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OCD doesn’t like to be beaten. When you stop feeling anxious, it will guilt trip you into feeling anxious. Sometimes accepting the anxiety is less painful than dealing with the guilt so you deliberely bring it on. All this is a sign you are winning though & it’s having to work harder & harder.
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Your right. Thanks man
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Wow Reptarrox I feel like I’ve lived your experience right alongside you. It has always seemed to me that when OCD takes control nothing else matters, not even simple tasks like showering. I’ve been there done that and still doing that. It’s funny how I feel like I know all of you people better than my family knows me.
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I know. But I get that they never felt like me or have been in this same situation. But it's always easier to talk with people who are literally in the same situation
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My family doesn't get it, they think it's more of an annoying quirk. Which is fine, I don't expect empathy. But the people here get it and that's really cool.
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?Beautifully said Martino.
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Going through the same. The thing that helps me is to just do it a little at a time. Try to shower every couple days instead of once a week. Draw 1 thing a day, even if you don't feel like it, can be a quick sketch but do something. Go out and run just down the block or even just walk. Just do something every day, it gets a little easier over time, but the hard part is doing it every day. Best wishes to you.
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Yea I should try that. I have been trying to draw one thing a day. Thanks man really appreciate it
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Thanks much for the input FHFF! You’re greatly appreciated. So FHFF, Nik1234 and Martino I will start with you three. I’ve been thinking about buying a large poster board at the store and creating a branch of ocd subtypes that branch out from the center... I want to literally draw out as many experiences from you folks on here as I can.. tell me your OCD subtype, your obsessions, how long your anxiety spike lasts, tell me what compulsions you perform when you have a spike, and how long you have been suffering with your OCD. I am going to list my OCD information right alongside you guys. As a group I want to use your personal information to try to unravel this mess we call OCD. I think this could be a start in the right direction. Thanks in advance! My drawing all of this out I want to see if I can find a common link that connects everybody’s subtypes and symptoms. I will happily share with all of you any insight or brainstorms I can come up with. Any and all help is welcome!
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That's a nice gesture, i'm willing to help out when I can. Let me know.
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Hang in there don’t believe everything your mind tells you.
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Thanks man
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You don’t control your thoughts but you control how you react to them.choose not to
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If you have a thought of eating your feases Would you eat them or you just dismiss it as a thought ? take others the same and let them go no matter what bodily sensations they produce.They are just thoughts and disregard what other pple think of you you are alone to fight this.ALL IN A POSITIVE WAY
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Thank you man. I usually go on here to comment and see if I can help someone else and that gives me a new light on who I am as a person. Thanks alot for the support
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You’re absolutely right about that!
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It prooves that we are one and our brains ? love and respect us .They want to protect us no matter what,keep is out of danger.It sends all unimaginable scenarios,DONT FORGET THATS WHAT THE BRAIN DOES IT DOESN’T KNOW THAT YOU HAVE OCD .Just don’t believe and let it go no matter the urgency of analyzing and ruminating DONT FALL IN THE TRAP.Yes it’s in your head and it feels real but it’s all anxiety it’s misfiring in your brain ? and you don’t have control over that,so no matter how it feels follow your values not your thoughts ? luv you
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I'm like worried in the background now that people will tell me they never felt like this and I'm crazy... -.-
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Thank you FHFF!! I will let you know when I’m ready!
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i’ve been dealing with SOCD for 5 years and truly believe it has altered my life completely😀. i haven’t been properly diagnosed but the child therapist I had when i was in hs kind of hinted to me i had something more than just plain anxiety. i’ve also dealt with intrusive thoughts all throughout my childhood and as my family life got worse my anxiety got worse annnd i started getting more and more thoughts that wouldn’t leave me. I remember spending months not swallowing right and practically starving myself bc i kept thinking i was going to choke. i also rmbr spending months worrying ab death and dying EVERYDAY. it woke up with horrible anxiety and it was all i could think about. i can still rmbr sitting in my grandpas chair and just staring off and thinking “im going to die one day” “idk what’s going to happen” “is god real” “i don’t want to die” “what if there is no heaven” and so on. when the socd thoughts started i was 15. i searched around online for help and found reddit and i was like “omg yes finally people who understand and are going through EXACTLY what im going through.” finding that community and this app has helped me so much. anyway i had such a horrible time during my teenage years bc of all the intrusive thoughts about my sexuality, my relationship (glad that’s over), and some other things here and there. i was so so depressed and i felt no one around me understood how fucking awful i felt. i woke up everyday anxious, depressed, numb, and exhausted. when i started college i told my old therapist that even tho im extremely afraid of death i just didnt like living. i would cry in my car before class and just sob ab how awful i felt. although my mental health has gotten SO much better as time went on and the thoughts haven’t been as frequent im definitely not doing well. i am literally stuck. i’m still in college but i don’t know what to do with myself. those years of anxiety and depression have left me STUCK. im so much happier? and i can manage the thoughts way better but i don’t want to do anything. i only talk to 2 friends (literally lost so many great friendships), i RARELY drive bc im afraid ill die in a car crash (only to school and back), i don’t go out, i don’t ask for help at school, i avoid conversations, i avoid ppl in general, i don’t put in that much effort into school, i don’t have hobbies, i don’t want to do anything, i literally have the worst social anxiety now, im afraid of everything. i feel like the only reason im “ok” now is bc i’ve avoided literally everything. i’ve basically spent three years of my life doing nothing. i’m not happy with where i am in my life but im so scared to do anything. i miss who i was before all of this. i’ve been dealing with anxiety all my life and ik my childhood and early teen years made me like this. i didn’t know how to deal with the things i went through/saw as a little kid and i guess everything exploded in my teen years. but i want to be better i want to start LIVING. i’m definitely happier than before but im not living. what frustrates me is i refuse to do anything about it. i know a big reason why i don’t experience as many intrusive thoughts is bc i avoid everything 😭. ik what i have to do to get better and turn my life around BUT I WONT DO ANYTHING. idk how to explain this but its not laziness i feel like my body is exhausted. i think im just so traumatized from feeling so fucking horrible for so many years i just shut down ykwim?? i don’t have any libido, i don’t find ppl attractive, i can’t get myself to do the things im interested in (so many books r piled on my floor), i rot all day, i push off my responsibilities till the last minute, i can’t even get myself to go on a small walk. i don’t know where i was going w this but if someone who’s going through the same thing sees this ur not alone. i just needed to get this out. hopefully one day things will get better.
