- Username
- PIL1985
- Date posted
- 4y ago
It's like a nightmare of a song stuck in your head
yes exactly, its like the brain torments to say all the things you do not want to say. Whats odd is my wife is biracial so I don't know if this is something from my past but I try to hum to prove the real word is in my head but then fear I have said it or am saying it and how others will react. I recorded myself too in my car and listening to it, its like "oh man...maybe I am saying this" but no reaction from others or response. I would never want to be racist to anyone.
Unfortunately OCD has taken that value overboard. Are you open to trying ERP?
I am. So to give more details, the song lyrics are not clear and sounds like it is saying "neekah flies" and so the word sounding similar I starting to try to repeat in a low tone with my mouth closed fearing I was saying something else and this compulsion was a fear that I was saying something bad at work and caused anxiety.
I had this and still have it only now it doesn’t bother me. And that’s because I didn’t let it stop me from living. I would do things like avoid certain people but that didn’t help so I stopped and that’s what you need to eventually do too. In your case it seems like you’re humming to make sure you thought it? So stop the humming and sit with the thought eventually it gets better when you stop doing the things that make you comfortable.
A hierarchy could include tasks from saying words that rhyme, to writing the feared words, listening to them, and actually saying them
my biggest obsession is about possibly being racist (i’m confident that i’m not racist). it was germ fear before, but that has subsided and now im obsessed with not being racist. can anyone relate? how do you deal with socially-driven obsessions? i have invasive thoughts whenever i’m around anyone who isnt a close friend.
OCD related to yelling something inappropriate in public? Lately I’ve been having intense OCD and subsequent anxiety that I’m going to say something extremely inappropriate to a stranger when I’m in public, either when I walk past them or drive past them. A lot of times it’s related to horribly intrusive thoughts that make me extremely uncomfortable and anxious. For example I’m afraid I’ll yell something racist, or homophobic, or shame someone based on their looks, or something misogynistic etc. I am none of these things, I’m actively against all of them. But I keep having these intrusive thoughts pop into my head and then I obsess that I will, or already have blurted them out to a stranger or group of strangers. Then I obsess about “well, if I would never say that, but if I had of I would definitely know, I wouldn’t just forget. but what if I did say it and what if I did actually just forget that I said it. Or what if I have Tourette’s syndrome but I just don’t know it and I actually have been blurting these things out?” Gosh it’s exhausting, 15 years of ocd and it seems like there’s no end in sight.
does anyone’s intrusive thoughts ever manifest and not being able to get rid of a certain word? Sometimes when I walk past a black person my brain just repeats the n word over and over and it’s really distressing because it’s the last thing I’d ever want to say
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