Advice needed

I’m a silent listener when it comes to your posts for the past year (I just made a new account) , just wanted to let you know we are very similar in age and very similar in our ocd style/ real events and maybe it will be helpful for you to know that you aren’t alone in this struggle and I find comfort (not in your suffering) but in the fact that there’s someone like me who struggles with the same things and still finds the will to keep going. I’m proud of you.

Your posting ( compulsions) Have gone way down. You should be proud of that progress!

I can relate to this I get off and potentially false memories especially atound sexual encounters...DO NOT continue to ruminate about that incident...it is not going to result in anything negative for you in the future Boomers hurt from the actions The only one suffering odious and you can control that I'm speaking from a position of experience with something like that you are creating that an incident even Happened and that only you seem effected by it etc

What advice do you need? This is OCD and you need to not respond to these thoughts and not do compulsions like asking for reassurance

Have you seen a therapist or tried medication for ocd? It’s good that you’ve been posting less. If you haven’t found a therapist, I would really suggest you look for one. I used to post on here all the time asking for reassurance, and I realize now that it made ocd worse. I was the person who kept posting about a prayer obsession I had (I deleted the app and reinstalled it). The more reassurance I got, it did nothing. Everyone kept telling me they were intrusive thoughts, and I was so convinced that they misunderstood and that these were actual prayers, that I was blind to the fact that they were actually intrusive thoughts. I’ve dealt a lot with false memory ocd too. The thing is, with ocd you cant seek certainty. I know you really want to, but you can’t. It might be really hard for you to do that now, but you really need to try to do that. If it is still too hard, then medication could help you do that. Im not sure what your exact situation is, and if you’ve tried medication or how hard you have tried to lean into the uncertainty (as my therapist would say), but you really have to try to allow yourself to be uncertain

For me, I could be wrong, but I tried really hard to lean into the uncertainty, and I still couldn’t. It was like ocd was completely stubborn when I tried to do that. I don’t know if that is like your situation at all, or how much effort you have put in to trying to lean into the uncertainty, but after trying a bunch of medications, I was unaware that there were other things that could help in severe cases (like deep TMS which is what I’ve done 3 sessions of so far). My ocd is really severe, and so severe that I couldn’t get anywhere with therapy or do ERP. TMS could reduce the severity of the ocd enough to allow me to do ERP. With your case, it’s really important to find an ocd specialized therapist and probably medication (it can start with Zoloft and Prozac, and if they are unsuccessful, you can try other things in addition to them as augmentations). The main point is that there’s a lot of options available (some of which I didn’t know about before this year), and for most people something works. Please get the help you deserve and I really hope things improve