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I've struggled with this before. Ask yourself if what you're doing is in response to anxiety and your obsession, and if you're doing it in order to feel relief from your anxiety. The compulsion that was so difficult for me to notice was ruminating and over analyzing. I had just thought that it was part of my obsession, but I realized I was taking part in it as a compulsion and how unhelpful it is. I would try to think my way out of my obsession. Repitive googling sounds like a compulsion (I've done this one before too) but I don't think it matters if it's classified as pure or physical. If it's a compulsion, it's a compulsion and trying to resist it while doing exposures can be helpful.
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I totally relate to this!
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ahhh thank you so much
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think of not doing what you think may be a compulsion. if just bu thinking of not doing it causes you distress/anxiety then it's a compulsion. also anything that makes you question whether it's ocd or not just treat it as OCD
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I’ve had a hard time with this too. I think a good way to realize if what your doing is a compulsion is if your thoughts or actions are purposely being done to reduce anxiety OR to help find certainty. A lot of my compulsions aren’t done to know my fear isn’t real but instead to be certain that my fear is or isn’t real. Compulsions aren’t only done to make you feel better but just to find KNOW whether something is real or not. So instead of constantly trying to find answers or make the thought go away try to let yourself think and feel whatever your body happens to experience and leave it at that without intentionally pushing the envelope even more.
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ah this is really helpful to me! i think most of my compulsions are more to find certainty than to abate anxiety if you get me? like i google and i ruminate and i seek reassurance when i’m doubting that i have ocd at all (which is irritatingly regular) i’m currently between therapists and struggling without that concrete pillar aha
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@cwllms I’m the same way and totally get it. I actually posted something similar on here a little while ago looking for the difference between an obsession and mental compulsion and someone responded saying obsessions create anxiety and compulsions decrease them and I just didn’t know if that was always the case. The next day I actually watched a YouTube video with Chrissy Hodgens and John Hershfield (both of whom I abosloutly love) and he explained that sometimes compulsions are used to find certainty and not just to make us feel better. It was a huge Aha moment for me. If you suffer from pure o I highly recommend checking Chrissy hodgens out, she really gets it. https://youtu.be/yWjb6O0OmLA here’s a link to that video I mentioned, you may find it really useful!
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If you ever feel like I need to do xyz to prevent abc from becoming true, It’s usually a compulsion.
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when i’m not thinking about a compulsion so i do things “regularly” does that mean it’s not OCD? i’m just confused is it all in my head? am i just faking it in my head all this time? sorry for posting so much my mind likes to go spiral lol
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I don't really know if these will count as ocd 'proof' and I'm almost trying to prove to myself that I have ocd at this point. I really don't know. And these don't even mention my current themes (pocd, soocd) and rocd but its kind of stopping idk. So here's what I wrote do you think it's worth mentioning or it even counts as ocd idk? -Blinking in a certain way, breathing in a certain manner till it feels right, making sure that im breathing right, holding my breath for a bit again and again, made sounds that disturbed others (my mom) because of that. -Focusing too much on my eyesight and what i see to make sure I don't have symptoms of an Illness in the eye, checking my body reactions a lot and getting scared. Checking my pulse regularly for a heart attack. Fear of dying, researching random illnesses of symptoms I have -When i was a child I pictured my family dying a lot and got intrusive thoughts about their heads being cut off, especially in Eid El adha (where we basically sacrifice cows and sheep) I couldn't handle being there because I was scared that the guy killing the cow will accidentally cut my mom's head instead and I'd picture it so graphically. random intrusive thoughts about me doing harm to others but they didn't make me anxious just disturbed, fear that someone will get in the house and kill my whole family since I was a child that I have a slight fear of doorbells. Can be sensitive to gorey images but not always a persistent fear unless I'm focused on it. In the streets I get stressed out by cars around me because I get thoughts that someone will shoot me and kill me from the car. Fear of dying in general as a kid I saw a video that talked about if you see fish in your dream it means you'll die soon and I wasn't able to sleep for a long time without literally collapsing out of tiredness because I was scared of sleeping and dying in my sleep. -Irrational fears when I hear really loud sounds, as a kid I'd hear sounds of parties or so and it stresses me out because I got intrusive thoughts about someone playing party songs but killing everyone in the enjoyment of the killing. Doorbell sounds stress me out and I keep hearing the doorbell ringing in my ears a lot that I check the door randomly sometimes. -When I play games I have to do things a certain way and I can click on a button multiple times in a different pattern until it feels right, repeating prayers constantly until they feel right. Same with the breathing from before idk if these count -I question morals a lot, I'm not sure If it's in an ocd manner but I am really scared of being a bad person with bad morals, I get scared I'm racist and sometimes I see someone from a different race and I get racist thoughts like racial slurs or so get in my head, I question morals in general a lot and the idea of them and why they exist. And that makes me scared that I'm just a terrible person and I don't want to be. I can fixate on "trying to do what's right" too much that I end up messing up more -Immense guilt on things from a long time ago that I already dealt with. -what I'd say my worst compulsions are (pure o I think) : Checking constantly, feelings or thoughts or reactions. Sneaky reassurance seeking from friends and confessing my thoughts. Excessive ruminating trying to find an answer, can take so long out of my life that I can't eat or drink. Researching my thoughts and asking people. Repeating prayers in my head constantly even though I'm not religious anymore but I get so disturbed by my thoughts.
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Hi! It’s pretty difficult for me to get the courage to post this but I’m really struggling to figure out if what I’m experiencing is OCD or Anxiety or neither. I think I have the “pure O” type of OCD where most of my compulsions take the form of ruminating and trying to figure out something all in my head. When I hear this talked about in forums or online the intrusive thoughts don’t really match mine- I worry often about things that seem more “grounded” if that makes sense. A common one for me is my own identity- i will spend long amounts of time stuck in my head trying to figure out my feelings (often sadness or other real emotions I have and patterns I have) and why I feel that way and what in my life caused that and how it’s impacting other things in my life. I also think often about which parts of my personality are the real me and which aren’t. Sometimes this takes the form of strictly ruminating and sometimes I have fake conversations with people I know. It’s intense and I feel I have to figure it out but with no specific intrusive thought that says something like “you have to figure this out or all of your loved ones will die” but it’s very intense. I think also often of all of the decisions I need to make in the future and how they’re going to affect those I love and care about as well as how much I’ll regret them. I imagine all of the ways I think my actions will emotionally hurt others and how to make the least harmful decision, but to me this feels like a valid concern but go over and over and never come to a conclusion. I often just get scared and never make any move because I don’t see an option that doesn’t hurt someone somehow. But again I’m having a hard time identifying the intrusive thought behind it. But I also don’t choose to think about these things most of the time. This is almost all decisions but especially big life decisions. It’s such a struggle because they are things I eventually do have to make decisions about. There is so much more to it that would take too long to explain but in general a lot of my fears revolve around pleasing others/ understanding others emotions to ensure they’re okay, my own identity and personality, and work/school performance. Someone mentioned OCD to me because in my head it feels like I have to solve these things and will go over and over them but I seriously can’t figure out if it’s anxiety, OCD, or none of the above. It’s all very disruptive to my life. I am never not thinking or not trying to figure something out and I feel as if I have no control over it Anyone have any insight?
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