- Username
- Mimi123
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I think when your that young, your mind is still learning and exploring. It’s like your body was expressing its self and your mind naturally has a train of thought. Thinking it and doing it is a huge difference. Sometimes I want to punch my boss in the face but I would never actually do that. And when the thought is discusseing or disturbing we beat our self up over it a lot more then the thought of punching your boss in the face. Because we know that, that particular thought was not normal and not right co pared to others that are “more acceptable” and unfortunately we focus on the bad thoughts more and never forget them :(
Thank you very much! I think you have a point! I mean I would never do anything with a dog! I was like 12 and aroused all the time! I think at that time everything came through my mind!!
@Mimi123 Exactly. When you are that age your body react to everything ha ha. It’s apart of puberty. The thing with OCD is we dwell on it and re think it over and over and over again. I could almost guarantee that similar things would’ve happened to people in your same class or school but they may have either let them self forget it or wouldn’t speak about it. Now the hard part is knowing that you will always be bothered with this thought and it might pop up every now and again but it doesn’t have to effect you anymore. It happened and it is shit but you didn’t do anything wrong. Accepting it is hard but there really is nothing else you can do with this memory. It’s in the past and you can just know that everyone in the world has horrible thoughts about various things at many points in there life. Our brains are so complex. You can take the smallest thing and turn it into the biggest thing even if someone looks at you the wrong way.
@Kate Joan I think you have a really positive way of looking into life! That's good for you! I think your right! I shouldn't feel bad for something I thought and did act on! Or never wanted to act on! We should not feel bad for being good!!
@Kate Joan There are real bad people out there I'm not one of them I believe!
@Mimi123 Exactly. You are totally not bad at all. Sometimes we just need to check in with ourselves and remind ourselves of that.
Indeed, small world I suppose. Hm.. probably ten different times in my life when that happened to me. Idk the first couple times were exrtemely disturbing, but over time I just kinda let myself think about dirty things so I can try to understand why others do It, and why I wouldn't.
That's good to hear! Do you have OCD??
@Mimi123 Don't know for sure yet, but I do have plenty of traits! Looking forward to being diagnosed for better treatment.
@blondehairyKrishna It's is to do a autodiagnoses! I already knew I was when they told me I was!
@Mimi123 Haha thats true! Well, in all honesty I do know I have it? I'm just tryna entertain my therapist.
@blondehairyKrishna Ahahah but Thats good! The fact that he doesn't assumes u have makes him as you about who you really are!!
@Mimi123 Indeed! And that is a big reason I'm still seeing them actually.
I think it's normal. We see bestiality in media sometimes, and people joke about it a lot, so it's kinda hard not to have that thought at some point. And we live with them and love them, so its natural to think of them like we think of other humans. Personally I'm more scared of a dog raping me than the other way though hahah
Its quite common, thats where furries came from
Ahahaha you made a really good point! I really do love animals I've been a vegetarian for 6 years now and I chose environmental engineering because I love animals! I remember that more or less at the time I saw a video of a boy with more or less my age rapping a chicken and that made me really shocked but of course I thought about it specially because I was comparing myself with those kind of people!
Awww what a great occupation!! that is so awesome that you took your passion all way! I have a tear in my eye for that? Now idk where it was from, but I also saw a movie where young boys raped a cat. Strange we have a parrallel hah
If you really want to you achieve it believe me! That's so strange isn't it? Did this ever happened to you?
My OCD has swapped around in the past- primarily focused on HOCD and then I just accepted maybe I was attracted to both men and women, (men primarily, women only sexually occasionally) after I had sex with a girl - I didn’t know at the time it was OCD - and now it has focused on beastiality. I’m terrified. I hate HATE to admit this but when I was younger I let a dog lick my private area, and ever since I can’t stop thinking maybe that was because I wanted it? Even though I know deep down it was just sexual curiosity - the actual act of intimacy and not the animal, but now I get scared. In the past few years I have seen images and checked my groinal response, sometimes I can get really aroused and I feel disgusting. I love animals, I would never want to hurt them in anyway, I don’t know whether I just have a fixation on the idea of having sex that is intense - sort of like a ‘I need you now’ thing - as comes with the term ‘doggy style’ but then this just makes me think maybe it’s all rooted down to animals? I’m so honestly terrified I feel like the government will arrest me based on searches of laws and me trying to figure out if I’m attracted to animals going on forums etc. I once read an erotic literature page and it had a beastiality section, I looked at it and was repulsed but again my groinal response was different. I feel so guilty, but I can’t tell if this is my OCD or if I am actually attracted to animals. I would NEVER have sex with one, the idea repulses me, but somehow I can get aroused by the stories (not particularly the images) and I’m so stressed and upset I don’t know what to do I’m too scared to tell my therapist incase they lock me up for it and it hinders my future jobs :(
I am 20. Around a month ago, I suddenly remembered something very bad I did when I was ten. At the time (when I was ten), I didn’t think twice about it, but ever since I remembered it, I can’t stop thinking and obsessing over it as I do not understand how I could have ever done something so bad. It really bothers me, and now I am contemplating wether or not I am a bad person. I have read many articles about this, scanned them, looked for people who have done similar things. According to them, I have past event ocd. I can understand that, but I consider what I did too bad for it to be that. Here’s what I remember of it: When I was 10, my sister was 7, and around that age we would often just walk around naked, wrestle, and etc just like kids. This is probably why I didn’t think twice about what I did. At that time, I would hump various things, not knowing what it meant. I can faintly recollect humping my sister. I do not understand why I did it, but it bothers me a lot and makes me wonder if I am a bad person. I realise it’s horrible, but I didn’t know what I was doing at the time.
i’m in DESPERATE need of help. i cant even handle this, i feel like the shittiest person in the world. I want you guys to be honest but also don’t think of me as the worst person ever. So, i’m so close to being 16 now. When i was younger i guess i was exposed to more sexual things at a young age. i was in like 5th-6th grade i’m pretty sure and seventh maybe but i highly doubt it and my middle school doesn’t start til 7th so i was basically just in elementary school. i hate saying this it literally disgusts me but i have to do it for my own sanity. so, at this age, i touched my neighbors dog and like did other things. it wasn’t like a thing that went on and happened every day, but it happened a few times. i basically just did sexual things with an animal and it’s so gross. i didn’t do like actual sex but it’s still gross. and i remember when i was SO young i like humped my other neighbors dog. i think it’s so horrible to look back into now and i promise i’m not a horrible person and i think that is horrible now, but i cant change the past. i don’t want this to bother me for my whole life and i literally swear i’m not a horrible person i was just young and didn’t know any better i guess. i think of Shane Dawson and how he got canceled for stuff like this but wasn’t he like literally an adult when it happened? i don’t know, i just want to cry so badly. i hate myself. any advice?
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