Suicidal. Please help. Was just making progress and then my mind was like, what if you can send people your intrusive thoughts by having one and thinking about them at the same time. So now I have an intrusive thought and my mind is like “you just sent that to X person” saying your a predator or murderer and now they know! What the fuck. Also I can almost “feel” the thoughts leaving my head area and travelling to that person and i am tapping my head to stop it, checking with people to see if their mad, or not my friend anymore and screaming over the thoughts in my head so none of them “get sent”! Is this OCD? I can’t find anybody who has the same experience is this magical thinking mixed with harm I don’t know anymore I’m spiritual too so it feels like that’s playing into this! Just wanna die

Okay please calm down and try to contact suicide hotline. You seem very on edge and I’m concerned. If you don’t want to talk to them on the phone, you can text them too. There’s also ocd hotlines that can help with suicidal thoughts as well. Just prioritize your safety before you try to figure out if this is ocd or not.

Just saw your post. Its been a few hours since you posted this, so I wanted to check in and see how you are doing now.

Hang in there! I agree with Meabh. You need some space before you try think about this. You’re in fight-or-flight mode. Something that helps me is to tell myself, “You don’t have to solve this tonight. You can think about this more tomorrow at 8:00pm.” And usually, by the time the “worrying appointment” comes up, I’ve calmed down and realized it wasn’t actually a real problem, just my anxiety at the moment sticking to a thought. Hope that helps!

If you feel you are a danger to yourself please go to your local hospital or ER... I know what you are going through and I’m here to tell you that it gets better. The problems that I thought would end everything for me are far gone and don’t even matter anymore. Just breathe and think about all the people who love and care about you... just remember that it’s the ocd talking, it’s not who you are. Ocd is special for everyone and we all deal with it in different ways. You are not alone, and please if you feel like you are suicidal get help! We want you to be safe.