- Username
- Chrissie Hodges
- Date posted
- 4y ago
For you were you ever convinced of your thoughts? Like believed them to be true or say something about you? This is something I'm really struggling with lately.
I’ve been experiencing the same :( it’s so awful!
Hey Lina! Yes in fact I struggle with this almost more than the actual obsession. It’s hard to believe it’s ‘just ocd’ when the thoughts and feelings feel so real. I rely on identifying my compulsions and focusing on reducing them instead of trying to use logic or emotions to outthink it. I’m always afraid it’ll turn out to not be ocd, but I take the risk and do my ERP anyway!
all I wanted to say is your videos are some of the first I watched when finding out I had ocd and you’re truly a hero to me :)
Thank you! I’m so glad they helped. I felt ALL alone the majority of my life with this illness so my continued motivation is to help others avoid that loneliness!
I’ve heard you tons on The OCD stories! You’re an OCD celebrity :)
Aww! There is nothing better than to be famous for talking about the groinal and sexual intrusive thoughts hahaha!!!
Hi! A couple questions: What helped you most through your recovery? What little things can we do that would aid recovery in our day to day lives? What are the best ways to support other nocd users?
Hi! Firstly, I lol’ed at your username! 1. What helped me the most other than getting ERP therapy was peer support. I spent a long time grieving and feeling angry and jealous of other people after my experience with OCD. I felt undeserving and unworthy and stigmatized. Peer support helped me feel less alone and put me on a path of self worth and self love. Now as a certified peer support specialist, I’m able to give to others what helped me so much. 2. One big little thing is to shift your mind from ‘I hope OCD doesn’t show up’ to It know OCD will show up and I’ll be ready!’ I know it’s daunting to think we have this for our whole life, but freedom is in adjusting expectations and radical acceptance. 3. Don’t give advice or reassurance. Sharing lives experience is the best way to help someone feel less alone and less stigmatized.
@NOCD Advocate - Chrissie Hodges haha yes, it's from the best scene in Her. And thanks, that's very helpful. :)
Chrissie, I've watched your YouTube videos! Thank you for coming on here. This is gonna be a greater community with your support.
Thank you so much! I’m so glad the videos were helpful for you!
Hi. I’m new to this group. I was diagnosed with OCD about four years ago. I first got my first OCD theme in eighth grade and my theme was the fear of being or becoming a lesbian. I didn’t know at the time that I had OCD. I strongly believed that at that moment I was just realizing that I could be or that I was a lesbian all along. It went pretty terrible and I struggled with it on and off for I want to say maybe 4 1/2 years. I just thought to myself I’ll just be by myself for the rest of my life so that I won’t have to be with a woman because not only was I afraid of being lesbian I also was afraid of how everyone would see me and if everyone saw me as a lesbian. My senior year was when I really had it bad. My ocd theme went from fear of being lesbian to fear I was a pedophile. So I went to therapy despite all of the fears of being sent away or put into a mental facility. Once I got there after my mom spoke to the therapist first, I was diagnosed with OCD. So now here I am, still having ocd on and off despite the fact that I know it’s ocd... my brain tries to trick me and convince me other wise, oh and more recently I’ve been dealing with HOCD, POCD, and ROCD (with my boyfriend). I just don’t know what to do anymore. I just want to be normal. I hate that I also will get upset at the constant back and forth and then tell myself “enough it enough. Just accept it! That’s what you are”
Also I’m worried I’ve been dealing with this for so long that I’ll be stuck forever. It started in 8th grade and I’m currently 22
You’ll definitely want to get exposure response prevention therapy if you haven’t already. This will teach you how to change your behavior toward the thoughts which will in time reduce the distress. As far as how long you’ve had OCD, I always ask my clients...do you think you could learn a new hobby? If you answered YES then you can learn how to manage a OCD because all it is is learning a new behavior!
I have the same kind of OCD, and I found this out about 3 years ago when it got really bad. I had the most disturbing thoughts that repeated over and over every day. I literally thought I was going insane. Since then, my OCD themes kept morphing into different things such as contamination, etc. Thankfully last year I found a therapist who has helped me a lot. I felt so alone at first until I realized there were others with the same condition. I think this app is a wonderful resource for support and I’m so glad I found it.
