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Wanting to share this with you both. It helped me a lot. I'm not leaving the house except for medical appointments but its helping me live more calmly in my home https://youtu.be/zoXXRRC3opk
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Thank you, its quite long so I will watch it later. Thank you very much.
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It's a really difficult time, especially for people with contamination OCD. The boundary between reasonable and unreasonable precautions has shifted. Here's the iocdf webpage all about covid and ocdhttps://iocdf.org/covid19/#more-info
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Aw thank you so much, and I'm sure it was hard to avoid reassuring me. But I do appreciate it. That's exactly it, I'm angry and tired because of the ocd bully and so angry thaty partner needlessly upset my safe zone. I coukd maybe see through it if it was something nessecary. But then again I shoukfnt be putting restrictions on get actions because of my worries no matter what. It's just a nightnare and I'm so fed up with it
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I can definitely relate. I’ve barely left the house in the past 6 months. I haven’t been to the grocery store or anywhere public. I like to go running, but even that feels difficult these days knowing I’ll likely pass people on the street. I’m moving soon, and I’m feeling extremely worried about movers touching my things 😬 I honestly don’t know what’s reasonable and what’s not.
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We are thinking of moving soon too and I'm dreading it!! I will be out a fortune in surface cleanser. I've already ordered shrink wrap to cover my mattress. Its just horrendous, I'm even watching my partners everymove to see what she hads touched and hasn't. Ocd and that 0.001 percent that you might over overlooked. It's a bully as who can ever be 100% certain of anything. Perfect certainty doesn't exisit and our tired brains are always searching for it. I try to talk myself round. Reiterating that I've done my best with the cleaning and that's all I can do
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I am also on this wild ride with Covid anxiety/contamination OCD. Totally relate to your situation. I've just started therapy through NOCD and it helps to have someone just listen to my irrational fears, then give me tools to help put those fears in their place. She also acknowledges that right now, it can be tough to tell the difference between a sensible habit and an OCD compulsion. So I do my ERP exercises as assigned, and try not to get discouraged when the anxiety takes over and I give in to whatever compulsion numbs the fear.
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Thank you, I am trying to use the erp but it's hard and I am getting angry at my partner because I imagine in my mind that she didn't wipe things down correctly. And I keep asking her to reassure me which I know is wrong. For example I left her to wipe some items down that someone she works with brought In the house. She wiped it but admitted it wasn't thouorgh as it was an electrical item. Now my mind feels its contaminated. Normally this would be fine but because of covid I'm worrying and feel that it needs wiped again. Do I just resist and trust that it's OK? It's the 5% uncertainty that covid is living in there that drives me mad. She was then fiddling with the item and wouldn't wash her hands she looked at me with distain when I made her use hand sanitiser. I feel her hands are contaminated with covid now. I know I shoukd use ERP for this but what if I am being rational and there was a risk and I then ignored it and 2 weeks from now we have contracted the virus. My head is mangled.
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@Rosie38 Why does going through this, every little thing makes me irritated and angry
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I don't know. Maybe because we get scared. And exhausted from the constant state of worrying. And it's so hard to sit with the anxiety and do nothing. So everything runs together in OCD glop and we get mad at everyone around us for upsetting our safe zone. I wish I had just the right thing to say that isn't a reassurance, that would help you, me and everyone else here get better in the snap of a finger. I don't, or I'd be the hottest thing in OCD therapy right now ;) Let's just keep fighting the fight. OCD is a bully that can be overcome.
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Recently, I’ve been struggling a ton with what I eat/put into my body? I’m a first year college student with a few different health issues (including IBS), and lately it’s been hard for me to find food on campus that doesn’t upset my stomach. I also have pretty severe emetophobia, and feel extremely anxious when I feel sick. The ironic thing is that being anxious makes me feel even worse, so I end up sticking myself in an impossible loophole. My OCD has taken hold of these fears over the past few months, and it’s been such a struggle. Especially since people have been getting food poisoning from various dining halls on my campus lately. My OCD has gotten so bad that sometimes I’m too afraid to eat food other than what I buy myself. I feel so trapped. I don’t want my OCD to affect my physical health or prevent me from eating, bc I love eating!! It’s the fear of getting sick that’s the problem. And it’s even harder when everything is so unfamiliar. Just wondering if anyone could relate. Advice is appreciated!
