Need some advice

Hello everyone. I need some advice. I’ve been recovering from my real event and false memory OCD and I’ve made some amazing progress!!! I’m still stuck on one thing and I’m wondering if anyone else has experienced it. I used to work in a daycare which means changing a lot of diapers. I remember I changed one little boy and he was known for wiggling around and crying when getting changed. I remember I was trying to go quick and wiped him down really quickly in like a shaking motion while saying “icky”!!! My brain convinced me that I wiped him wrong or in appropriately. Then I started getting false memories about the event and those were very distressing. I logically no I would never do anything to hurt a child but my ocd keeps telling me I could have accidentally. I’ve seen a lot of posts about diapers but they seem different than mine 😭. Can anyone relate or have any advice?

Mitu_001

Date posted: Yesterday

I am really sorry.I can say I had thoughts when I was hugging some relatives and I thought I did something innapropiate.You didn't harmed them.And try to not ruminate because you know it makes it worse.You said it: you will never harm a kid.You are safe💕

OCDTina

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@Mitu_001 I appreciate your encouragement 💕

Mitu_001

Date posted: Yesterday

@OCDTina Is really hard I know..try to think how much you care about them.And try to think about moments when you take care of them.It helped me a bit

‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎ㅤ

Date posted: Yesterday

Listen to yourself. "My brain convinced me", "I started getting false memories", "I logically know I would never do anything to hurt a child". You know that this is OCD. Trust yourself.

OCDTina

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎ㅤ Yes! It’s so hard though 😔.

username524

Date posted: 20h

I did something like that today looking at someone. And I noticed I liked their lips like oh she has nice lips. That was it that was the whole thought. But this person was like 16 so my OCD went and made me think I was a bad person for making an observation. I started getting anxious and like I did something wrong. The truth is OCD just gives us these thoughts and we give them meaning. Everyone has these thoughts, we are all human and observe and second guess, OCD loves to over analyze and hyper fixate on things. Just know you’re not alone! You’ve got this!!!!!

OCDTina

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11h

@username524 I appreciate it! Mine usually starts with an obsessive thought from an event and then it creates false memories around the event. It’s torture 😭

Helpbrooke26

Date posted: 12h

I completely understand. I have had very similar situations. It’s tough, but the best thing you can do… is tell your ocd thanks for the thought I did wipe that baby inappropriately. You have to sit with the uncertainty. I know it’s so so hard trust me.. I still have problems, but I started practicing exposures and I will say it truly helped. I thought how if I was holding my son wrong and I said to my ocd thanks for giving me that thought. I want more of those thoughts.

OCDTina

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11h

@Helpbrooke26 Thank you for the encouragement 🙏. I’ve noticed most of my ocd now is surrounding protecting children. Even working in the daycare I obsessively checked the cameras to make sure they were working before I left the room. I was so paranoid a substitute may harm them. It’s so embarrassing to look back on, but I’m really trying! I don’t even have kids of my own yet 😭.

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