- Date posted
- Yesterday
Repost same worry
How does everyone try to combat their real event OCD? I keep remembering this certain memory where an old friend of mine from a group years ago who was a guy messaged me on Snapchat last year on Halloween he said something to me. I donāt remember what he said and I responded and I donāt remember what I said, but I do remember that I removed him right after, as well as one other guy, I am pretty sure I remember why I removed them and it was because Im pretty sure I had seen a TikTok or reel or something where this person said you shouldnāt have guys on your snap in a relationship etc, and I had a thought where I was like āI donāt want my fiance seeing these guys that I used to talk to on my snap and think that Iām doing something wrong or anything.ā I know I removed them out of respect for our relationship and I remembered because I remembered I had gotten an anxious and nervous because they were still on my snap, but 2 months after I un added that guy off my snap(December 2024) I panicked because I donāt remember what I said or he said and I got worried about what if I flirted, sent a nude or if I said something wrong. I spoke to my fiancĆ© about it and he pretty much reassured me and he told me that if I had actually done something out of that intent, I wouldnāt have told him about it at all, so that helped me and reassured me for a little bit, and then my OCD moved on to another theme for months. Fast forward to now, I remembered the same thing and my thought was āWhat if I cheated and flirted, sent a nude or even worse? Etc.ā And I started freaking out again and I started panicking. I told my fiancĆ© about it again and he reassured me again but recently my OCD has been really bad and every theme Iāve had has caused me to just avoid it just sucks because I canāt go check if I actually said something flirty and I just didnāt realize it because I removed the guy last year right after I talked to him. I hate this ocd theme so much. My fiancĆ© is the best man I have ever met and he is a god sent the last thing Iād ever want to do is hurt him, but ocd constantly convinces me I did and I donāt remember. I know if I genuinely did something like that. Iād remember, but when I try to ruminate and think back to what went down, my OCD will give me like visuals or flashes of me committing the intrusive thought and it just makes everything so much worse has anyone else dealt with this?