What was the lowest point of your H OCD, mental intrusive thoughts, depression, DPDR and other mental disorders ? Pls explain im in the worst place right now. (I don’t know if i will experience any psychosis later or not im down)
I’m dealing with real event ocd mixed in with false memory. The real event is about family and something that happened when I was in 3rd grade maybe even in 1 or 2 grade. And now I’m getting false memory painting me as an attacker and monster over things that I did when I didn’t even know what the human body was. Or right now going into detail about it and deleting the post because I feel like my family has access to this app and can read all of it and I’m painted as that monster or right now it changing and now telling me the real event that happened with family is convincing me that they probably remembered and asked me and now I’m scared for no reason. I have many more I suffer from harm ocd a lot I get very bad intrusive thoughts and image that my brain really believes. For all I know they never remembered and they never asked about the situation I’m just making a big deal out of it because of things I see on the internet
My intrusive thoughts are the worst part of mine. I stress daily about them which sends me on endless loop holes of searching for answers. I have ocd related to fear of death (I know there is a technical name for it) and scrupulosity ocd. I've always tried to follow some form of higher power/ God. However what sends me into panic is when the intrusive thoughts play out. Mine are typically this "will" happen not "what if." What drives me insane is the intrusive thoughts become intuitive and become real. So now it's a power struggle between ocd which is science and intuition which is ability to see things that play out. Most people would agree that it's science and brain patterns that make the intrusive thoughts "seem" real. For me though the things that happen no matter how they are broke down cannot be explained. Which then sends me spiraling. I feel and see things I don't want to. It's not paranoia because these things play out. So how can I ever be normal when what science explains can't explain this. It's exhausting. It's defeating.
I'm just now coming out of my worst health ocd spiral. I quit eating, lost 10 pounds and all hobby interests vanished. I put on a good act for my kids but my wife knew. Three very very long months and I finally feel like I'm waking up from a nightmare. My hobby interests are back in full swing and my appetite is beginning to wake up again. Still going through with therapy, so I have the tools to avoid this bs in the future.
@tarantula keeper Hope everything goes well my friend 🙏 how old are you ? Did you have any mental sensations in front of you head ?
@@looenn🙏 I'm 38. I felt trapped in my brain. I could not stop worrying that the symptoms were of a terminal illness. I stopped doing any kind of future planning as there was no point. I just sat in my head and felt sad and scared. Like I know death gets us all, but I'm 38 ffs. I want to see my kids grow up at least.
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