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@Boooperbear Thank you sm, I just sat up on my bed for 2 hours with my light on because I was convinced I was going to see and hear more things. I usually come back on here when things get too distressing for personal irl interactions. So this helps a lot 😣

@Seek2Blanc ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა Hey I’m soooo sorry, I was asleep and didn’t see your response until now! Did your night go okay and were you able to get some sleep? Also, if you wanna talk about what’s been going on or vent at all, I’m here for you! I wouldn’t ever hold judgement or anything over your situation! I know we all struggle with our own themes and specific scenarios!

@Boooperbear I managed to get a bit of sleep but I'm still feeling some restlessness. Lately I've been really anxious and paranoid, this month has started off very rough so it's super scary as of now. Thank you very much, and I really do appreciate it!!

@Seek2Blanc ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა Of course! I’m here for you and I’m sorry things are so scary!

@Boooperbear I’ll keep my notifications on, you can message me if you’re having a difficult time tonight!

@Boooperbear Got some better sleep ngl, I still get tired throughout the day but I've been trying to calm my nerves and thoughts. I've just been trying to be more positive so far with myself too, so I really appreciate the support youve also given btw🤗

@Seek2Blanc ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა I’m happy things are going a bit better!! You have a great mind set over it!

@Boooperbear Thank you sm lovely (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) I try lol♡

@Seek2Blanc ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა If you end up needing someone to talk to when you’re having a rough day though, you can always reach out :)

@Boooperbear Same to you as well!☺️

@Seek2Blanc ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა My ocd has been really rough this last week. Especially with ERP therapy. I hate my ocd themes a lot and just hope I can get through this :/

@Boooperbear I noticed we have a lot of the same themes, I definitely feel you. This month has been a doozy so far, I've seen a lot of others say they have been more prone to intrusive thoughts and compulsions lately. I'm sure things will settle after a while, holiday times can also bring some mood changes. Remember it's just hard moments not a hard lifetime. There will be ups and downs just remember to look out for the positives, I hope you're doing well despite the current flare up!

@Seek2Blanc ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა Honestly today has been really bad. I had to go home from work and I’m fully convinced I’m a bad person :/ all my thoughts feel real and I can’t seem to tell the difference between what my morals are and what aren’t.

@Boooperbear I’ve been continuously self checking, evaluating myself, and researching. I can’t seem to feel okay.

@Boooperbear Did anything specific happen that may have caused those chain of thoughts? I understand how you feel but you also should ground yourself with what you do know about yourself as a person, like if you've never done one of those bad things and are sure there is no chance of it happening then it can be crossed out of your mind. I know it's not easy at all, sometimes writing stuff out or talking to your mind as if its someone else has always helped me. I always recite to myself that I am not my intrusive thoughts.

@Boooperbear I see, I think you should do some self care. It may help with pushing that away at least for a while, it's always best to find a different distraction entirely from whatever might trigger things or escalate them. Btw if you have discord or anything, if you'd like we can share. Just say the word, I really hope you can help ease those thoughts soon :(

@Seek2Blanc ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა Thank you for all the kind words and advice! I don’t have discord, it would definitely be nice to talk more though!

@Boooperbear Ofc, those are just some things I do try on my end which are sometimes good. It's a hard journey but doesn't mean it has to be a fight against it, sometimes you'll have to work around whatever is going on. It's unfortunately for the best rather than having it consume you like an enemy, I hope that makes sense. And it would be nice to speak more, wish they had an option on here with this app but I understand why they might not. If there's ever an alternative I would think about it. But don't hesitate to reach out if you need, I answer whenever I see notis or can reply!

@Seek2Blanc ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა I really appreciate you, you’ve been really kind to me today and it’s helped me calm myself down. Having someone who understands to talk to makes a huge difference. I wish there was a messenger we could use! I can tell you’re a very kind person! I hope you’re doing alright this evening as well!

@Boooperbear Thank you sm, I appreciate it. You're very sweet too. I'm really glad it's helped. I do know how it feels so I wouldn't ever judge anything, sometimes the best resource is another person that can relate and reanalyze. Don't let your mind review you, you control your mind first. ♡

@Seek2Blanc ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა Thank you so much, you’re really making me feel comforted this evening.

@Boooperbear Maybe I can make a discord?