Suffering from fears of saying a racist word. My brain will keep repeating racist words and I check to make sure I am not saying the complete word like a break in the word and then I get compulsions fearing I did say it for example was humming a song and worried I said the lyrics aloud so i would repeat to prove I wasnt saying it and it makes me worry for example losing my job.

It's like a nightmare of a song stuck in your head

yes exactly, its like the brain torments to say all the things you do not want to say. Whats odd is my wife is biracial so I don't know if this is something from my past but I try to hum to prove the real word is in my head but then fear I have said it or am saying it and how others will react. I recorded myself too in my car and listening to it, its like "oh man...maybe I am saying this" but no reaction from others or response. I would never want to be racist to anyone.

I am. So to give more details, the song lyrics are not clear and sounds like it is saying "neekah flies" and so the word sounding similar I starting to try to repeat in a low tone with my mouth closed fearing I was saying something else and this compulsion was a fear that I was saying something bad at work and caused anxiety.

I had this and still have it only now it doesn’t bother me. And that’s because I didn’t let it stop me from living. I would do things like avoid certain people but that didn’t help so I stopped and that’s what you need to eventually do too. In your case it seems like you’re humming to make sure you thought it? So stop the humming and sit with the thought eventually it gets better when you stop doing the things that make you comfortable.

A hierarchy could include tasks from saying words that rhyme, to writing the feared words, listening to them, and actually saying them