Hi! One question, do you sometimes doubt your memories? , how have you always known how something happens but then you start thinking and if I did this? What if I did that? And then you start believing all this, how do you deal with this?
Hi cami0102. This is one that I've dealt with regularly yes. I have POCD and even when my body scanning briefly calmed down for a few months, I would have flare ups where I would doubt past interactions with children. It's a little difficult to describe. Even though I remember clearly that I never did anythingf wrong, I have to go through all of the memories I have around certain children to assure myself I never did anything harmful.
@NickC I know, sometimes it's hard but I don't know how to stop it, then I believe I did something wrong but I say hey stop, you know who you are, you would never do something like that, but sometimes I don't know how to stop it, any advice?
I have experienced this before with ocd, yes. People often refer to it as the ‘false memory’ theme. ERP therapy is recommended for any theme of OCD. It helps you change your response to the thought which in turn will decrease the distress over time.
@NOCD Advocate - Chrissie Hodges Thank you so much for your help!!!
I first heard about this app from watching one of your YouTube videos. Thank you so much for all that you do :)
Yay! I’m so glad you found this community and my videos were helpful ❤️
Chrissie, i read your book and could relate to it , i have HOCD too. How can i overcome Hocd
Exposure response prevention therapy is the way to learn a different way to respond to the thoughts which will in turn reduce distress. In working with a trained therapist, you’ll slowly learn how to change your reaction after daily practice. It is a life changer!
Hi Chrissie, thanks for your videos, they really helped me a lot to know what’s going on. I’m struggling at the moment with rumination, and I wanted to know if you had any tips on how to do ERP to stop mentally checking and reviewing the past? Thanks :)
Hi there! Mentally reviewing and ruminating are tough compulsions to stop because they feel very automatic. What I try to do is when it feels constant, like if I’m triggered by something, I take note of what it is that is keeping me stuck and I’ll make sure to plan an erp session later in the day to address it. I don’t erp it in the moment because that could become compulsive. I set a time during the day later to revisit it and tell my brain, for x amount of time, go ahead and run wild with the thoughts! During that time I usually feel a decrease in the urgency. I’ll do this 2x per day for several days and the trigger will usually calm down.
@NOCD Advocate - Chrissie Hodges Thank you so much!
Thank you Chrissie for all you do. I am currently going through therapy through the NOCD program. I've been struggling for the past 15 years, not knowing that it was OCD. It got bad this past summer and my wife seen something was wrong and did the research that I was afraid to do. She found you on the OCD stories and sent them over to me and she read your book. This has been very difficult, but I want to thank you for everything you have done to bring awareness and now being a part of this peer support. Pocd has been so difficult. I have a therapy folder on my phone that has many of your Instagram posts, so I can remind myself to keep going. Thank you so very much.
Thank you HB! I so appreciate you letting me know this! You are definitely not alone with pocd even though it probably feels like it. A very high percentage of my clients live with pocd from all over the world. It’s probably the most common I see along with HOCD. Keep up the fight!
@NOCD Advocate - Chrissie Hodges Thank you also for your Instagram post today about Pocd. It needed to be said. It brought me to tears. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
@HB Your post on here inspired me to write it. ❤️ Some of the messages I have received about it have brought me to tears too. Such a unfair theme. Awareness is so so so important.
Hi Chrissie, I am from the UK and have OCD. Your an inspiration. Thanks
Thank you so much! I was in London last October for an ocd event my nonprofit put on. We’ll be there again this year in October, hope you will join us!
I read your book last year. It was very good and an honest look at ocd with all of its twists and turns.
Hi my name is peter and I’m 19 years old. I have so many bad thoughts and horrible thoughts..they are not in a theme or a specific type, any horrible thought in the world came to My mind I don’t really know what is this And I’m not obsessed about them..a lot of them is not repetitive and They sre nit in mu mind all the time..but everyday a new horrible thought came to my head ..and jn a lot of times they don’t bother me or make me feel bad” they are the most horrible “ It doesn’t sound like ocd But do you know what is this and how could i deal with it I feel like i have a bad nature so my mind is automatically generating all these bad thoughts They are mot in any type they are soooo random about anything Please help me.. Thank you.
