Things will get better!

Take it from me. Someone, who a few months ago, had the worst spiral of their life so far. I had a full on panic attack that sent my ocd (before I knew what it was) into a frenzy. I was in a dark place— OCD was stealing my days, stealing my sleep, and everyday I mourned for the life I took for granted when I had some mental clarity. I felt like I was at a 10/10 always, my brain screaming at me with my worst fears, forcing me to endure a living nightmare, and convincing me this is me and my new life. It felt like it consumed all I was, and stole my future. All I wanted to do was isolate, I was convinced something was wrong with me, and that I must be a terrible person. NOCD and my connected therapist helped me feel like me again. Now, I can breathe, I can talk back to my intrusive thoughts and anxiety, and I can decide what happens next. Erp has truly changed my life with a simple “thoughts are just thoughts”. How can something so simple be so revolutionary? Well I believe it’s all in the power of trust and confidence within yourself. I am now able to trust myself again. I learned so much about myself, why I process things differently, why I have certain triggers, and how I was engaging in compulsions I wasn’t even aware of (turns out, ocd has been lurking around with me my entire life and I had no clue)! I’m not perfect— the road has been bumpy and not everyday will be perfect. The thoughts and worries will still come up here and there, but now I know “there’s my OCD again” , point it out, and try to move on to something else. Because it’s all about trying. To look at it positively, your OCD is your brain’s weird and funky way of trying to protect you in a sense. It’s doing a VERY WEIRD job at it, but acknowledge it, and let it pass. And eventually it will take a back seat and trust you to drive! <3