does anyone else deal with emetophobia or throwing-up related fears with your ocd?? I know it’s supposed to be common but I feel like so many people don’t understand! pretty much everyone I tell about it says “well no one LIKES throwing up” and ugh! duh!!! I know! I just wanted to know if anyone else deals with it too

My first anxiety related fear was emetophobia. I was specifically afraid of vomiting in social situations and being humiliated. Other than being uncomfortable what are you afraid of about the experience?

I think even if you made a mess, no one would blame you for it. I’ve literally had someone vomit on me before and I wasn’t mad because I know they were truly ill. I can understand not wanting to associate vomiting with certain situations but at the same time, don’t let the fear that it could happen determine your choices.

Yes! Doing erp specifically for it and have seen a huge improvement. Also on medication which has helped a ton. Still have a long way to go but have also made huge progress on a fear I thought would be with me the rest of my life. Now I can see life without it!

I’m mostly scared of 2 things: making a mess, and tainting things. I have a GI issue that makes me nauseous pretty much all the time, so it’s hard for me to know if I’m going to throw up or not, so I’m scared of not knowing and then making a mess. I’m also scared of tainting things like foods or experiences by having a bad memory of throwing up if that makes sense.

Vomiting has been my core fear from age 5-6 to the present day (age 37). I get nausea from my anxiety and have actually thrown up a lot from it. I fear throwing up from feared foods, from anxiety in front of others, and especially while eating with others. It has lead to a lot of avoidance of social situations and friendships/relationships. I also fear losing my appetite in social eating situations and embarrassment from that.

My parents would get mad and yell at me when I would throw up. I could never make it to the toilet. It would always get on the floor. And they would get so upset and yell because they had to clean it up. So I felt scared, embarrassed, ashamed, like I was a bad person who did a bad thing. Disgust and anxiety are linked in my brain now so when I'm disgusted by something I also feel fear or anxiety. I'm not sure how disgust can exist as a separate thing from fear/ anxiety. What would that even be like? It's definitely a trauma thing for me. Plus I have a congenital heart condition and I was told by my family that if I get severely sick, I could die. My great grandmother died of colon cancer and so did my grandpa. So I associate vomiting with having a terminal illness and dying. There are many negative associations I have with vomiting, plus the experience itself is very unpleasant. I always worry about how long it will last, like, "What if it just keeps going and doesn't stop and I dehydrate and starve and then die?" I hate the feeling of not having control over my body. Plus it smells, tastes, and feels gross, too. I feel like I'm a bad, disgusting person for vomiting, especially if it's around other people. It's like I'm thinking, "If I vomit around others, they will be disgusted by me and run away and never want to associate with me again after discovering how disgusting I am!" I don't really like myself and don't feel comfortable inside my body. I feel like my body is going to betray me at any moment. Like a ticking disease time bomb. I wish I were like a floaty spirit entity or a robot or something without a mortal "fleshsuit" to have to care for and worry about. It feels like such a burden.