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I’m on a Christian forum and I kinda posted the same thing you’re saying and I think the best response I got was that God’s forgiveness and our salvation doesn’t depend on whether or not we “feel” saved. God is bigger than our feelings and so is His love. If you have confessed that Jesus is Lord and that He died and rose again for your sins, you ARE saved. Jesus died so that we could confess that we are sinners and be freed from our sin. When you are saved, you’re saved. Period. I used to pray all the time for forgiveness from God for things that happened in the past, I get it. But know that He has forgiven you even if you don’t feel a certain way about it. You don’t need to repetitively pray for forgiveness because He already forgave you :) God doesn’t withhold salvation from anyone. When Jesus died for our sins, he didn’t just die for the little white lies and mean thoughts. He also died for murderers and rapists. He died for every bad thing you can think of because He loves us more than any bad thing we could possibly do. I know how you feel, I really do. Sometimes I completely avoid prayer and the Bible because I confuse intrusive thoughts for condemnation. But God understands exactly where you’re coming from and He’ll meet you right there.
I think you hit the nail on the head with this. We don’t have to rely on feelings. They’re fleeting and everchanging.
@tollett Yes, we especially can’t trust our feelings with OCD. It’s rough.
The Bible has the purpose to save people who do not know about God, it has examples through historical figures. I can say the Bible is not meant to judge ourselves but to learn from it and work a relationship with God. You have to acknowledge that God loves, he is love and values more that you genuinely seek him. Everyone sins everyday, but what is amazing is that he is merciful and God renews them every morning. Lamentations 3: 22-23 It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.
I have very, very similar experiences with this one. The best advice I’ve heard is to rely on God’s mercy rather than on condemnation. I find that most people who have this fear are usually going to be more cautious and flee from wrongdoing more often, or at least be more conflicted when it happens. Realize that God is wayyyyy bigger than your OCD-and that He sees everything that happens in our heads-and having created you is the Ultimate Counselor and understands the most-and wants to forgive us when we are truly sorry.
I deal with a similar experience. I don't have any therapeutic advice but I can say I listen to worship music about how much he loves us and it kind of helps the thoughts subside.
God may forgive your sins but your nervous system won’t! :P
I am in the same as you, some parts of the bible and even preachers kind of "triggers" me. I also feel like that, like I am not confessing right or God os tired of forgiving me for my sins. We até together in this :(
Sweetness, I deal with some similar sadness. I am so sorry to hear you are struggling in your faith walk. ? But it’s all about Jesus! Jesus came to save, not to condemn. We are weak but He is strong. Check out Philippians 4:13 & John 3:16!! & any time you feel defeated, check out Isaiah 41:10 too!! Sending you all the love, respect, & understanding that my heart can hold. Always here if you need some help. ❤️
Has anyone talked with you about religious scrupulosity symptoms?
Hey Katie, can you explain scrupulousity to me please? I have OCD but have not been officially diagnosed with scrupulousity.
@NOCD Advocate - Katie https://beyondocd.org/information-for-individuals/symptoms/religious-and-moral-fears another article
I made a huge mistake in the past. Going into it I didn't know at the time how bad the mistake was until a long time later. I so badly wish I could go back and fix it and change it. I hate myself and I feel like I deserve to die. I talked to my parents about it and they told me that I need to just let it go and stop beating myself up and that I've punished myself enough but I can't seem to shake it off and move on. I'm a Christian so I do believe Jesus died on the cross for our sins but why do I feel so bad. I feel so guilty. I would NEVER make the same mistake again knowing what I know now. Do I deserve a second chance? Is it possible that OCD can make it worse than it actually is? I need help 😭
Can someone please respond to this.. Has anyone ever acted on a thought? I have and I believe it to be a horrible sin, as it is mentioned as one. How do I forgive myself? It is a really weird thing because when it happened I was in such a dark place. I honest to God should have been locked up. I had been self harming and attempted suicide around this time too. I had expressed to my mother how mentally unwell I was and she didn’t take it seriously at all. I don’t want to blame her but I know for a fact if I was taken seriously it wouldn’t have happened. My mind was screaming at me to do things all day long in a way I can’t even explain. My ocd is still with me every day but 9-10 years ago when this was happening it was BAD. I Didn’t have thoughts of my own. Only ocd. Id take sleeping pills to keep myself asleep and id have dreams of doing bad things. So I convinced myself I needed to see if I enjoyed it so I did it to see. Turns out nope. Didn’t like it it was just ocd. And that sin has cost me my mental sanity and love for myself. If anyone has gone through this how did you forgive yourself? Do you think god will forgive you? I know I’m not supposed to ask these things but despite what it says I actually get peace from reassurance. And I know I’m not the only one.
Sorry this is long I don’t know where to begin but, at the beginning of the year I went through something that was hard. And I was so mad at God bc I was so hurt and I felt like I was in so much pain and I was so alone. And I remember I had some bad thoughts. I don’t remember these thoughts exactly but lietrally months later I was sitting down all normal and dealing with other forms of OCD that were so painful, but less painful than this. Anyways so then since then I have been stressing that I might have acted of these thoughts. I don’t have a memory but my brain keeps telling me I did that. Anyways I have been having intrusive thoughts since and it hurts so much. It hurts so bad and I can’t do this anymore. I don’t wanna do this anymore. I keep having these thoughts and it makes me stress so much and want to throw up. It makes me hurt myself. I have bruises all over my body and I’m just so done with this. And sometimes my brain will bring these memories of these intrusive thoughts into my mind or say my trigger thoughts and it makes me hurt so much. And then I start to go over these thoughts bc I feel so bad and I don’t want to have them. Sometimes when I am stressing about theee things they pass by and it makes me panic so bad. I was lietrally just eating and I was punching my hand so hard while thinking about all the thoughts I have had and the things my OCD had made me believe I did, and while I was doing that a thought came to my mind about what my OCD keeps telling me I did and I panicked so hard. I had to eat so fast just so I can lock myself up in my room. I didnt want to have the thought. I think I was just lost in listening to my OCD and then I started talking to myself about what I think I did and when I had the thought I was punching my self so hard that I didn’t even have time to shake it off straight away. I have this conclusion where whenever I have a bad thought I write it down bc my brain tells me that I’m a bad person and I should forget about these thoughts so I grabbed my phone as soon as the panic set in. Sometimes I question whether I had those thoughts intentionally or if i forget them and then I remember the wrong thing and it makes me feel even worse. My brain tells me that if I don’t panic staright away and hurt myself then it means that I mean the thought. I’m in so much pain. I’m really don’t want to think about it but it happens and it feel so real and that it comes from me and that I did something bad. I know this makes no sense but I don’t want to be like this. I go to bed most nights hoping I never wake up. I really don’t mean theee thoughts, sometimes they come when u I’m justify thinking about all the bad things my OCD has made me believe I did and then I panic over remberinf these things. What if im thinking this on purpose? What if the thought I had is so much worse? What if God will never forgive me? I don’t want to live anymore I hate my life and im never going to get out of this. I was just trying to have a normal dinner but my mind never stops. Whether it’s me imaegnitn things or thinking about my thoughts and going over them, I feel so guilty. I can’t even get any help bc I can’t afford it. No one knows I go through this. Ok all alone. Im all alone .
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