Pregnancy and OCD

Hi everyone. So I’ve had OCD since I was 5. Old enough to remember at least. Just born that way. But I was also very abused as a child, neglected, exhausted, very much traumatized. I left my home at 18, the day after I turned 18 no joke. I counted every day from 16 and up. The abuse escalated when I turned 16 is the thing. I live with my now fiance, we’ve been together for years and I’m back in contact with my family. I’m 19 turning 20 now. But, I am more than likely pregnant. I wasn’t trying to get pregnant. But I am neither upset, or distressed because both of us always wanted a family together it’s just a matter of wishing we had more things sorted right now. I don’t know where to go to talk about some of this, but I’m so worried. I’m worried about my family, my OCD gets so bad somedays smashing into this wondering if I’ll be punished one way or another, making me feel the need to do several things and walk on glass. I feel like everyone knows I’m pregnant when I haven’t said anything. It’s so stressful. I’m so tired and confused. And I have a therapist, God bless him, he’s amazing. And he told me it’s okay if I want this baby, and if I don’t. I told him I do even if it’s crazy, I know I’m young but if I’m honest with everyone here, from a young age of 11-12 I was forced to grow up immediately. I was locked in my home often, and surrounded only by adults. No children to be friends with. So whenever I made friends, we were often off balance in maturity. (Don’t worry this isn’t a me thinking I belong with people older.) my fiance however is very similar to me. But he has a sweet innocence about him, yet so put together and has been for years even in our teens. We don’t party, and I’ve been invited to more times than I can count. Drinking isn’t something I enjoy, I’ve tried most things and didn’t enjoy it. But you know my favorite thing? Taking care of children, reading, writing, and spending time with my fiance and all our pets. I don’t know, I can’t stop worrying I’ll be a horrible mother, I’ll end up hurting my child, or what my family will say. Idk if anyone has any advice or anything here. This isn’t strictly OCD as you can tell. A lot of it’s a lot of overlapping things.