Severe depression

I have been in bed for months no job no life I don’t even have the energy to watch a movie. I’m just fading away. I just don’t care about anything anymore. And if another (well intentioned) person offers platitudes or suggests that I do yoga or whatever I feel like I will lose my mind. I call the helplines, I go to therapy, I research next steps in treatment. But I still dread waking up every day. My set of conditions and experiences seem like the perfect recipe for hell on earth. This OCD nightmare alone has lasted 15 years and I honestly can’t take it any more.

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

I feel for you bro I’m rooting for you I pray that whoever is going through what we go through gets the strength and courage to overcome this. The biggest challenge of our lives

sick&tired

Date posted: Yesterday

@Anonymous Appreciate it. Please keep fighting for your life and joy and health. You’re not alone! 🙏🏽 I saw you posted about meds. Personally I didn’t experience noticeable improvements (e.g. SSRI, SNRIs, antipsychotics, and the NAC supplement — I also took other types of meds like to calm me down, but that didn’t actually address the OCD). But I know it’s a real game changer for many! I also have autism so that could be a reason why it hasn’t worked so well, my OCD and autism overlap. Please talk to your provider about your reservations and options. If you rely on meds to help get your life back, there’s certainly no shame in that! 🩵 Personally if I could get my life back by taking one of these pills, I would. For now I’m onto TMS. I’ve done it for depression several years ago and now I’m waiting for insurance approval to do it for OCD.

anonymous23635

Date posted: 23h

I saw you commented you are trying TMS which is good. I’m not a doctor so I don’t know if this makes sense to try if TMS doesn’t work, but my psychiatrist found out that there are trials of DBS and focused ultrasound at UPenn and John’s Hopkins. The trial would mean you wouldn’t have to pay for it. Apparently Brigham and Women’s hospital in Boston also has focused ultrasound trials. I’m hoping I can get into a trial during winter break. Again, I’m not a doctor and don’t want to suggest the wrong thing, but I just wanted to make you aware that there are some trials of things, in case you were interested in trying a trial of something, cause I know for me too, money for treatment is an issue

sick&tired

Date posted: 17h

@anonymous23635 Hi yes we’ve spoken before! I’m glad to hear from you and I hope you’re doing well. 😇 Thank you for sharing — right now I have things to take care of and I’m currently in treatment at home, so that’s not feasible for me. But I’ll look into it! Please take care of yourself and I hope you get all the support that you need. ❤️‍🩹

anonymous23635

Date posted: 12h

@sick&tired Thanks!

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