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I think when your that young, your mind is still learning and exploring. It’s like your body was expressing its self and your mind naturally has a train of thought. Thinking it and doing it is a huge difference. Sometimes I want to punch my boss in the face but I would never actually do that. And when the thought is discusseing or disturbing we beat our self up over it a lot more then the thought of punching your boss in the face. Because we know that, that particular thought was not normal and not right co pared to others that are “more acceptable” and unfortunately we focus on the bad thoughts more and never forget them :(
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Thank you very much! I think you have a point! I mean I would never do anything with a dog! I was like 12 and aroused all the time! I think at that time everything came through my mind!!
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@Mimi123 Exactly. When you are that age your body react to everything ha ha. It’s apart of puberty. The thing with OCD is we dwell on it and re think it over and over and over again. I could almost guarantee that similar things would’ve happened to people in your same class or school but they may have either let them self forget it or wouldn’t speak about it. Now the hard part is knowing that you will always be bothered with this thought and it might pop up every now and again but it doesn’t have to effect you anymore. It happened and it is shit but you didn’t do anything wrong. Accepting it is hard but there really is nothing else you can do with this memory. It’s in the past and you can just know that everyone in the world has horrible thoughts about various things at many points in there life. Our brains are so complex. You can take the smallest thing and turn it into the biggest thing even if someone looks at you the wrong way.
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@Kate Joan I think you have a really positive way of looking into life! That's good for you! I think your right! I shouldn't feel bad for something I thought and did act on! Or never wanted to act on! We should not feel bad for being good!!
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@Kate Joan There are real bad people out there I'm not one of them I believe!
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@Mimi123 Exactly. You are totally not bad at all. Sometimes we just need to check in with ourselves and remind ourselves of that.
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Indeed, small world I suppose. Hm.. probably ten different times in my life when that happened to me. Idk the first couple times were exrtemely disturbing, but over time I just kinda let myself think about dirty things so I can try to understand why others do It, and why I wouldn't.
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That's good to hear! Do you have OCD??
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@Mimi123 Don't know for sure yet, but I do have plenty of traits! Looking forward to being diagnosed for better treatment.
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@blondehairyKrishna It's is to do a autodiagnoses! I already knew I was when they told me I was!
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@Mimi123 Haha thats true! Well, in all honesty I do know I have it? I'm just tryna entertain my therapist.
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@blondehairyKrishna Ahahah but Thats good! The fact that he doesn't assumes u have makes him as you about who you really are!!
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@Mimi123 Indeed! And that is a big reason I'm still seeing them actually.
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I think it's normal. We see bestiality in media sometimes, and people joke about it a lot, so it's kinda hard not to have that thought at some point. And we live with them and love them, so its natural to think of them like we think of other humans. Personally I'm more scared of a dog raping me than the other way though hahah
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Its quite common, thats where furries came from
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Ahahaha you made a really good point! I really do love animals I've been a vegetarian for 6 years now and I chose environmental engineering because I love animals! I remember that more or less at the time I saw a video of a boy with more or less my age rapping a chicken and that made me really shocked but of course I thought about it specially because I was comparing myself with those kind of people!
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Awww what a great occupation!! that is so awesome that you took your passion all way! I have a tear in my eye for that? Now idk where it was from, but I also saw a movie where young boys raped a cat. Strange we have a parrallel hah
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If you really want to you achieve it believe me! That's so strange isn't it? Did this ever happened to you?
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I posted about this a couple days ago, about a dog chewing a ball while laying in my lap and it was giving me a physical sensation down there that technically felt good because it was right there. I keep replaying the moment in my head as a compulsion and trying to figure it out and I won’t stop until it feels right. I feel like I would know 100% if I indulged in it and let it feel good so I shouldn’t even be questioning if I did do that bc idk if I did. I remember looking down at the dog and realizing that everytime he bit the ball and moved his forward is when it would feel good for me. And while I was noticing that, I can’t help but think back, was that me just recognizing or allowing it to happen or both??? What does that say about me if I allowed myself to indulge in the feeling.
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