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- 4d
SO-OCD and love (pls help)
I analyze every feeling i feel and im so tired of it. Really. Im so envious about others who can experience feelings of love, crushes etc. There is this one men and i finally started to feel a bit normal, like myself, i thought that maybe im in love or maybe itās a crush because i felt intense feelings. Anywayā¦.it can be only a platonic love. But why am I so scared to call it platonic? Im scared that lesbians can love men in platonic way. That this sign is not enough to prove me that im straight. I have a lot of stuff on my heart. I mean why my ocd is stuck on these things about relationships, love, feelings, sexual orientationšš i dont want to be with girls. But still it always makes me believe that im just a lesbian who is forcing themself to love men? Im tired. I feel like somehow im envious of those women who can normally fall for men. I have to analyze every feeling. Everything. And why one day i feel like a normal straight women and next day i feel like the biggest lesbian in denial? One day i have such a strong sexual imaginations with guys, even my body reacts to itā¦.and next day i feel nothing. Like im not interested in men. Why is thisā¦