(Were my ocd started) This is my story of how my ocd started Gets super deep and makes me extremely upset to talk or think about but some of you my relate or could give me tips on how to get out of this. So going way back to me being around 4-5 years old my mom and dad split I had a baby sister on the way and this is also around the time I started getting sexually assault by two family members this went on for years and when I was around 7 I got assaulted by another family member the other to were there to Watching and forcing me to do stuff my family was just down stairs I wanted to scream I wanted to run and hide but there was no escaping it they would threaten and scare me so I didn’t tell when I was around 8 an a half or so the other to had stoped and it was only one of my family members assaulting me I felt so alone the assault went on for years until I was around 11 and he moved out I tryed to forget about it my ocd behaviours started happening around the age of 8 but it was just me always needed reassurance and counting my mom would just tell me I worried to much I started developing more ocd habits as I time went on I would have to call my mom over and over to make sure she was ok I would do things is fours cause it was my lucky number and if I didn’t bad things would happen and so on, after the abuse stopped my life didn’t get better I still felt so much stress and sadness around 12 I had surgery I wasn’t expecting it so it made me realize bad things can really happen and I can’t control it so my ocd was getting worse and worse everything had to be just right if something bad happened to me What ever clothes I was wearing when it happened I couldn’t wear it again counting just being scared to live , as the years when on it got more severe around the age of 14 I stopped eating anything from home I was scared something was in it or someone put something in it I would eat one meal a day and it was usually pan cakes from McDonald’s cause I thought those were safe I lost a lot of weight and got sick my mom was scared for me and would force me to eat I was scared to leave the house to wear certain clothes I had to say “good night I love you see you in the morning” to my mom every night over and over again until it felt right and I would knock on the floor until it felt right I developed serve ocd about leaving the house meeting knew people eating going outside windows anything that I felt I could get harmed I wouldn’t do I would wash my hands until they would bleed. At 15 I moved out of my moms house and into my girl friends because my abuser had moved back in and I was so scared to live with him I couldn’t handle it any more I told my mom moved out and started going to therapy. Sorry if this is all over gone place I’m kinda a mess right now there will be a part two later !