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Yeah I think an OCD specialist is the way to go. He does speak a lot of stuff that’s making it harder to recover because you already feel broken inside. It’s so nice to see I’m not alone in this.
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Lol, I remember one of my counselors I went to talking about my inner child and saying POCD was my past self crying out because did my parents arguing haha. Definitely get yourself to that OCD specialist ASAP! Unfortunately other therapists don’t know what they’re doing with OCD, they mean well but they’re trained in the wrong area for what’s effective for ya. Please don’t give up hope! I just started ERP for POCD and I’m feeling better already. A few weeks ago I couldn’t go 5 minutes without ruminating and really believed my thoughts were evidence of some deep dark identity. I’m still in the early stages, but shrugging off the obsessions is becoming easier even as they flip flop around and change into different specifics on the same topic! I’m thinking of you so much going through this, OCD specialists will do you a world of good, and there SO much hope! ❤️
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Thank you so much its hard sometimes to find hope when you’re going through this. Mine says it’s because I’m trying to feel good because when I was a child I experimented like all kids do and he says because during this time I was in pain so I went to that to feel good. So now when I’m depressed I go to the thoughts of children to feel good. Wow typing this is making me feel like a monster and I know this isn’t the truth.
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Please see an OCD specialist.
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Thank you I’m definitely done with blaming myself or my inner child for this!
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Yes it’s knowing that I have to live with uncertainty that’s scaring me but I guess that’s part of the treatment is learning to live with it.
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Glad you are seeing an OCD specialist. Your current therapist sounds like a Freudian psychoanalyst.
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Good for you! This is treatable with ERP.
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It really is like looking at a new way of thinking about the POCD its stopping blaming yourself as an individual person and seeing this as OCD and treating it that way because for so long I was also told by my psychiatrist that I had a chemical imbalance and needed medication for the rest of my life and trust me the medication worked wonders for a bit now my POCD is back full force and I’m still on the medication but my thinking is the same, blaming,checking,self hatered.
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Yep, medication is a nice compliment to ERP but not a replacement. Without treatment, it's a band-aid that will eventually fall off and expose your wound if not healed. You may or may not need medication for the rest of your life. That's a bit of uncertainty that you will learn to accept and not paralyze you.
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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