- Username
- Chrisa
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I understand that this is difficult. We struggle everyday. It can overcome your joy, relationships, daily life, and you as a person. It feels like a constant battle. It my help relieve some anexity if you speak to your husband and let him know what your going through. I did the same thing with my husband. We dated for a few yeas and then got married. I was worried he would pass judgement or think i was being "silly". But i felt at the same time i needed to overcome this fear with one step and just talk to him. When i finally did i felt so much better. I didnt have to hide it or when i have a difficult day hes there to comfort me. Take it one step at a time and i hope you find some peace. We are here listening.
I’ve had ocd for almost 30 years too and mine also got bad again. Ocd is more widely known than it was 30 years ago so I wouldn’t worrr so much about the stigma. Maybe you can say to your husband you realized you have it so you don’t feel so alone? Not sure what RBt is...Did you try ERP? I tried just general cbt but it’s rather different and didn’t help me whereas ERP has a high success rate. I start erp this week. Also, there’s new treatments for ultra resistant ocd — TMS and ketamine...if you’re on this app seems like a good first step and you’re ready for some outside help so you can lead a better life.
RBT is basically the same as CBT. I tried telling my husband once but his reaction made me stop the conversation. His sister knows. I've tried Prozac, Zoloft, Effexor, Wellbutrin, and a few more I can't recall at the moment. I've tried the ERP some but in my mind I think "What if my OCD is right, and if I don't do this ritual my cat will die"? That's just an example. OCD affects literally almost every single thing I do. Bathing, cleaning, walking, laundry, reading, typing, tying my shoes, every single activity brings a compulsion and a ritual. At times it's exhausting.
No, it's exhausting always.
If I were you, since you seem resistant to therapy or meds, i would try a new ocd therapist and TMS or ketamine. A new therapist will help you see the absurdity of ocd thoughts even when they seem “real”. I haven’t done a lot of OCD reading but Maybe there’s a book you can have your husband read that better explains it. I know I’ve told my boyfriend I’m ocd and he’s just like oh ok (as it’s pretty popular condition in NY) but has never asked me more and I’ve never bothered to explain the details. But that’s also why I’m starting ERP so I hopefully don’t have to explain the severity bc I’ll improve... but I also wouldn’t be able to hide it from my boyfriend if we were to move in together or get married bc I have too many rituals. I think the hiding of it would cause me a lot of distress and make my ocd worse...
Hiding it isn’t too difficult for me because he works a lot and my rituals aren’t extremely obvious, you’d have to really pay attention. Of course I think I just don’t get caught performing the rituals too. I was shamed as a child and teen by family because of my OCD. It’s something I’ve kept from everyone as a result. Just typing these words is cathartic, I don’t have to hold it in anymore. Hope that makes sense
I've had OCD for 30+ years now. Started when I was 13. I live each day doing rituals in my head, pretty much 24/7, so that I can live a "good" life and that my family won't be harmed. I primarily suffer from Magical thinking. Like if I don't do my rituals or I screw them up harm might be done to things I love. It sucks. It's debilitating.
Hi everyone. I have PANS OCD and had it early as a child around 5. It was debilitating I went though counting, contamination OCD even thinking family members were contaminated, hand washing till my hands were raw and more I had a good childhood but it was heavily OCD based which stinks. I am now 25 and have had manageable OCD throughout the last 10 ish years. Up till late last year I got it back again worse than ever.. I am now worried about asbestos and mold and lead and household things we moved into an older home and it’s been awful. I also worry constantly 24/7 about death… also We don’t have any of those materials In our home but my OCD won’t leave me alone. I went into treatment didn’t sleep the 4 days I was there and checked myself out, I instantly regretted it and tried going back but they wouldn’t let me back right away unfortunately. I am seeing my therapist once a week and trying to live life as an adult with OCD it never fully went away but it was so manageable and now I need to learn to live with crippling OCD all over again if anyone has any advice or relates to this please comment so we can talk. Thanks Lydia
I’m 28 years old and I’ve been battling with OCD since I was around 8 years old. However, I didn’t realize it was OCD until a few years ago. I’ve dealt with multiple themes of OCD that are on constant rotation. Currently, I’m struggling with real event OCD, and moral scrupulously OCD. It has made this past week extremely distressing. My husband is aware of all of my thoughts and feelings, however, that’s due to my need to “confess” virtually everything in my life. He is never stressed about the content of what I’m worrying about, but unfortunately, that serves as temporary reassurance for me, and the cycle continues. This week has been one of my HARDEST. I have been stuck in a loop over the same obsession, with barely any relief. I’m self employed, and usually the winter months are slow, so I currently have no distractions to get out of my head. I can barely eat, and I go through multiple waves of panic attacks a day. I’m starting to lose hope that I can figure this out alone. I’ve never seen professional help for my OCD, and to be honest, it terrifies me to have to explain my thoughts and feelings to a stranger. What if I never get better? I guess I’m just looking for guidance, advice, etc. I’m feeling so lost and scared.
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