How can I cope with real event ocd, with some terrible mistakes Ive made in my past? I also am paranoid and delusional pretty much about everything. I am obsessing lke a paranoid. I just want it to stop.

i feel the exact same way! you are not alone. seriously, i am the EXACT same. i hate myself and i want to forget too. we just have to accept things, and move on. OCD will hold us back, we just have to keep trying.

@AlwaysHere Thank you! Your very kind :) I just feel as if you knew the things I did..you would see why I hate myself.. :(

@Hana240 i do not hate anybody. i could never. you shouldn’t hate yourself either. practice self compassion. forgive yourself, you know more now than you did then. if you knew better then, you wouldn’t have done it. right? :) look, i feel the same way. i could never tell anyone what i did, i was young. stupid. careless. i didn’t understand what i was doing/that it was wrong. i understand now though. and it seems you do too. if you need someone to talk to, i’m here. if you want to tell me about it, you can. we all need someone to look out for. and i am here. you are not alone.

@AlwaysHere Thank you so much :) I would love to tell someone but my anxiety of how they would react scares me. I have told someone on here and they were very nice and understanding.. if you have a social media or anything I could tell you on that or maybe one day I will be brave enough to post about it :)

I relate to this so much, but like @AlwaysHere said, you know better now and your mistakes are in the past. I think a lot of us view past mistakes as if we made them with the insight that we have now, but that’s just not the case at all. Every singe person makes mistakes that they’re not proud of and learn from them. Our ocd tries to use these mistakes as “proof” that we’re bad people or that we don’t deserve anything. You have to be kind to yourself, even when your ocd makes you feel like you don’t deserve it. We’re all in this together ?

@Hana240 i understand, i feel the same way. honestly, what i did was probably worse. :) my instagram (new for privacy) is “bethereforothersplease”. we can talk there !

@AlwaysHere I was reading here and now I am write a little about it. Hating myself is a great problem too, so I know how you feeling, and I wanted to quote something Hana said: How could I done these things in the past, thinking they were ok. This is like a key to understanding, because we are always changing, and in our case, for better. We acted bad, did wrong, but we learned from that and now we understand more, This also have a lot to do with forgiviness. I could say that my event was about me and my eldest sister, when I was like 12 or 14 years old, and kind of sexual assaulted her (disrespect or physical harm can also be used here). Not going into details, cause I learned that this can lead to a cycle of confessing with more details and things can be disgusting. Despite this, do you mind @AlwaysHere if I add you on instagram?

@Rob12 Thank you so much :) You are right...we are all in this together!❤

@Newstage You can add my Instagram to if you want :) its "staystrongandsmile_"

@Hana240 Ok, just added rn :)

@Newstage If you ever need anyone to talk to privately you can message me ... I dont judge a thing i promise :)

I am sorry we are going through this :( Its very hard and painful

Neither thoughts nor feelings are facts.

@Fear Strikes Out Yeah... I know.

@Believe Is thought balancing discussed in Brain Lock?

@Fear Strikes Out I don't know whether it is discussed in Brain Lock. Thought balancing is widely discussed in CBT. I'm sharing this after doing it myself from good CBT apps and websites.