know the guy im with now I’ve done some damage but the ocd builds u stronger so then u know the difference between ocd and reality better. U go through a lot but u will definitely get through this and im sure u will see u have lots of love in ur heart!