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- TwylerGuy12
- Date posted
- 5y ago
- Username
- charliebeecharliebee
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I feel you, drugs fucked me majorly. Keep off the drugs, see friends and spend time with family too. Isolating yourself from them will make it harder so try push yourself to spend time with them. The more you do the easier it will get. I still find it all hard but we need to push ourselves no matter how bad the thoughts are, I focus on the moment and don't try control the thoughts. It is still really hard and Xmas has been tearful for me, but the more you push yourself the easier it'll get. Keep pushing yourself, stay strong.
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- TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Thank you man. I do spend most of my time at home but sometimes it's just way too much emotionally and physically so I tend to get out with friends most night and toke. Besides weed and cigs I've stopped all other drugs. The ritual of smoking sometimes feels like the only piece of mind I get. That and being with friends helps as well. I just hate how quickly I've gone from almost accepting myself to hating myself more than I ever have, even when my depression was bad and i had suicidal thoughts. I'm sorry to hear the holidays have been difficult for you, they have for me as well so dont feel alone. I dont think I've cried more consistently ever before than I do now. I've been trying so hard to push thru and its it's so hard.
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- lulu23lulu23
- Date posted
- 5y ago
My thoughts have evolved so much they literally attack me being scared of anything and everything. I can’t understand if I’m scared of the thought or the thing I think I fear! I’m so confused and want to just not fucking care
- Username
- TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Mine seem to attack me no matter what. Playing video games, listening to music, watching a movie. I understand how you feel, I wish we could jus delete shit like this outta our brains. I hate how mine seems to be against me all of a sudden.
- Username
- lulu23lulu23
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@TwylerGuy12 Wow we have a lot in common haven’t played a game in a month and barely ever listen to music where as before I did 2-4 hours a day. This disorder fucking sucks. But let’s stay strong. It’s literally all we can do. Do what we used to and try our best to enjoy it.
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- charliebeecharliebee
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@lulu23 Stay strong guys!
- Username
- charliebeecharliebee
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I had a major issue with weed, I reckon you should cut that out too mate. It can cause all sorts of issues, and what you are describing sounds a lot like how I felt. Since cutting the weed out its been easier for me, as it has a lot of psychological effects, so I can think more clearly than I used to. I still smoke cigs, a lot more than I used to, 1 thing at a time tho... Weed does help in the moment, same as booze, but you're better off without, especially with what you're going through. Make sure you're speaking to a GP or a someone who can help with suicidal thoughts, as they could give you meds to make it a bit easier and guide you more in the right direction. Yeah holidays are usually a tough time if year for everyone, but keeping off the drugs and getting the right therapy, hopefully soon it'll get easier. Do try keep off the weed mate, it really messed me up, and it can cause these types of issues due to a chemical imbalance in your brain. Keep trying mate, it will get easier.
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- TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Quiting weed sounds impossible because I've been smoking everyday day for so long, and at this point smoking with my friends feels like the only peace I have, if even for just a bit. I've been smoking since sophomore year and never had any problems until now, which it seemed more likely to me that my recent psychedelic abuse was the problem, which I've completed stopped.
- Username
- charliebeecharliebee
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@TwylerGuy12 I get you, for 10 years I used to smoke weed, but for the last 2 years it's been so hard, especially after realising what OCD is and how long I've dealt with it. I loved it and stopping was so fucking hard, but it'll be worth it trust me. It's worth a try if you are struggling this much, as stopping has helped me a lot. Entirely up to you tho, but your docs would say same thing if you're having these issues. At least cut down if you smoke a lot and it might improve your mood when you're not high.
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- TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@charliebee I'm not opposed to cutting it off, I have no desire on my own besides now what seems like my mental health being on the line. Itll be easier I feel like to cut back rather than stop cold turk, but cutting back in and of itself will prove to be difficult. But if you can stop after 10 years I can definitely attempt after 2. Props to you btw, its it's not easy, especially when its it's your get a away.
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- charliebeecharliebee
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@TwylerGuy12 Yeah give that try mate, hopefully cutting down will help you a bit. Definitely see a GP too as they will be able to guide you more with the issues you're having with mental health. Thanks man, all the best to you and hope things get easier.
- Username
- TwylerGuy12TwylerGuy12
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I've been the same way about both games and music. I used to play video games all the time and loved music and I made beats in my free time and loved it, but I havent made a complete beat since this all started and playing games even fucking pokemon sword or splatoom, my thoughts still come to me. Which makes me feel even worse because those were both birthday presents from my parents ? and you're so right. We just gotta fight it even tho it seems so hard. We gotta fight to make every day brighter and every thought happier, on god. ?
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- bributterfly
- Date posted
- 6y ago
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- Naeun
- Date posted
- 6y ago
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- Taylen
- Date posted
- 2y ago
im scared, need advice quick.
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