Convinced I cheated on my boyfriend on NYE. Been crying and stressed all day and confessing to him. I know I wouldn’t ever want to do that, but I drank way to much on nye and can only remember parts of the night. I have always been faithful to my partner but this is a reoccurring ocd theme for me. I had a heart to heart with a friend who’s struggling with their mental health and I remember being like lay down let’s talk about it. We weren’t laying close to each other at all and we’re just chatting, there’s never been anything between us ever. But now I’m convinced I wanted him to lay down because I was being flirtatious or inappropriate. I’m convinced I wanted to kiss him or tried to or did, even though if that had happened surely I would know and would have been extremely upset? I remember other parts of the night and I remember talking to him. He would never do that to my partner anyway, and has not acted weird with me or anything but I just feel so awful. I’m scared it will come out in the future. New Years resolution is to drink way less. Does anyone else feel their medication makes them drunk quicker? Or they get serious anxiety due to memory loss. It’s so hard to know how much is too much cause one minute your fine and the next you don’t remember stuff :(

This is my life. It’s not so bad now because I don’t get like that without my bf present but with my ex, I cried to him and actually had him ask his friend if we did anything when I was drunk. I would put tampons in my vagina to know the next morning if I had sex drunk. It consumed me. I asked my friends if I did anything even if I remember the whole night. It’s a very horrible feeling. I’m sorry you’re experiencing this :( it will get better though!

I blacked out and my friends said I acted totally normal- people had no idea I was blacking out and my friends assured me I didn’t do anything weird. Trust yourself. ❤️

Thanks all you are wonderful. I will try

I feel the need to confess things to my boyfriend all the time. I have full on anxiety attacks because I feel like he will dump me. Try to stay strong and trust yourself.

Thanks for all your responses. Tbh I feel worse as the days have gone on. I text my friend to clarify that I was inappropriate and he said he didn’t think it was inappropriate and as long as we’re having important conversations it doesn’t matter the circumstances. But since then I’ve felt like I had a flash back of his back and I was touching the hair on it (ew) and when he pulled his shirt down to make a joke with all our friends the day after I had a flashback of his chest - but he did take his shirt off whilst dancing in front of everyone so could be from that? I can’t get it out of my head. I had sex with my partner that night when we went to bed and I don’t remember it at all and that’s convinced me I’d slept with my friend too and that’s why I’m having these ‘flashbacks’ and thoughts. I just keep breaking down crying.