I don't feel too great and it's not a physical thing. I don't have anxiety that much anymore it's a bit rare. I do worry I'm not worrying alot tho. It's like in between accepting what I worry about is true, and not wanting to ever even come close to anything like it. It feels weird and I fight myself alot (or my mind) on what is authentically my thoughts and what isn't. I went online (you know, like how your not supposed too) and I found an article about people with ocd might feel like they have to do what they worry about To get over all this. I don't want to and never will, but I still worry if I'm in that state or if I will get to that conclusion. I'm tired all the time and I'm never in the mood to do the things I loved before. I wish I knew how rough it was gunna be before it hit me. I left a job because it's super stressful and I'm unemployed rn. So I've been at home all day for a little while. So I came to a conclusion, I'm gunna try more. Ima go out, Try to find a job, try to take more than one shower every few days and I'm going to try to enjoy art again.I've come pretty far and im not stopping now. Anybody feel the same. Could always use the tips.

OCD doesn’t like to be beaten. When you stop feeling anxious, it will guilt trip you into feeling anxious. Sometimes accepting the anxiety is less painful than dealing with the guilt so you deliberely bring it on. All this is a sign you are winning though & it’s having to work harder & harder.

Wow Reptarrox I feel like I’ve lived your experience right alongside you. It has always seemed to me that when OCD takes control nothing else matters, not even simple tasks like showering. I’ve been there done that and still doing that. It’s funny how I feel like I know all of you people better than my family knows me.

?Beautifully said Martino.

Going through the same. The thing that helps me is to just do it a little at a time. Try to shower every couple days instead of once a week. Draw 1 thing a day, even if you don't feel like it, can be a quick sketch but do something. Go out and run just down the block or even just walk. Just do something every day, it gets a little easier over time, but the hard part is doing it every day. Best wishes to you.

Thanks much for the input FHFF! You’re greatly appreciated. So FHFF, Nik1234 and Martino I will start with you three. I’ve been thinking about buying a large poster board at the store and creating a branch of ocd subtypes that branch out from the center... I want to literally draw out as many experiences from you folks on here as I can.. tell me your OCD subtype, your obsessions, how long your anxiety spike lasts, tell me what compulsions you perform when you have a spike, and how long you have been suffering with your OCD. I am going to list my OCD information right alongside you guys. As a group I want to use your personal information to try to unravel this mess we call OCD. I think this could be a start in the right direction. Thanks in advance! My drawing all of this out I want to see if I can find a common link that connects everybody’s subtypes and symptoms. I will happily share with all of you any insight or brainstorms I can come up with. Any and all help is welcome!

Hang in there don’t believe everything your mind tells you.

You don’t control your thoughts but you control how you react to them.choose not to

If you have a thought of eating your feases Would you eat them or you just dismiss it as a thought ? take others the same and let them go no matter what bodily sensations they produce.They are just thoughts and disregard what other pple think of you you are alone to fight this.ALL IN A POSITIVE WAY

You’re absolutely right about that!

It prooves that we are one and our brains ? love and respect us .They want to protect us no matter what,keep is out of danger.It sends all unimaginable scenarios,DONT FORGET THATS WHAT THE BRAIN DOES IT DOESN’T KNOW THAT YOU HAVE OCD .Just don’t believe and let it go no matter the urgency of analyzing and ruminating DONT FALL IN THE TRAP.Yes it’s in your head and it feels real but it’s all anxiety it’s misfiring in your brain ? and you don’t have control over that,so no matter how it feels follow your values not your thoughts ? luv you

I'm like worried in the background now that people will tell me they never felt like this and I'm crazy... -.-

Thank you FHFF!! I will let you know when I’m ready!