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Wanting to share this with you both. It helped me a lot. I'm not leaving the house except for medical appointments but its helping me live more calmly in my home https://youtu.be/zoXXRRC3opk
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Thank you, its quite long so I will watch it later. Thank you very much.
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- 4y ago
It's a really difficult time, especially for people with contamination OCD. The boundary between reasonable and unreasonable precautions has shifted. Here's the iocdf webpage all about covid and ocdhttps://iocdf.org/covid19/#more-info
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Aw thank you so much, and I'm sure it was hard to avoid reassuring me. But I do appreciate it. That's exactly it, I'm angry and tired because of the ocd bully and so angry thaty partner needlessly upset my safe zone. I coukd maybe see through it if it was something nessecary. But then again I shoukfnt be putting restrictions on get actions because of my worries no matter what. It's just a nightnare and I'm so fed up with it
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I can definitely relate. I’ve barely left the house in the past 6 months. I haven’t been to the grocery store or anywhere public. I like to go running, but even that feels difficult these days knowing I’ll likely pass people on the street. I’m moving soon, and I’m feeling extremely worried about movers touching my things 😬 I honestly don’t know what’s reasonable and what’s not.
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We are thinking of moving soon too and I'm dreading it!! I will be out a fortune in surface cleanser. I've already ordered shrink wrap to cover my mattress. Its just horrendous, I'm even watching my partners everymove to see what she hads touched and hasn't. Ocd and that 0.001 percent that you might over overlooked. It's a bully as who can ever be 100% certain of anything. Perfect certainty doesn't exisit and our tired brains are always searching for it. I try to talk myself round. Reiterating that I've done my best with the cleaning and that's all I can do
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I am also on this wild ride with Covid anxiety/contamination OCD. Totally relate to your situation. I've just started therapy through NOCD and it helps to have someone just listen to my irrational fears, then give me tools to help put those fears in their place. She also acknowledges that right now, it can be tough to tell the difference between a sensible habit and an OCD compulsion. So I do my ERP exercises as assigned, and try not to get discouraged when the anxiety takes over and I give in to whatever compulsion numbs the fear.
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Thank you, I am trying to use the erp but it's hard and I am getting angry at my partner because I imagine in my mind that she didn't wipe things down correctly. And I keep asking her to reassure me which I know is wrong. For example I left her to wipe some items down that someone she works with brought In the house. She wiped it but admitted it wasn't thouorgh as it was an electrical item. Now my mind feels its contaminated. Normally this would be fine but because of covid I'm worrying and feel that it needs wiped again. Do I just resist and trust that it's OK? It's the 5% uncertainty that covid is living in there that drives me mad. She was then fiddling with the item and wouldn't wash her hands she looked at me with distain when I made her use hand sanitiser. I feel her hands are contaminated with covid now. I know I shoukd use ERP for this but what if I am being rational and there was a risk and I then ignored it and 2 weeks from now we have contracted the virus. My head is mangled.
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@Rosie38 Why does going through this, every little thing makes me irritated and angry
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I don't know. Maybe because we get scared. And exhausted from the constant state of worrying. And it's so hard to sit with the anxiety and do nothing. So everything runs together in OCD glop and we get mad at everyone around us for upsetting our safe zone. I wish I had just the right thing to say that isn't a reassurance, that would help you, me and everyone else here get better in the snap of a finger. I don't, or I'd be the hottest thing in OCD therapy right now ;) Let's just keep fighting the fight. OCD is a bully that can be overcome.
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- 16w ago
I don't know what to do, my hands have become so numb and bruised because of constant washing hands, i have started hating each and every furniture around me, beacuse i feel they are not clean although they are being cleaned regularly but i cannot stop these thoughts. I clean my phone, bluetooth, charger with wet wipes each day, i don't touch any object around me, i am not being able to focus on my studies or anything else because of my ocd ihave stopped going out, everyone around me is so fed up of me. I have consulted so many therapists and been taking ayurvedic supplements too but nothing works. It is getting worse and worse, please if anybody can suggest me how to overcome these thoughts!
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So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
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