No comfort even though I no memory is false (18+)

18+ please I saw art of Marvel Rivals skins and one of them was Peni Parker, nothing weird official art of a skin they'll be releasing, I didn't realise who it was at first so zoomed in, my OCD convinced me it was with sinister intentions (Even if it was, they've confirmed she's 18 but I still don't like the idea of her being sexualised because she's not in every other continuity). I then kept getting intrusive images of the other version of her from Spider-Verse that were incredibly disgusting and disturbing and I'm struggling with the what if I saw something terrible involving her and didn't do anything or worse, even though it makes no sense as when I saw something like that, I freaked out for an entire day and the other time was just under some random tweet that again, freaked me out for a while. Those were both this year though and I have this nagging in the back of my head of "What if it was earlier than that and you forgot?". I know I have to just sit with the uncertainty and stop ruminating but it's really really hard. Does anyone have any techniques they use to do it that help?

Abby :3

Date posted: 3d

That’s crazy I have literally been in the exact same boat with Gwen Stacy LOL. Got soooo nervous thinking about oh god is she underage? I just said she’s hot what does that mean about me? Honestly, maybe try watching other clips of peni or even looking up hentai of that character and thinking “maybe this is something I should feel bad about, maybe not, but I’m gonna sit here and let whatever thoughts come, come.” I know it’s so hard and pocd is the fucking worst. Just know you’re not alone and are much stronger than you think. You got this!

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2d

Would that be crossing a line? Looking up adult content of a character that is typically underaged on purpose? I get that it was accidental and someone made that and OP feels gross about it though, this happens to me a lot. For Gwen Stacy, I've read that her character is 19. But the ages always get messed up saying she's younger

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

@BigGyro09 I don't think I've seen art sexualising the underage version of Peni Parker I just am worried I have and don't remember but yeah I don't feel comfortable searching it up because most likely the results would be mostly disgusting illegal stuff

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

@Anonymous The art I saw was official stuff from Marvel Rivals that was perfectly fine and didn't have anything weird, I think I may have seen art of that version before but clicked off because it made me uncomfortable (As in the Marvel Rivals version) also despite being 18 apparently she's still in high school which is all kinds of fucked up in my opinion

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2d

@Anonymous Yeah I would also say don't search up those things. The Rivals characters I would assume are all adults and over the age of 18 but it's still weird as hell and uncomfortable when I think of things like that with Peni in my opinion. It's because I know that character is a minor in a lot of their depictions.

Abby :3

Date posted: 20h

Alright guys I wasn’t saying look up porn of underage characters I do not know how old peni Parker is, I assumed the nuisance was understood a little better. Watch more normal content of peni Parker and let yourself feel weird. You guys are also just having a reassurance off in the comments ^ I’d try to avoid stuff like that as well

Anonymous

Date posted: 20h

Sorry how are we giving reassurance? Not trying to be a dick or anything just genuinely wondering, also I know you weren't saying to do that it could've just been an unintended consequence of it because of the other versions of the character, like there would be no real way to parse what version it would be without unfortunately seeing that stuff unintentionally

Abby :3

Date posted: 20h

@Anonymous I’d say with the over explaining and back and forth about how you guys think it’s gross. At least for me, talking to other people about what makes me uncomfortable and how it makes me uncomfortable and them also going “yea that’s a gross thing you’re right” is almost a reassurance. I’m not saying keep it bottled up or don’t talk about it, but conversations like that ^ can tend to teeter on ruminating/reassurance from my experience

Anonymous

Date posted: 19h

@Abby :3 Yeah I guess it's probably an overcorrection from when I was groomed into thinking things like that are okay by like reddit and stuff when I was a teenager but I'll try to stop over explaining now, I think you're right that it's a compulsion (Also probably doing it now with the added context at the beginning but still), sorry if that was too heavy, I don't mean to burden you with that but felt like that context was important

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