- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
I’m having a rough time as well my friend. I’m so deep in my theme. I can barely go on social media because of all the awful things happening and then I get triggered. I don’t have much advice, but I want you to know you are not alone. And the more you try to combat the thoughts, the stronger and more real they will seem. Best thing to do is to just let them be and do not even analyze them or give them the time of day.
I think we have to figure out a way to live with our thoughts. The worst we do is dreaming of being relieved of something that's always been a part of our life. And that doesn't mean we are mean. It is just we feel things harsher than others. Most of the time, what you feel doesn't come from inside of yourself but outside, from life itself. You have got traumatized by violence and sadness happening throughout the world and have been interiorizing those things since then. Learn to trust YOURSELF, what you feel doesn't mean you are mean or evil, otherwise you wouldn't be here writing in an OCD website to get some help.
This was amazing to read. Thank you so much
ahazlett you want to talk about it ?
I have ROCD and it’s not even intrusive thoughts at this point. It’s actual feelings that I wanna dump my boyfriend but I felt fine and in love before
I made some research after you talking to me about this. I didn't know this obssession. I think It works the same as for "normal" OCD. The more you fix yourself on your OCD, the more it's getting worse. But it is difficult not to care about it we feel constantly responsible for our thoughts so that most of the time it come from harsh things we've been through into our lives. Courage ! ?❤️
I’ve had a rough couple weeks too :(
Last week was a lot easier for me. I felt like thoughts didn’t control me and my actions as much as they did earlier. Today was really hard for me and I feel like I’m starting to lose hope again:( I can’t take the thoughts and the feelings that come with them anymore. I feel like I have failed and I’m never going to be happy again.
I’ve been triggered so bad this week I’ve had bad anxiety and feel depression coming on. Last night I had a thought oh let’s plan it and I immediately thought why would I think that and started crying bad. I’ve had these thoughts for 7 months I really don’t know why I’m having these thoughts, if I knew I would work on it. Like people say has something happened in your life for you to have these thoughts and nothing has happened, it all started off from what if thoughts , like “what if I’m a psycho” because I saw this fb post saying introverts are more likely to become psychopaths and it all spiralled from there I started getting thoughts about harm towards others and myself. What do you think guys should I treat it like ocd or do you think there’s something seriously wrong with me.
I had a really stressful couple of weeks and it's all hitting me right now. I cannot for the life of me shut off my brain my thoughts for a little and it feels like drowning. It's 1 a.m. here and I'm feeling completely hopeless like this feeling is going to last forever. I'm feeling like I can't use the tools I've been given my my psychologist and my meds feel like they've stopped working. I feel like by the end of the end I'm going to lose my mind. I usually am able to find some silver lining but today has been so bad. Everything triggers me and I have really bad intrusive thoughts about dying and finding some peace but I know that's not what I want. It's just so difficult navigating life when your brain works against you. I'm so tired and defeated and I feel like I have no one to turn to, but even that is some form of reassurance and it makes me spiral that I decide actively against it. I just feel like I'm losing my mind and I'm going "insane" from the distress. All my failed friendships and relationships have come back to haunt me and I feel like I can't get out of the house. All my sort comings are layed out in front of me and I feel like I am the worst person in the world and nothing will fix that. I have some real bad thoughts about my friends and family. And I know alla of this is classic symptoms of OCD but even though I know I can't rationalize and come to peace with them. I'm so envious of people being able to lead a normal life without this burden and in my mind it's just highlights all my shortcomings. I've had moments like this before but the last really nasty one was four years ago when I was yet undiagnosed and I really felt insane back then. I was hoping that when this happened to me again I'd be more capable of handling it but I don't think I am. I'm constantly on a battle against my mind and some times I win and sometimes I lose. I'm sorry for the rant I just feel extremely hopeless right now.
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