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(Long read) hello everyone. i was out of the country for about 3-4 months and traveling. my ocd was not that bad at all and I was able to handle it even if it came up. on my way back home, it immediately started. i have learned how to handle it better, but i am more sad and just “awaiting” for something bad to happen. for example, i have sexual themed ocd. pocd and family related stuff, and also my ocd targeted my pets for about a year and it manifested into compulsions that disturbed me and made me not want to be around my cats. now that i am around my cats, i feel like “what if i harm them or do something bad?” or “what if you do those weird compulsions that happened before?” , when i look back on the compulsions that happened, it doesn’t feel like me and it was clearly driven by ocd, but it makes me worry i am just a sick person. i know myself and i know im not, but i had such a weird childhood and then ocd from 15 years old and up. so when these weird compulsions had happened , whether it was for the pet ocd theme or pocd or the family ocd, it feels like some sort of proof. anyways, i feel a bit for content with myself but i know how real ocd can feel and i just remember feeling so hopeless and suici da l, i just don’t want to go through that again. i take a more spiritual route of life and healing, and i wonder if anyone has some deep spiritual warmups or practices i could do to maybe open up my mind more? maybe to realize this is all in the mind? but also to not fight it… Not fight it meaning not let it take over my life. i racked up so much debt in therapy and i truly think i can get through this alone i just need a bit of help. but i dunno. any advice would help! thanks everyone ☀️
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I’m 21. The 3 year anniversary of my graduation from high school is soon. Lately, I’ve been worried about where I’m going in life and if it’s even worth it because I don’t know why I exist or what my purpose is After graduating I lost a new job I loved due to poor management on my boss’s side, they failed to teach me my job then fired me for it, and moved from my mom’s house into my dads house due to issues with my stepdad, both of which put me into a depression. I got a new job 3 months later. But ever since being fired and moving out, I feel like I’ve been in a depressive cycle of Eat, Sleep, Work, Repeat. I’ll get home and doomscroll for hours, and occasionally play games with friends at nights. Occasionally I’ll do my hobbies but usually feel guilty for it. I don’t see my friends and family nearly as much as I used to. I want to, but it feels like everything I want to do, my intrusive thoughts find a way to keep me at home. “It’s a waste of time.” “You need to be productive on your time off or you’ll go nowhere in life so stay home.” But then if I stay home it’s “you need to go out and do something.” “You’re being unproductive sitting at home all day.” “Seeing them wont make you feel better, you’ll never be happy” My girlfriend lives 6 hours away and is usually the only time I’d go outside and live and feel in the moment, but even then I’d feel guilt. I feel like my OCD makes me feel guilty for everything. She’s helped me a lot, but lately we’ve had a few issues we’ve worked past that made me fear for losing her too. I’ve felt depressed for years now. Before being fired, I usually felt pretty good and was almost normal feeling. I’d had control over my fears and intrusive thoughts of suicide and the meaning of life, and had accepted them and wasn’t afraid. I knew it wasn’t me. But lately I’ve been trying to push myself out of this depressive cycle, and it’s made my OCD and fears of suicide and if life has meaning, come right back. I’m handling it slightly better, but it’s still hard. I just want to move past this and stop questioning why I’m even doing anything, if I want to end it all, when I know for certain I don’t want to and that I get to make my own meaning in life. I have dreams, I want to get back into art. I want to move in with my girlfriend eventually and start a family. But my OCD makes me so scared to even try to make art, and it makes me so scared I won’t be happy or content with my dreams. I feel so alone and sad. I feel like life will pass me by while I’m stuck feeling this sad and scared. It sucks, but I’m trying my best to get there. Gotta keep moving
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