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- 5y
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- 5y
I understand that this is difficult. We struggle everyday. It can overcome your joy, relationships, daily life, and you as a person. It feels like a constant battle. It my help relieve some anexity if you speak to your husband and let him know what your going through. I did the same thing with my husband. We dated for a few yeas and then got married. I was worried he would pass judgement or think i was being "silly". But i felt at the same time i needed to overcome this fear with one step and just talk to him. When i finally did i felt so much better. I didnt have to hide it or when i have a difficult day hes there to comfort me. Take it one step at a time and i hope you find some peace. We are here listening.
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- 5y
I’ve had ocd for almost 30 years too and mine also got bad again. Ocd is more widely known than it was 30 years ago so I wouldn’t worrr so much about the stigma. Maybe you can say to your husband you realized you have it so you don’t feel so alone? Not sure what RBt is...Did you try ERP? I tried just general cbt but it’s rather different and didn’t help me whereas ERP has a high success rate. I start erp this week. Also, there’s new treatments for ultra resistant ocd — TMS and ketamine...if you’re on this app seems like a good first step and you’re ready for some outside help so you can lead a better life.
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RBT is basically the same as CBT. I tried telling my husband once but his reaction made me stop the conversation. His sister knows. I've tried Prozac, Zoloft, Effexor, Wellbutrin, and a few more I can't recall at the moment. I've tried the ERP some but in my mind I think "What if my OCD is right, and if I don't do this ritual my cat will die"? That's just an example. OCD affects literally almost every single thing I do. Bathing, cleaning, walking, laundry, reading, typing, tying my shoes, every single activity brings a compulsion and a ritual. At times it's exhausting.
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No, it's exhausting always.
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If I were you, since you seem resistant to therapy or meds, i would try a new ocd therapist and TMS or ketamine. A new therapist will help you see the absurdity of ocd thoughts even when they seem “real”. I haven’t done a lot of OCD reading but Maybe there’s a book you can have your husband read that better explains it. I know I’ve told my boyfriend I’m ocd and he’s just like oh ok (as it’s pretty popular condition in NY) but has never asked me more and I’ve never bothered to explain the details. But that’s also why I’m starting ERP so I hopefully don’t have to explain the severity bc I’ll improve... but I also wouldn’t be able to hide it from my boyfriend if we were to move in together or get married bc I have too many rituals. I think the hiding of it would cause me a lot of distress and make my ocd worse...
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Hiding it isn’t too difficult for me because he works a lot and my rituals aren’t extremely obvious, you’d have to really pay attention. Of course I think I just don’t get caught performing the rituals too. I was shamed as a child and teen by family because of my OCD. It’s something I’ve kept from everyone as a result. Just typing these words is cathartic, I don’t have to hold it in anymore. Hope that makes sense
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- 22w
back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.
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- 19w
Hello, I unknowingly have lived with ROCD or OCD (not sure what one. I’m new to this). It has ruined so many amazing romantic and platonic relationships and I am so sad that just now I am finding out what the hell is wrong with me. Maybe life would be different if I have known. My OCD and anxiety is at an all time high (ATH) due to some horrible events that have happened in the recent months. I am at the point where paranoia has taken over my life now. I had my first panic attack a few weeks ago where I fainted. My anxiety attacks are so extreme I go thought cognitive distortion that has lasted days. My girlfriend of 3 years is my emotional guardian and she no long has the energy to be that and honestly it’s not her responsibility to be that. She is bi and wanted to have an open relationship and for someone who has OCD this has not been good for me. She also was assaulted in my own home by a good friend of ours when I was out of town but it’s not a clear situation because it sounded consensual at first. I just left my very high paying job. I am financially secure but the job was emotionally abusive and looking back made my OCD worse. I am taking some time off to get my head right…but now, all I have to do during the day is live in my OCD. I’m very happy I finally figured out why I act the way I do but I don’t know if I can get better quick enough to save my relationship. I have never been so worried about myself (M 28 years old). I am a confident young professional and never thought I would be writing on a page like this. Anyway…I hope it gets better.
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- 16w
Hello, my name is Brittany, and I have been living with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) for as long as I can remember. However, since experiencing a stroke that I believe was a result of chiropractic care, my struggles have intensified and become overwhelmingly exhausting. I have always been acutely aware of my body and its signals, which has led to a heightened sense of worry about potential health complications. Though I’ve always had a tendency to worry, the anxiety that has surged since my stroke feels insurmountable. I’m reaching out in hopes of connecting with others who understand this journey, sharing stories and experiences in the hope that, one day, I might find a way to overcome these challenges or at least discover some relief from the relentless grip of anxiety.
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