- Username
- MJocd
- Date posted
- 4y ago
That sounds hard. I went through a rough patch where I didn’t know what job I could hold that wouldn’t make God angry. I was 26. I lived with my parents and was unemployed for nine months. It was hard. I helped out a lot around the house, and my parents never guilted need for being unemployed. Eventually, I got a job cleaning one house twice a month. It wasn’t much, but it felt good to earn my own money again. Eventually that one house turned into a small cleaning service, and I’m now out of my parents’ house, supporting myself. What is your business?
What's that saying, every journey begins with the first step? Congratulations to you on your perseverance.
@Fear Strikes Out Thank you! I’d like to move on to something that more suits my talents. Still a little mired in cognition to make that step but hopefully I am, again, taking steps toward that.
@Alyosha What might that be in terms of career?
@Fear Strikes Out Artist, writer, historian, therapist. I’d actually just earned my master’s degree in history when the above hit. It’s been really hard to know how to frame all that went down after that.
@Alyosha There's a lot of different skills and potential career opportunities from the interests you listed. Are you up for more schooling to become a therapist?
@Fear Strikes Out I *love* school. ...Just need the money lol
I'm a trying henna artist. At the moment I only have 1 booking, but I'm using that money for good photo shots for my instagram. I'm struggling to grow it and get known in my area. Even just 4 or 5 booking a year would lead me to be able to register as an actual business, I cant do that yet as I haven't been passed the threshold. It's hard. I'm also studying to get my qualification to head off to uni, I want to study law. I'm 22. I feel guilty everyday for wasting away the last 4 years, being bed ridden, depressed, confused and failing. My parents are kind, they help me alot but I feel so useless to them. Hopefully my bro turns out better than me :(. I really need to pass my exams next year and get to uni as my mum has helped fund extra tuition for me.
@MJocd Tbh your response is heartbreaking. To hear you say you hope your brother turns out better than you... ? I heard someone say: the mental health issue isn’t your fault, but it is your responsibility to seek help and do what you can. You’re on here, looking for help. You’re working on starting a business. You’re studying so you can learn law. Don’t sell yourself short. In families, we take turns holding each other up. It’s ok to take your turn being the one who needs to be held. You’ll get there. At the end of each episode of “The OCD Stories” podcast, the host asks the guest “What would you tell your younger self?” One guest said, “I think I needed to go through what I did in order to become the person I am.” You see those four years as a waste, but maybe they’re just a tense, dramatic chapter in what is going to be a fantastic story. Hang in there.
On the other hand, many people have lost their jobs, will eventually lose their homes, suicide rates are on the rise, and some do not have anything to eat. There is always an opposite reality that co-exists. What would you like to be doing occupationally if you were already qualified? If it requires more schooling, I would probably focus on the path to becoming qualified educationally, You appear to have the advantage to live at home still without the costs associated with living on your own. Any other advantages?
So much of what you wrote feels so relatable to my current situation.. Your last paragraph sums it up so well. It makes me feel like crap - with the usual guilt and shame - I'm trying to entertain my mind as much as possible to avoid getting into sad mental loops. I wish I had advice for you but I don't ^^ I hope you'll find a way to get back on track and do something you'll enjoy :)
Honestly I'm just going to rant here. But I've been so mentally ill that I haven't been able to work and I feel so useless and unworthy. I'm 24 years old already and I don't work as much as I need to or am motivated and full of magic as I use to be. And that REALLY FUCKING GETS ME DOWN
Has anybody out here ever been so depressed and anxious that you feel as if you’ve completely let your life go? For example: I haven’t gotten a haircut in months, I wear the same clothes all the time (no motivation to wash them even though it’s downstairs,) my apartment is an unbearable mess (all my life before this disease I was neat as a pin,) my mailbox is probably flooded from not checking it for weeks, I’ve been putting off projects I’d like to do that I know will make me feel better, my to-do list has stayed stagnant for over half the year, I never wear make up or do my nails like I used to… I feel like a terrible bum. Everyday I just sit on the couch and pray to survive the day and then it ends there. Oh, and I’m sure my car looks terrible, as I haven’t been the one driving it lately. I’m also always stressed about money and hang onto every penny I possibly can even if it means taking away necessary things. I feel like I’m going to explode. :( If any of you have ever let everything go before, how did you go back to normal/bring it all back together? I’m afraid I’m going to live this way forever. Any advice would be so incredibly appreciated. I would be so ecstatic to hear your story — we may be able to help each other even. Thank you so much.
I think it’s going to be a while before I can get professional help. Does anyone have any advice for things I can read or listen to or whatever? I feel so defeated and numb. I feel just stuck. I don’t have a job or anything and don’t know how to drive yet. Life happened and covid didn’t help, we moved a couple times in the middle of covid, so I’ve just been behind on things. My mom was going to help me with therapy but I don’t think that can happen right now. And that’s ok, I’m lucky she even offered to help. I shouldn’t have put that burden on her to feel like she needed to help me. I want to get a job and eventually pay for help myself, it’s my own problems anyway I don’t want my mom doing that for me. But since I can’t do that right now I have too much time to just sit in my head all day. I just want to try to make some sort of effort until I’m able to get all of that figured out.
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