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So I have pretty intense contamination OCD tied to Moral/Real event OCD, and I'm having a hard time with it because part of me does genuinely believe my logic checks out, and I was hoping to get some insight as to how to change the way I see it from other people who sort of get the mindset involved :). To sum it up as well as I can, I basically have a very souped-up version of the same item-event association most people have. For example, let's say you have a HORRIBLE, GOD AWFUL relationship with a person you can't even begin to think of favorably even years after the event. They had gotten you a stuffed animal for your anniversary at some point. You finally "escape" the relationship, and you throw away the stuffed animal. This is seen as a very normal and sound-of-mind action. Here's where things get tricky: For me, throwing out that stuffed animal wouldn't be enough. After all, it touched my table didn't it? And my table touched the floor right? And these things now carry that person's germs. And if I don't get rid of them, then they'll infect my future belongings. This logic isn't entirely flawed either, as even my OCD specialist said he believes in a "weaker version of what I do". How am I supposed to convince myself that what I'm believing is false when the literal psychologist confirmed that what I'm doing is just a more in-depth version of a normal experience? Ex: I have a new outfit, fresh and clean. I'm unbothered and happy, but I knick the side of a table. The table holds awful associations. I get this awful sense of dread. The clothes are now somewhat sullied, and I'll eventually have to give them away. I don't think I'm explaining this as well as I could, but I feel like those notions are there. Anyways, does anyone have any insight as to how to get my mind to genuinely believe that interacting with these things is "safe"?
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(long read ahead, sorry lol) I’ve struggled with ocd for as far back as I can remember. I find that it gets worse with stress, and recently I’ve really been struggling with the contamination aspect of my ocd. I’m worried about it becoming unmanageable and negatively affecting my relationship with my partner. I’ve been living with my boyfriend since January (got kicked out of my house a week after I turned 18, it’s for the better though my house is toxic as hell) and I love living with him, but him and his family aren’t as concerned with cleaning as I am used to. My boyfriend and I have been together going on 2 years and there’s been many times throughout our relationship that his struggle with depression severely impacted his ability to keep up with cleaning his room. This is something I completely understand because I’ve struggled with it too so i’ve often helped him clean, and since i’ve moved in he’s done so much better at keeping up with cleaning (especially because he knows about my issues with clutter, mess, germs, etc.) He is really good at being accommodating towards my needs (not overly so, i’m aware that recovering includes accepting being uncomfortable), but it’s so hard for me to differentiate between what is the normal standard for cleanliness and hygiene and what’s excessive and unhealthy. I get so stressed out every single day over the thought of how dirty everything is. He has 3 cats that mainly stay in his room (he has a catio attached to his window/side of the house) and dogs which stay on the opposite side of the house and backyard, so there is fur everywhere constantly (i’m also allergic to cats but it’s not severe). I can’t stop thinking about how they are getting germs from their litter box all over everything. They also used to piss under his bed and in his closet when his room used to be a mess and it’s soaked into the floor so no matter what it stinks. It’s so hard to bring myself to walk around the house without slippers because my feet will get visibly dirty and my socks would get covered in hair. I always think about how my boyfriend sometimes walks on the rugs in the bathroom in shoes and all the germs that spreads. There’s so many more things but this is already getting long and I am shaking just thinking about how unclean everything is. I want to deep clean the entire house myself so I can get it to where It’s not like psychological torture everyday and it’s easier to maintain but I have been so busy I don’t have the time. I am worried about my boyfriend thinking I don’t like living with him or that I think that’s he’s dirty but i don’t. We have had several conversations about this and he’s reassured me that he knows none of my obsessive thoughts are personal but I still feel so bad about it. I would like to get therapy to help work through this but currently that is not an option for me. I know things will get better once I get through the main things in my life that are causing a lot of stress and therefore making my ocd flair up, but I need advice on what to do in the mean time. I keep having moments where all I can do is shake and cry and clean and I feel bad for my poor boyfriend who can only sit next to me and try to comfort me or help me clean. I also don’t want to make him worried that nothing he does is enough for me (i’ve also already talked to him about this and told him about how I can never even be clean enough for myself and that I don’t think he’s dirty). There’s been many times where I want to tell him to do things that I think might be my own unhealthy compulsions (ex. not wearing shoes in the house or in our room, not getting into bed with socks on, making sure to completely dry off before getting out the shower, put makeup and jewelry back where they belong right after using them, etc.) but i can’t tell if they’re reasonable or not and i try to not tell him unless it’s something that severely distresses me. I’m aware that everything is going to have germs no matter what and have been using NER’s to help manage my thought spirals/rumination. I know that I shouldn’t keep doing compulsions because it just offers temporary relief and makes the problem worse because nothing will ever be enough. I just feeling so overwhelmed and hopeless and exhausted and want some feedback.
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