MJocd
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- 5y
AlyoshaAlyosha
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- 5y
That sounds hard. I went through a rough patch where I didn’t know what job I could hold that wouldn’t make God angry. I was 26. I lived with my parents and was unemployed for nine months. It was hard. I helped out a lot around the house, and my parents never guilted need for being unemployed. Eventually, I got a job cleaning one house twice a month. It wasn’t much, but it felt good to earn my own money again. Eventually that one house turned into a small cleaning service, and I’m now out of my parents’ house, supporting myself. What is your business?
Fear Strikes OutFear Strikes...
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- 5y
What's that saying, every journey begins with the first step? Congratulations to you on your perseverance.
AlyoshaAlyosha
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- 5y
@Fear Strikes Out Thank you! I’d like to move on to something that more suits my talents. Still a little mired in cognition to make that step but hopefully I am, again, taking steps toward that.
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- 5y
@Alyosha What might that be in terms of career?
AlyoshaAlyosha
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- 5y
@Fear Strikes Out Artist, writer, historian, therapist. I’d actually just earned my master’s degree in history when the above hit. It’s been really hard to know how to frame all that went down after that.
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@Alyosha There's a lot of different skills and potential career opportunities from the interests you listed. Are you up for more schooling to become a therapist?
AlyoshaAlyosha
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- 5y
@Fear Strikes Out I *love* school. ...Just need the money lol
MJocdMJocd
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- 5y
I'm a trying henna artist. At the moment I only have 1 booking, but I'm using that money for good photo shots for my instagram. I'm struggling to grow it and get known in my area. Even just 4 or 5 booking a year would lead me to be able to register as an actual business, I cant do that yet as I haven't been passed the threshold. It's hard. I'm also studying to get my qualification to head off to uni, I want to study law. I'm 22. I feel guilty everyday for wasting away the last 4 years, being bed ridden, depressed, confused and failing. My parents are kind, they help me alot but I feel so useless to them. Hopefully my bro turns out better than me :(. I really need to pass my exams next year and get to uni as my mum has helped fund extra tuition for me.
AlyoshaAlyosha
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- 5y
@MJocd Tbh your response is heartbreaking. To hear you say you hope your brother turns out better than you... ? I heard someone say: the mental health issue isn’t your fault, but it is your responsibility to seek help and do what you can. You’re on here, looking for help. You’re working on starting a business. You’re studying so you can learn law. Don’t sell yourself short. In families, we take turns holding each other up. It’s ok to take your turn being the one who needs to be held. You’ll get there. At the end of each episode of “The OCD Stories” podcast, the host asks the guest “What would you tell your younger self?” One guest said, “I think I needed to go through what I did in order to become the person I am.” You see those four years as a waste, but maybe they’re just a tense, dramatic chapter in what is going to be a fantastic story. Hang in there.
Fear Strikes OutFear Strikes...
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- 5y
On the other hand, many people have lost their jobs, will eventually lose their homes, suicide rates are on the rise, and some do not have anything to eat. There is always an opposite reality that co-exists. What would you like to be doing occupationally if you were already qualified? If it requires more schooling, I would probably focus on the path to becoming qualified educationally, You appear to have the advantage to live at home still without the costs associated with living on your own. Any other advantages?
frenchbadgerfrenchbadger
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- 5y
So much of what you wrote feels so relatable to my current situation.. Your last paragraph sums it up so well. It makes me feel like crap - with the usual guilt and shame - I'm trying to entertain my mind as much as possible to avoid getting into sad mental loops. I wish I had advice for you but I don't ^^ I hope you'll find a way to get back on track and do something you'll enjoy :)
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