First Time talking about this..

@rpilger Thank you so much that genuinely means so much i’m struggling so bad rn honestly i feel disgusting and like something is wrong with me and i just sobbed to my boyfriend because he said i have good intentions but i just don’t understand how i could even have thoughts like that about someone so close to me, in my family yk? like i js want to make it all go away but i genuinely don’t know how to fix it or if somethings genuinely wrong with me i think my biggest fear is that this is js me and not intrusive thoughts for whatever reason 😭 i just can’t afford therapy and im desperately looking for help

@just need help A few of NOCD’s videos on YouTube have more info on intrusive thoughts, as well as a YouTuber and therapist Nathan Peterson that was recommended to me by an ERP therapist, that might help! Also NOCD allows you to join support groups if you’re a member if you can afford a couple appointments on their payment plans, otherwise I’d recommend looking into how ALL thoughts are just thoughts and don’t necessarily mean anything about our wants.

@just need help In case you haven’t heard this about OCD yet, a few things you mentioned were making me think about this! OCD is nicknamed the “doubt disorder” because it seeks out absolute certainty in order to “keep us safe.” However, uncertainty is everywhere! Certainty rarely exists except that things in life will always change, die, or be taxed, as the saying goes haha. But that means that OCD will continue questioning and questioning, asking “what if” in a cycle to seek the certainty that doesn’t exist. It especially latches onto things we care about the most, aka our values. It helps a lot to name our values, not only to identify why OCD is latching onto, but also to help us realize how to redirect our energy to spend time on what we truly care about! If you happen to have insurance or think you might somehow be able to access treatment outside of NOCD, it would be important to look for someone who is trained specifically in ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention). The International OCD Foundation has a list of providers across the world that is a trusted list, and they’re at iocdf.org . They also have a bunch of resources to learn from too If you’d like more info on this and like to read books, a book that helped me a ton at the start of my OCD treatment is called “Everyday Mindfulness for OCD” (the book, not the workbook). If you’d like books that you can more relate to instead, then the books “Is Fred in the Refridgerator?” and “Turtles All the Way Down” are great ones.