Hi there! Unfortunately I’m not in a position to diagnose or give clinical opinions. I would highly recommend reaching out to an ocd specialist. Whether it is or isn’t ocd, they are trained in treating anxiety and can either find ways to help or refer you to someone who can.
One more question, sorry. I was doing well with not performing compulsions but it felt so real so I checked my attraction to a girl and it felt so real :( Like i liked and wanted it. Now I'm so discouraged and don't know what to do. Any tips?
My tip would be to not beat yourself up about doing acompulsion and then try to resist doing them again. It’s always going to feel more natural to engage in them. But the cumulative effect of not giving in is worth being temporarily uncomfortable!
I love all your videos Chrissie. Even though i sometimes use them for reassurance ?. But they helped me a lot to know about ocd and i can really thank you for that :).
Thank you! I’m so glad they are helpful. I’ve had a couple clients who have had their therapist write in their ERP plan that they can’t watch my videos for reassurance hahaha!
Hi Chrissie, Thanks so much for this post! I am currently going through HOCD, ROCD and sometimes Harm OCD. I have learned about ERP & ACT. I don’t have access to OCD therapist & I tried to arrange a call through NOCD but it said therapy wasn’t available. I would like to start doing ERP on my own. I am done fighting. Can you give me tips on how to do ERP& how to continue it please?
Hi Jennnn! I don’t encourage ERP in ones own, so I really can’t give you advice or tips. My company does referral consultations to help locate therapists in your area or those that do Telehealth. Our consultations for referrals are $50 and include peer support. We’d be happy to help you if thats an option for you! www.chrissiehodges.com
@NOCD Advocate - Chrissie Hodges As far as I know, the OCD specialist in my area do not take insurance. I am a college student so I cannot afford to pay more than $50-60 ish per session :( I am so sad there are no NOCD therapist around my area. Do you have any advice on how I can improve my condition on my own until I can get access to a therapist? Any tips on what I can do as thoughts come? Please let me know! Also, through your peer support, can I get help like... work with someone to help me?
@Jennnn Hey there! I have someone in my practice who did successful ERP for sexual/violent intrusive thoughts and now is a certified peer support. Her rate is $50. We can absolutely support you where you are at and share as many resources as we can to help. Email me at ocd.chrissie@gmail.com if you think we can help!
I’ve watched a lot of your videos on YouTube, they help me a lot! Thank you so much for being peer support for people who are struggling. My question is how do I open up about it and get help? I’m afraid that if I do get a specialist, I’ll be too scared to actually tell them my thoughts. I don’t want them to think I’m crazy. Like, what if my thoughts are real and everyone else’s here aren’t? I struggle with this a lot and I’m too scared to tell anyone. Thank you for being here for all of us, it really means so much.
It’s so very common to have secondary fears that you don’t have ocd and the thoughts are real. A good OCD specialist will know this and be ready to help with it. A good way to approach it if you are afraid to tell is to ask the therapist for examples of sexual/violent intrusive thoughts they’ve treated. That way you may feel more comfortable if you know they get it and have seen it before.
@NOCD Advocate - Chrissie Hodges I will definitely do that when I get in with a therapist, hopefully that’ll be soon. Thank you so much
I am never happy with myself anymore. This is taking over my life. I don’t feel worthwhile anymore. I just want this to go away. I don’t want to fear germs and contamination
I’m so sorry you are struggling. I completely understand how exhausting it can be. I lived with OCD for 12 years in silence having no clue what it was, so I know first hand. ERP therapy can really help teach you how to manage it.
@NOCD Advocate - Chrissie Hodges I am hopefully starting it this Friday. I also am supposed to start on 15o mg of sertraline. When I went up to 100mg I noticed a huge spike in my anxiety/symptoms. Dr thinks a higher dose will help. I am not sure though and my husband is at the end of wits with me. He says it is all I talk about or do anymore. He is right. It is. Sigh. I just want to be myself again
@Sara80985 So awesome! The therapy is challenging but with it. Also whenever I go on medication I often feel a spike in anxiety for a few weeks before it starts feeling better. Just keep your doc informed!
