If someone could respond to this then that would be great I think I have HOCD, this started about a year ago after I left college and just after college I become lonely and depressed however I was talking to girl online who I got really close to and really liked her and then she later became not interested and this has happened with a lot girls which I feel has has an affect on me and this made more lonely, depressed. My brother is the same and always get depressed because we are both socially awkward and want girls badly, make jokes like might be gay because girl don’t like us you know banta and one night it sunk in and I thought what if I am and from then until now all I do is get anxiety everyday on google with fail, looking for answers on the same form is same video, talking to therapist which they say ocd, paying money out looking for help, getting civics there true and I want it and really do not, still like girl but in public I see a guy I walks ask am I attracted to him and have anxiety, can’t watch certain programm on tv, gronal response if they are and dreams that I wake up and feel like I’m have a panic attack even at work where I should be working I’m on google sneakily. I’m talking to a girl and really like her and fancy her but then I get things like do I fancy her, am I lying but I dot feel Like I am pls help