- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I’m having a rough time as well my friend. I’m so deep in my theme. I can barely go on social media because of all the awful things happening and then I get triggered. I don’t have much advice, but I want you to know you are not alone. And the more you try to combat the thoughts, the stronger and more real they will seem. Best thing to do is to just let them be and do not even analyze them or give them the time of day.
I think we have to figure out a way to live with our thoughts. The worst we do is dreaming of being relieved of something that's always been a part of our life. And that doesn't mean we are mean. It is just we feel things harsher than others. Most of the time, what you feel doesn't come from inside of yourself but outside, from life itself. You have got traumatized by violence and sadness happening throughout the world and have been interiorizing those things since then. Learn to trust YOURSELF, what you feel doesn't mean you are mean or evil, otherwise you wouldn't be here writing in an OCD website to get some help.
This was amazing to read. Thank you so much
ahazlett you want to talk about it ?
I have ROCD and it’s not even intrusive thoughts at this point. It’s actual feelings that I wanna dump my boyfriend but I felt fine and in love before
I made some research after you talking to me about this. I didn't know this obssession. I think It works the same as for "normal" OCD. The more you fix yourself on your OCD, the more it's getting worse. But it is difficult not to care about it we feel constantly responsible for our thoughts so that most of the time it come from harsh things we've been through into our lives. Courage ! ?❤️
I’ve had a rough couple weeks too :(
I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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