Can we talk?
Hi there! I do peer support sessions with individuals, so that is something we can set up. There are 2 of us in my practice. www.chrissiehodges.com
Is it really 50 a session with an ocd therapist?
Through nOCD they offer therapy in certain states. My practice offers peer support for $50 per session.
@NOCD Advocate - Chrissie Hodges Thank you Chrissie!
@KM128 Hi yes through NOCD it’s 50 dollars a session with a therapist.
Hello ! I want to know how you differentiate your normal worry from ocd thoughts ? Like I recently experienced worry that my fiancé was going to cancel our wedding and he did in fact call off the wedding ! Now I’m stressed that my ocd thoughts will come true as well . Is there anyway you could give me some pointers for this type of situation
Hi there! It’s important to remember that when managing ocd, we aren’t managing the outcome. We are only managing our behavioral response. As much as we want to know and predict everything, that’s impossible for any human! So doing ERP is directly impacting the only thing we can control—our behavior. For example, I’ve gotten injured many times these last few years and ocd latched on hard. But just because I recognized the anxiety as ocd didn’t take the pain away. The injury was still there...but I could control my behavior in trying to predict or control the outcome.
@NOCD Advocate - Chrissie Hodges Thanks this makes sense ! I have been working with an ocd therapist here in Houston! Even though I feel Really knowledgeably about ocd it still can play tricks on me . I am learning acceptance which is the factor I’ve been missing in overcoming this beast
Hey I’ve been battling with Health OcD which is Hiv related and HOcD and I know it’s not real but my old rituals get the best of me sometimes I’m doing better with Hocd but sometimes I’d look at guys In a weird way and even on their private parts but not feel anything it’s almost automatic now. How do you stop looking at guys like this or stop these automatic rituals on your own because erp therapy is not accessible where I am
Hey Chrissie. All the best to you and your advocacy
Chrissie, can you help me a little. I have HOCD and I'm currently 14. I never thought about girls sexually or romantically but my HOCD says otherwise and it's really distressing
Hello miss! Is it possible that we can talk?
Hey nocd community! Nocd is featuring my advocacy work in their newsletter today, thank you nocd!❤️ So today I’m available to answer any questions you may have about Pure O or being a Peer Support Specialist. I can’t answer any clinical or diagnostic questions, but I’m happy to answer any questions about lived experience!
Hey nOCD Fam! Opening up a Q+A session all day today if you have any questions on OCD Recovery and what life is like in recovery with OCD still there but maintained, if you are a skeptic if it because you are suffering so much, how ERP worked for me, anything. Love chatting with you guys, thanks for letting me lend a hand!
Hi! My name is Mikhail. I have been diagnosed with OCD for a couple years now, and this year I started ERP therapy at NOCD. I first found out about Pure O from downloading NOCD's app and seeing other people post about their experiences with overthinking, fear, and shame. While I had been diagnosed with OCD before, I had never heard about Pure O, where the compulsions manifest themselves more internally. I was at a point in my life where I was isolating myself and afraid of the thoughts I was having all day every day. This eroded away my self-esteem and identity but the skills I learned doing ERP have helped me feel like myself again. I recommend doing ERP to anyone afflicted with OCD, as it has helped me train the mental muscles I needed to get back to my life again. NOCD specialists meet you where you are at and help you get better on your own terms. I have taken the opportunity to be an advocate because once I found out I wasn't alone with Pure OCD, it reignited the faith I had in ever recovering. Learning about other people's experiences and sharing my own has helped me live more authentically. I want to do anything I can to encourage others to recover as well, because I know it is possible and that this condition is manageable. Going through NOCD treatment invoked genuine compassion in me not just for others, but for myself, which is something I never truly felt before. If you have any questions at all, please reach out to me. I feel purpose in connecting with people about OCD and getting better together. Believe me, you are not the only one who has thought that crazy thing and then thought about thinking about it 17 more times until it impacted your behavior!
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